40. Chapter 40

CARINA’S POV

I opened and closed my hands trying to get the blood to circulate through my body in different places than my face that was now burning with anger - and arousal, I must confess - after hearing that Maya had talked to that woman. The way she had looked at - stared at - Maya's body even though she knew that she was taken had told me everything I needed to know about that woman, and I hated that my girlfriend, bless her beautiful and innocent heart, was completely clueless about what was going on around her.

Vuole solo essere amica, un corno! - She just wants to be friends, my ass!

I also hated that Maya had such strong arguments against me, because she had never really given me any reason to be suspicious or jealous of her after the beginning of our official relationship. Maya always looked at me with such love and complete adoration that it was sometimes impossible to think that she had ever been with anyone else because everything about her told me that she was mine and I really hoped that it was more than clear that I was completely hers as well.

That damn Adrienne managed to see how beautiful Maya was on the outside - and of course, I was always very proud of her looks - but my biggest fear was that Maya would let the French girl get to know her and she would realize what a beautiful, kind, loving human being my girlfriend was. Well, that, and that Maya would somehow find that freaking French girl attractive in some way because, let's be honest, she wasn't ugly.

-Ugh! - I grunted, pressing the palm of my hands firmly against my eyes trying to get rid of the frustration building up inside me. - Trust Maya! Trust Maya!

It wasn't a matter of trust alone, I knew that. Much of the confidence I kept showing to the people around me was not directly proportional to the confidence I had inside me – probably because I always had to constantly prove myself when I was around my father - and somehow something inside me always wondered how much I would have to please someone to keep them by my side.

What if Maya gets tired of me? What if Maya finds a more interesting woman? More beautiful? With a sexier accent?

-No! - I slammed my foot firmly against the floor and was more than happy to be alone at that moment. I needed to get back in control of the situation and stop thinking about the possibilities. I needed to think about the love I knew Maya had for me, and the complicity and trust we had in our relationship.

Maya is the most honorable person I know; she would never cheat on me.

And knowing this, repeating this mantra in my mind, would have to be enough.

I walked up the stairs still thinking about her words, about the way her body had been so close to mine, about how red her face was, with a few beads of sweat running down her cheeks and down her long neck, my body definitely remembered how turned on I had been by the possibility of having her sweaty body grabbing me with its strong muscles, but now all I wanted more than anything was to take her, to fuck her until her body, mind, and heart knew - memorized - that she was truly only mine.

I entered our bedroom and went to the closet, opened the first drawer, and grabbed from there the underwear that worked as a strap-on - putting the bullet vibrator in the appropriate pocket - and the pink dildo that usually accompanied it; I would need my hands for what I wanted to do to Maya that night. I picked up the objects and went to the bed, placing them on the mattress in time to hear the shower being turned off inside the bathroom.

-It took you long enough. - I muttered as the bathroom door opened.

-I'm sorry, I took my time, didn't I? I had to wash my hair; I was all sweaty and... - Maya spoke, still wrapped in her towel as she left the bathroom but shut up as soon as she realized that I was taking off my kimono, now wearing only the lingerie she had chosen for me.

-Go to bed. - I pointed to the mattress with my chin, and Maya arched her eyebrows. - Sit on the edge, legs out, your back straight, hands on your lap.

Maya moistened her lips, but moved to do as I asked, her eyes hardly moving from my body as I also moved closer to her.

-Leave the towel. - I spoke before she could sit down; Maya frowned for only a second before doing what I ordered.

The thought that someone else might even try to get close to that body brought the anger that I had been trying to appease inside me back to the surface with full force; I clenched my fists as I watched Maya sit down exactly as I had instructed. The position of her hands brought her breasts - partially covered by her wet blonde locks – together, leaving them slightly more pushed towards me and also allowing me to see the line of her defined biceps; her perfect posture made her shoulders even wider and the hands on her lap partially hid her soft pussy, a fucking tease.

-Why did you choose this lingerie? - I asked, standing in front of her, looking into her blue eyes for a second before lowering my gaze to the perfect curve of her lips.

-It's pretty. - Maya answered, her eyes roaming over my body without any discretion.

-Isn't yellow one of your favorite colors? - I asked back knowing what the answer was, yet Maya nodded a few times. - You wanted your woman to dress up for you and put your favorite color on her body, didn't you?

Maya's eyes returned to mine, I took two steps forward and reached out both my hands to touch her knees in a gentle caress.

-Yes. - Maya finally answered, and I could see the movement in her throat as she swallowed hard.

-Because that's what I am, isn't it Maya? - I asked softly, spreading her knees apart and taking another step forward so that I could get between them. - You told me that, I'm your woman.

-Yes. - Her voice was getting lower and lower, and I could feel the electricity running between our bodies, the tension was so great that I felt practically attracted to Maya's body.

-For you to do whatever you want. - I pointed, running my fingertips up her thighs. - For you to touch any way you want.

-For me to love so very much. - Maya added, and her few words brought me peace and comfort and calmed some of the confusion that had settled in my chest. - Because I love you, Carina. You and only you.

-I know. - I brought my hands to either side of her face, stroking her cheeks with my thumbs before leaning in and capturing her lips in a gentle kiss, just a press of our lips, but still feeling Maya's sigh against my face. - Are you mine, Maya?

I asked, looking deep into her eyes, and as much as I knew her answer, as much as we had both been constantly reinforcing that we belonged to each other during all these months we had been together, as much as we belonged to each other even before we knew our names when we fell in love with each other ten years ago, I needed those words to calm my fears and my insecurities.

-I am. - Maya answered without blinking, without averting her eyes from mine, without a smile, without any indication that she wasn't being completely, absurdly, honest at that moment. - I am completely yours, Carina.

My stomach was full of butterflies at that moment and my body warmed up completely.

Maya was mine.

Only mine.

I took two steps back, bringing one of my hands up to my back as I unclasped the clasp of my bra.

-Spread your legs. - My voice was lower and huskier; Maya immediately did as I asked as I pulled my bra down, letting it fall to my feet before beginning to remove the panties I was wearing. - Look at you... Is that beautiful pink pussy mine too?

-Y-yes. - Maya stuttered, briefly widening her eyes, and I knew that every time I talked dirty, I stirred something inside Maya.

-Let me taste it, then. - I spoke as I moved closer to her body again, placing one knee on the floor and tucking both my arms under her thighs, lifting them up until Maya was leaning against the bed.

-Carina? - She called out to me, and I pressed my lips against the inside of her left thigh, but looked up at her face to let her know that I was paying attention to her words. - Can I cum?

I let out a low chuckle, reveling in the fact that Maya's biggest concern at that moment was that I might be seeking some punishment by depriving her of her orgasm.

-Yes, Maya, you can cum. You can cum as many times as you want. - I said and kissed the inside of her other thigh. - But know that it won't make me stop. It won't make me hesitate. I won't slow down until I've done everything I want to do with your body. With the body that is mine. Don't beg, just say "yes, ma'am" to everything I say.

-Y-yes, ma'am. - Maya stuttered again as I brought my mouth to her crotch, snaking my tongue up and down to near her labia before moving back closer to her thigh.

-I love the way you smell, the way you taste. - As if to prove my point, I stuck out my tongue and gave her a wide lick between her folds, collecting some of her wetness and moaning at the taste of Maya against my tongue. - In fact, you are only allowed to cum in my mouth tonight, I want to taste you every single time.

-My God... - Maya gasped and I moved my eyes to her face seeing her lips parted, the wrinkle between her eyebrows as she tried to hold back, to gather some of her remaining patience as I teased her with my whispered words against her center. I licked her once more, slowly, in an intentional torture. – Plea-…

Maya started to speak but interrupted herself - surely remembering that I had told her not to beg - and the loud clenching of her teeth proved her frustrated state.

-You're mine, Maya! - I whispered sweetly against her center again, another slow lick, again her eyes on mine, her mouth opening a little wider, her breathing a little more audible. - Mine!

There was no brutality behind my words, I needed to start slowly, I needed to start by putting her back in the aroused state that she had been in until a few minutes ago.

-I love how wet you get when I tease you. - I murmured and then licked her a few times, my tongue going from her entrance to her clit and back the same path a few times, never really focusing on any one spot. Maya moaned and clutched the sheets at the sides of her body as she kept herself leaning back due to the position of her legs; I pressed my fingers deeper against her thighs and didn't stop my movements for another few seconds. - Your clit is so sensitive.

As soon as the words were out of my mouth I closed my lips around her sensitive bud, sucking it into my mouth and letting it slowly slide out only to capture it again.

-Shit! - Maya rolled her hips against my mouth with some difficulty, and as much as I wanted to scold her to demonstrate my control, her lack of control flattered me.

-Your pussy gets so tight. - I brought my tongue to her entrance and slowly penetrated her, going as deep as I could, feeling her walls clenching against me as Maya moved her hips forward wanting more of the contact, wanting to be filled by me. I made a slow back and forth motion, feeling her thighs quiver on my shoulders, hearing the rustle of the sheets being squeezed by her strong hands that now sported such prominent veins, and when I looked up at her torso, I saw it glistening with the sweat that already coated her body.

-No, please! - Maya begged as soon as I pulled away, she grunted next. - I can't... I can't not beg...

I let out a low chuckle as I slowly licked her center one more time and penetrated her once more, pulling out of her next and sucking her labia slowly into my mouth, tasting more of her flavor, closing my eyes in delight, and Maya grunted in frustration, rolling her hips, wanting to thrust her center into my mouth, causing me to open my eyes and direct a harsh stare at her. The blonde bit her lower lip hard, her chest rising and falling more rapidly, and I could feel the involuntary spasms of her body warning me that she was already dangerously close to her orgasm even though I had only teased her, without directing my touches to build her climax at any point.

Maya was frustrated, I could see that, it was almost as if I could read her thoughts, she was completely transparent to me these days.

-You want to hold my hair, don't you? - I asked, moving away from her center, showing her my face wet with her juices. Her blue eyes now so dark stared back at me, her throat moving as she swallowed hard and paid attention to my words. - You want to pull my hair and make me eat your pussy without any teasing, don't you?

-Yes, of course I do, Carina! - The words came out through her teeth, the muscles in her jaw quite visible because of the way she was grinding her teeth, and the smile I showed her only seemed to make her even more frustrated. - You're torturing me!

-Are you complaining? - I asked back with another slow lick down her center and Maya shivered, arched her back, and moaned loudly.

-No. - She gasped, even though I knew she was, indeed, complaining. - You can do whatever you want to me.

-Good answer. - This time I directed my tongue to her clit, moving it quickly over the sensitive bud, first up and down, feeling Maya's body tense up, hearing her moans getting louder and louder, and then beginning to draw small, quick circles the way she liked them.

-Carina! My... Fuck! Yes! Yes, yes! - She screamed and collapsed on the bed, moaning, squirming, gasping, surrendering herself completely to the climax that was overtaking her. I moved my tongue to her entrance that was now pulsating with the spasms of her orgasm and licked the area once, twice, three times to savor more of Maya's taste.

-So delicious! - I kissed both of her thighs before moving them off my shoulders, letting her legs dangle off the bed as I stood up and went to the strap-on on the other side of the bed.

Maya kept her eyes closed, letting out a weak giggle as she brought one of her hands up to her chest as if wanting to feel the rapid beating of her heart.

I turned the bullet hidden in my underwear on to a medium setting and as soon as I put it on I realized that perhaps the vibrations were a bit more intense than ideal - they would certainly make me orgasm a lot easier, but I didn't care about that, not when I wanted this closeness, this possibility to cum together with Maya as many times as possible - and I attached the dildo to the ring situated at the front.

-Hi. - I spoke before leaning over Maya's torso, kissing the middle of her abdomen a few times, feeling her hands instantly brush against my head, her fingers opening and closing against my scalp in a delicious massage.

-Hi. - Maya whispered back as I moved my kisses up to near her breasts, kissing the undersides of both of them before taking hold of one of her nipples, circling it with the tip of my tongue before sucking it into my mouth. - Mhm... Carina! That feels so good, baby.

-I love your boobs. - I murmured against her skin as I brushed my lips along the path that would lead me to the other nipple, giving it the same attention next. - I love sucking on them and I love knowing that I can make you cum with just my mouth on them, it blows my mind.

-Yes. - Maya arched her back as I bit one of her pink peaks.

-Only I do that, right Maya? - I pulled my face away from her breasts, both hands on the sides of her shoulders as I tried to hover over her body so that I could look into her eyes. - Only I can make you cum the way you do.

-Yes. - She nodded; her eyes locked on mine.

-This body, this beautiful, muscular, soft, delicate body, is mine, isn't it? - I brought my face closer to hers, without taking my eyes off Maya's for a second.

-Yes, only yours. - Maya answered in a whisper so low that I wouldn't have heard it if I hadn't been inches from her face.

I took her mouth in a searing kiss, feeling her tongue immediately coming for mine, and we groaned as soon as the intimate contact was made. Maya's hands were on my back, her nails scratching me so hard that I really thought she would draw some blood out of me, but I loved every second of it, every sharp twinge of pain, every strong pull she gave in search of more contact as I sucked her tongue teasingly.

-Let's see how flexible you really are. - I gasped the words before standing again in front of her partially lying body on the bed; I grabbed her legs, bringing her ankles to my shoulders and Maya gasped at the new position. With one hand I directed the dildo to the middle of her legs, stroking it up and down trying to collect more of her wetness.

-Yes, ma'am. - There was nothing but pure lust on Maya's face at that moment, and when her mouth dropped open and her eyes rolled back as I slid the dildo inside I knew that pleasuring Maya was one of the things that gave me the most pleasure.

-Relax! - I brought both my hands down to her thighs, turned my face sideways and kissed her right calf, taking a deep breath and trying to at least partially ignore the maddening vibration against my own clit at that moment. I moved my hips experimentally back and forth without taking my eyes away from Maya's face as she focused only on her own sensations.

-Faster. - She gasped.

-I don't take orders from you, Maya! - I squeezed her thighs harder and thrust my hips forward, penetrating her deeply, letting her get used to the full length of the dildo inside her. Maya gasped and arched her back, her eyes finally opening, but when I started a slightly faster back and forth with my hips they disappeared again.

Holding her legs against my body and moving my hips in a now slightly more intense rhythm I saw Maya squirm with pleasure, the thrusts I gave were hard and deep, and hearing Maya gasp at the end of each one was bringing me closer to my own orgasm.

-Fuck! - Maya screamed as I quickened the pace of the back and forth of my hips and felt her legs shaking against my hands; sweat dripped down my back, I gasped and felt my muscles burning but nothing would stop me from maintaining the pace I had set. The sound of her ass slapping against my thighs was driving me crazy, the impact of the thrusts pressed the bullet against my clit harder and I rolled my eyes as a shock of pleasure shot from my center.

-Ugh, look at you! Dio mio! - I gasped the words with my eyes glued to the swaying of her breasts at the end of each thrust, I moved my gaze up to her face and Maya kept her face sideways, one hand tangled in her own hair as she kept her eyes closed tightly and her mouth open so that all her moans could come out without restraint. - Is this what you wanted?

Oh my God, I'm going to cum any second now.

-Did you want me to fuck you like this, hard, to make you cum screaming my name? - The words came out low, hoarse and broken by my gasping breath.

-Yes, you fuck me so good! - Maya arched her back and whimpered. - I'm gonna cum!

Her words made me even hornier, the muscles in my abdomen contracted, my center burned and pulsed as I tried to control my orgasm, but when Maya brought both hands to her breasts and pinched her own nipples, I knew nothing would stop my orgasm.

-Maya! - I groaned, thrusting deep inside her, feeling my orgasm taking over me and trying not to completely stop the movement of my hips even when I was utterly sensitive. Turning my face sideways, I bit her calf trying to focus and thrust inside Maya again, first slowly, then as hard as I was doing before, ignoring the shocks of pleasure still coming from my now so sensitive center. - Fuck! I want you to come!

I spread her legs, pulling her ankles off my shoulders, keeping them lifted while holding the backs of both of her knees.

-Touch yourself for me! - I commanded, looking down at her sex, watching the dildo disappear inside Maya as I moved my hips back and forth rapidly. Maya's fingers were soon in my line of sight, and her loud moans erupted across the room. - My God, yes, touch yourself while I fuck you!

-Carina! I... - Maya arched her back without stopping the rapid circles she was making against her own clit with her ring and middle fingers. Her body contracted and I knew she was close, so I didn't stop the deep, rapid thrusts.

-You're only cumming in my mouth, Maya! - I roared the words as I hammered into her.

-Yes, yes! Fuck! I want your mouth, I need your mouth, I'm gonna cum! - She spoke quickly, and with equal urgency I lowered myself between her legs, holding them open, licking her entrance repeatedly before penetrating her while Maya kept the movement of her own fingers over her clit. - Carina!

And that was it, I felt more of her liquid dripping down her entrance as I licked her, and Maya cried out in a moan as she gave herself over to yet another orgasm. I moaned at her taste against my tongue and stayed there, lost in the softness and deliciousness of her pussy until her body fell limp on the bed, completely inert except for the low moans and heavy breaths she was letting out.

-Slide up on the bed, stay on your hands and knees for me, Maya. - I spoke as I stepped away, still holding the backs of her knees to keep her feet from touching the floor. I wanted more.

-Please, I... - She tried to argue, but still holding her legs spread wide, I pushed her to the center of the bed, earning a surprised squeal from Maya.

-Now, Maya! - I got on my knees on the bed and Maya spun around on her stomach before getting on all fours for me, presenting me her glorious ass, her defined back, and her partially wet hair that fell all over it. - What's your safe word?

-Ferry. - She whispered back, turning her face and looking over her shoulder at me.

-Good. - I spoke back and brought both my hands up to her ass, squeezing it hard, feeling the flesh overflowing from between my fingers as I breathed more deeply, trying to calm my body and the reactions that were being driven by my center under constant stimulation due to the incessant vibration of the bullet between my legs.

I took my hand to the dildo and guided it to Maya's entrance, going just a few inches in and out again, looking straight down as I repeated the motion a few more times hearing Maya's grunts and whimpers getting louder and louder as I teased her.

-I love fucking you. - I murmured and moved my hips forward, entering her deeply, filling her completely, reveling in the loud, teasing moan that escaped her throat.

I squeezed her ass hard and began thrusting into Maya, moving my hips back and forth while spreading her cheeks apart to see in detail the toy disappearing inside Maya.

-Carina! Yes, baby! - Maya moaned as I sped up the movements and knowing how sensitive and overstimulated she probably was with all the fucking, I chose to add a little pain to the mix by slapping her hard on the ass. - Yes, yes! Fuck, yes!

-I love seeing your ass turning red for me! - I grunted, gasping, slapping her ass again.

-Yes! Spank me baby, please! - She moaned and I didn't tease her or deny what she wanted because I knew this place of submission was delicate inside Maya, I knew her complete surrender to me could cause her insecurity and that wasn't what I wanted so I just did what she wanted, and spanked her ass one more time, now on the other side, watching her ass turn evenly red after a while. - Oh my God! Yes!

I grabbed her waist and pounded deep inside Maya letting her ass slam against my hip with each deeper thrust I gave.

-Carina! - Maya moaned my name and the pleasurable sensation that came from my center became overwhelming again, taking over my actions, demanding that everything I did at that moment was for the sake of my orgasm. - You fuck me so good, my God, you fuck me so good!

Maya knew how to boost my ego, she knew it was her way of getting everything she wanted, and what she wanted at that moment was to cum.

-Come here! - I grabbed her shoulders and pulled her up until my girlfriend was on her knees in front of me, her ass thrusting toward me to keep the toy inside her. Her sweaty back clenched against my front and I brought both hands up to her breasts, squeezing them, pulling on her nipples as I kissed her neck and rolled my own hips to keep the thrusts slow and teasing. - You are the most beautiful woman in this world, Maya! Fucking you is my absolute honor! Taking you makes me feel like the luckiest woman in the world, and knowing that you're mine, my God, Maya... You don't know what you do to me when you say you're mine!

My girlfriend turned her face away and kissed me intensely, taking one of her hands to my hair and holding me close to her as our tongues fought for dominance.

-I'm yours! - She gasped as she pulled away. - I am your woman!

-Yes! - I closed my eyes in delight as I heard her words and thrust deep inside her one last time before pulling out and replacing the dildo with two of my fingers. - This is how I want you, clenching against my fingers, wet in response to what I do to your body. I want you to remember during every second that you are mine, Maya! That no one will ever touch you like I do!

I moved my fingers with a slow back and forth, keeping her leaning against my body while sliding back a little so that I had room for my hand to lose itself in her center. Maya's walls squeezed my fingers, I felt her wetness running down the back of my hands and feeling her directly against my skin made me moan as much as the woman in front of me; I squeezed her breast with my free hand and kissed her neck again when she tilted her head back, resting it against my shoulder.

-No one will ever love you as deeply as I love you! - I whispered against her ear and her walls clenched more tightly against my fingers, pulsing immediately afterwards, and Maya moaned louder.

Fuck, she was beautiful!

I slid the hand that was on her breast toward her neck, closing my fingers against the region at the points just below the angle of her jaw; I kissed her cheek gently before thrusting hard inside her at the same time I closed my fingers tighter around her throat, watching for any negative response from her body, but it didn't come, all I got were loud moans, so I didn't stop.

-Is that what you want to hear? - I asked, my thrusts now rhythmic, a constant and intense back and forth, and not even the pain in my fingers from the tightness of her walls would stop me. - How much I love you? How important you are to me? That no woman or man has ever been so important to me?

-Carina! Oh, my... Fuck! Baby, I'm gonna cum! Please, please... - Her voice was muffled by the pressure I put on her throat, and I didn't even know what she was begging me for, maybe she just didn't want me to stop.

I didn't plan to stop.

I couldn't stop even if I wanted to because the reactions of Maya's body along with her increasingly louder moans were what was driving me towards my second orgasm of the night and I absolutely wanted to enjoy the pleasure that came with the act of fucking Maya. My own clit was pulsing insanely, my center was contracting rhythmically and the friction of the fabric along with the vibration of the bullet and the pressure of Maya's sex against my fingers would have me cumming at any moment.

Maya's breathing became heavier, I loosened my fingers on her neck, she moaned as the flow of air and blood normalized again and her walls clamped my fingers inside her as her body tensed.

-Are you cumming, Maya? - I asked practically like a moan against her ear. - Should I put my mouth on you so that you can cum on my tongue?

-Yes, yes, yes! - My girlfriend was quick to respond.

I pushed her down so that she was back on all fours in front of me, and pumped my fingers inside her a few more times, enjoying the feeling of having her warm and wet around my fingers before withdrawing from her and tilting my body so that my face was facing her center. It was impossible not to inhale deeply in search of her scent, and my mouth watered with the imminence of tasting her for the third time that night knowing that her flavor was probably even richer now. I brought both my hands up to her ass, spreading her cheeks open before diving towards her center, licking her rhythmically, moving up and down her slit, feeling her wet folds hugging my tongue with each of my movements before focusing on her clit, giving quick licks over the sensitive bud before beginning the circles that I knew so well drove Maya completely insane.

The moans and cries that followed were living proof that I was doing something right, she rolled her hips against my face, moving back and forth as I lapped at her clit. I moved my tongue upwards, going all the way to her entrance going deep inside her before returning to her bud. I slapped her ass before pushing her hips forward, wanting them higher so I could suck her bundle of nerves into my mouth and when I did, Maya's moan sent a shiver down my back.

-My God, baby! Yes! Please don't stop... Don't stop! - Maya moaned and whimpered, her face going toward the mattress when her arms could no longer support her body. The new position put her ass way up, and there was so much arousal and pleasure in my body at that moment that I just followed my instinct, did what I had been wanting to do for months, and moved my tongue to her asshole, slowly circling it, taking Maya's flavor all the way there. - Fuck! Carina! Oh my... Fuck! Don't... Don't stop! 

Yes! Victory!

As a matter of fact, I didn't stop, I kept the circular movements of my tongue, taking one of my hands to the middle of her legs and starting to draw circles on her clit. Maya screamed, moaned and cried with pleasure and the mixture of the actions and all the excitement building up inside me left me on the verge of my own orgasm; I quickened my movements, I wanted her to come first, and it didn't take more than a few seconds before Maya's body gave in to her pleasure.

-I'm coming! I'm coming! Fuck! - Maya moaned and I reluctantly moved my tongue to her entrance, keeping the circles over her bundle of nerves and feeling her cum one more time against my mouth.

Feeling her come was what I needed to reach my own climax, and soon I allowed myself to focus on the vibrations still present between my legs and gave myself over to my climax, moaning and shuddering just as Maya had done seconds ago.

I gasped, lying on the bed next to Maya's body, with my eyes closed and a strange ringing in my ears mixed with the rapid beats of my heart; my body was in a state of complete bliss and there was not a single rational thought in my mind at that moment, all I felt was the tingling of every inch of my skin with the electricity that still coursed through my body after the intense moments we had had.

I turned on my side, forcing myself to open my eyes, and saw that Maya was just as disheveled as I was, loud breaths, low moans, equally low whimpers, arms stretched above her head, legs spread wide avoiding any kind of stimulation against her center, but there was a smile on her face, relaxed, at the corner of her mouth, as if she herself was just enjoying the sensations in her body.

I leaned forward and pressed my lips against her hip - the region of her body directly in front of me - before moving my kisses up her ribs until I was lying facing Maya's beautiful face.

-Hi. - I spoke softly, smiling at the woman with her eyes closed in front of me.

-You were all over my butt. - That was the first thing Maya said, and her words took me by surprise, as did the immediate burst of laughter in response that I let out.

-Yes, I really was. - I agreed between laughs, and she herself laughed along with me before opening her eyes. - Was that okay?

-It was a surprise, but a good one! I guess now I hate you a little for making me more curious to try new things there. - She laughed shyly and because her face was already red, I couldn't tell her embarrassment by the blush on her cheeks, but I knew she was embarrassed anyway.

-Good. - I leaned over and kissed the tip of her nose. - Are you okay? Did I cross any lines?

-Did you hear my safe word? - She asked back and I arched my eyebrows at the sharp reply. - You were... Perfect.

-Yes?

-Yes! - Maya nodded a few times and then moved her body toward me, making me lie on my back against one of the pillows, before laying her head on my chest. - You're sweaty.

-You're sweaty, too. - I brought one of my hands up to her back, running my fingers down the length of her spine. - We definitely need to shower and change the sheets.

-In a second. - Maya whispered.

-Okay. - I agreed because I also needed a moment to slow my body down a bit more.

I couldn't keep the smile off my face, and it was nice to have a few moments just thinking about the wonderful sex I had just had with my girlfriend; but then I remembered what had motivated this wonderful sex and a twinge of pain shot up from my chest and the wave of worry and insecurity that I had been trying to keep at bay threatened to come over me once again.

-Carina? - Maya called out and I sighed relieved to have her voice as an anchor keeping me focused on reality and away from my thoughts.

-Yes? - I waited for her to continue.

-The choking thing... - She whispered and I arched my eyebrows; Maya moved her face until her chin was pressed against my sternum and her eyes were directly over mine. - I really liked that.

-We tried a lot of new things today. - I brought the hand that wasn't stroking her back up to her face and tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear so that I could see her whole face. - I'm glad that I haven't overstepped any of your boundaries and that I'm helping you to discover new things that turn you on.

-I trust you. - And somehow, I knew that those words were incredibly hard for Maya to say even after so many months together. I felt my heart beat faster in my chest and more love seemed to take over me at that moment because I knew that her history with sex and intimacy was quite delicate, having had contact with people who only supported her unhealthy idea of sex and, even though I was so proud of Maya for working so hard to change that, exposing herself to me, allowing herself to feel and live new experiences, I knew we had a long way to go.

-Having your trust means the world to me. - I confessed, caressing her cheek before leaning my face forward at a rather awkward angle and kissing her lips gently.

I laid my head back against the pillow and Maya continued to stare at my face, her chin still on my chest, now with one hand flat against my skin to support her head better and make it more comfortable; my girlfriend gave me a silly little smile that made me melt even more over her, and at that moment no words needed to be said because just that interaction was more than enough.

-You don't have to be insecure, you know that, don't you? - Maya spoke after a few more moments of silence and the word burst the bubble of happiness that surrounded us at that moment. - I could never have eyes for another woman, Carina. You are the most beautiful, intelligent, caring, dedicated, kind woman I have ever met, you are the person who completes me, who makes me happy, and I just know that I could never find that in anyone else.

-But what if you do? - I asked back, this time feeling my eyes stinging and my throat burning with the urge to cry. - I don't know what I would do if I lost you, Maya.

-You won't lose me. Not ever. - Maya squirmed up to lie beside me before pulling my shoulder so that I could roll onto her body, and I did, feeling incredibly safe in her arms.

-It's an irrational fear that I can't let go of, Maya. - I confessed and felt a tear run down her chest. - I'm not an insecure woman, I went after you knowing that I could win you over, because I believed in this feeling that I had and that I hoped you would reciprocate, but now it's so much bigger than before, it's like sometimes I can't contain all the love I feel inside of me and to think that someone could come into our lives and ruin that...

-Car, I... - Maya started to speak, but then stopped. I felt her plant a kiss on the top of my head. - I understand, and I know that I would be just as insecure as you if I had somehow thought that someone might be trying to steal you away from me, but I would never stay close to a person if I felt that they were being inappropriate in any way with me, or with our relationship. I respect you and what we have much more than you can imagine, but I can't just stop having new friends or stop you from making new friends because of this fear that we will always have of losing each other. You have to trust me.

-I know, I do. - It wasn't a lie, as I had said, the fear and jealousy I felt was completely irrational. - I agree with you, Maya. But if that woman tries anything...

-I'm going to walk away and never look her in the face again. - She interrupted me before I could describe a perfect scene of slow and cruel murder. - I promise.

-Okay. - I trusted Maya, and that would have to suffice.

-Can we take a shower? - I felt another kiss against my head.

-Yes, you are very sticky! - I joked and sat up in bed beside her.

-Oh, I'm sticky? - She asked back before laughing.

-Let's go! I need a shower, new sheets, and some of those cuddles I taught you. - I teased her while jumping out of bed.

-You were an excellent teacher. - She spoke up behind me as she followed me into the bathroom.

-Well, I had my own interests in mind. - I laughed along with Maya.

-I'm glad you did!