Chapter 8 Good Bye Past

The day I thought would never come but it did. Was the day I had to cut everybody from my past out my life except two but that got cut down to one now. This one particular day me my bestie Karen and my sis Lisa was hanging together one day and my friend ask me to give Lisa her number but Lisa phone don't work so she used mines. Of course I gave Lisa the big daddy that night in she went to sleep before me.

But she always wakes up early in the am. I'm sleeping of course she knows my passwords and how to get in my phone and use it. I was laying there I'm out like I don't hear nothing. I check my phone to see if somebody call or text I havent gotten none. Okay as the days go by I'm looking like dam why my bestie haven't called me yet.

I called her she cursing me out I'm looking like wtf. why is you mad with me? Erica why would you text me some mess like that at 3:30am in the morning? What is you talking about I was sleep. I showed her my text messages and call log so she couldnt say I was lying. She looked at it in said well dam that ain't what I got on my end. I looked at the messages she sent to me. It did come from my phone.

I'm looking through the messages and I was thinking to myself I was sleep next to Lisa round that time. Then she told me her wife Meka slapped the color off her face while she was sleep. Her wife went through the messages and look at all those nasty texts. I said girl you know dam well I don't be up date late unless something is bothering me.

She thought about it you right and the way she was texting I should of known it wasn't you duh said Erica. Right you should of Just came to me and ask me about that instead of assuming stuff. I got up I ask her why she did that. She said she don't know nothing about it. I left it alone because I felt betrayed in hurt like you supposed to be my sister but you betrayed me for the last time.

I was like this is the last straw I can't deal with petty people no more. We all had a three way conversation about the messages it was straight attitude. I was calm as all out doors in just said my peace of words and left it like that. Over the years I been putting up with the same hurt over and over again. But this time I can handle myself like an adult in let it go. She still my sister an I'm gone always love her no matter what but this line was the last line.

You know as the weeks went by my life became a lot peaceful well at least for a little while. One day my friend Tonya friend guy came to my house in her car. He calls me come outside I'm outside. I put on my shoes in head outside to smoke with him. Then he went to talking about his problems with my friend Tonya and her people. I'm listening to him why he's hurting inside he tells me everything.

One day he came by my house out of the blue. I said what you doing here? I came to see you. My mouth drop like really. Do she know you over here? No she don't I told her I was going to my baby mama house to chill with my son. I'm thinking to myself like this is so not right. As the weeks went on he came by every two days or every week. It was becoming a habit of him coming over.

One day I told my best friend Karen. I was like bestie I need to talk to you. Bestie said what's up? So you know Tonya guy friend been coming to my house over the pass four months without her. In I feel it's wrong but I don't do nothing but smoke with him. So Karen aka bestie said you better stop it before some drama come out of it. I was like yeah you right about that there.

The same night I was talking to violet about him coming over to my house like for the pass few months she said the same thing as my bestie said. The same night I got off the phone with violet. I get a call please come outside I need to talk to you. I put on my shoes in we left from my neighborhood to the park and he was actually hurt.

We talked until it was time for him to get off work. I get a messages later saying I really wanted to Fuck. My mouth drop so the next day he came back over and we talked. He leaned in and kissed me saying I been wanting to kiss you. We chilled on the chair we talked. He was telling how they was treating him like nothing. I told him to keep his head up and keep the faith don't never let the devil steal your joy.

Then one day we got high as usual in he started kissing me. I'm like this not right what about Tonya. He said she will be okay with it as long as its nobody else. He kissed me from head to feet. In my mind I'm thinking I can't do this but when he ate it out it's was a wrap.

Of course this wasn't a one time thing it happen plenty of times before but this time he said he want it to be special. I was like it still ain't right. He finished an went back to work and went home and bath and went to sleep or whatever he did but he always made sure I got a good morning babes and a good night. I was like dam I wish I could erase all of this out because I know Tonya going to be hurt.

The next day came he came over round 8 and we chilled outside cause my brother was home. All of us outside talking until Jr went in. He grab me in kissed me I mean tongue in all. I laughed really? Yeah really. We talked he was talking about how Tonya is towards him and what he gone do to her and her family if they try him. I'm sitting there listening minded I had my best friend on the phone.

He was talking I was trying to get his mind to change from all that hate and anger to giving it to God. My cousin pulled up and he picked up Jr and they left. I went in my house in told him bye but he came in and started kissing me. He started kissing and eating me out.

And then it was on from there. He was moaning while he was getting ready to come. He came he kissed me and ate it again in left. I got up in bath and got dressed. But that happen next really brought reality to my eyes.