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To sum it up, I was betrayed.

Yes, we did get supplies and lived for a few more weeks, then we found other students, Nobuo and Shibuya. I-I thought we were all best-friends..

Yet they pushed me to the zombie crowd as Nishiyama struggled to open the gate, I-I understand.

Yeah, I understand.. I was useful to the end, wasn't I? that's what I wanted.. to be useful.

I watched Nobuo, Shibuya and Masaki stare at me as I was being eaten. I closed my eyes at that moment, but I could hear the gate opening and the loud sound of a motorcycle.

I, I was only one person, but I delayed the zombies right? I became useful.

"..."

Ever since I died, i don't feel like a human. No, I still have consciousness, maybe I turned into a zombie.

I remember when we had finished talking about our plans, Masaki, Nishiyama, Nobuo and Shibuya all went through the far end of the corner, much far away from where I was sitting.

Tch.

Was I really that meaningless to Masaki and Nishiyama?

'..!!'

This strange feeling again, I can't control it. To sum it up, I think i'm a zombie except with consciousness. when I smell this, rose scent, my zombie body goes crazy, but haven't I smelled this before... I-I can't remember, but it's familiar.

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I hate this. I hate this. I hate this!!

Why? Why??

We could've all gone together..

...Forget it.

It's the zombie apocalypse, isn't it? from all the movies to the novels I've read and watched, the strong survive and the weak die.

I want to cry and let it all out, just like I used to do before, but I can only cry mentally as this body of mine that I owned before.. can never be the same again.

Fuck..!! If I could go back to it all, I'll trust no one, IT HURTS!! IT FUCKING HURTS!!

I want to hurt, I want to destroy.

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I counted the days and nights I saw as my lifeless body strolled slowly through the halls, despite it's legs moving, I was not controlling it.

Hah? What's this..? I feel quite strange..

Fuck, that hurts..! It feels like my soul is being ripped apart!!!