I thought I was healing
But now am back to this feeling
The pain isn't thrilling
It's like,in my heart,a whole it's drilling
Wanted to heal for my family's sake
But I can't help stop the ache
I really tried
I really want to be free
But I guess,this sad girl will forever be me
The sad girl, nobody gets to see
Why is it so hard
Why can't I just not be sad
Why do I feel trapped
Am drowning
It's feels like my hands are tied behind my back
So I can't free from my chains
It feels like my eyes are wrapped with a scarf
So I don't see the light
It feels like my mouth is covered with tape
So I can't speak
So help I wouldn't seek
It feels like my legs are glued to the ground
I can't,no matter how hard I turn around
Am losing my strength
Can't fight for long
If I die, please sing me a song
Swollen eyes
From the tears I cried to be free
Rusty throat
From the shouts for help
Bruised body with scars
From the beatings from life,love and depression
Scared
cause I have scars I can't mention
So I stay frozen
I accept this pain I've choosen
Feeling like am in a cage
Left there to rot
Cause am always in one spot
Trapped with my thought
Now my life feels dark
The pain really left a mark
Am drowning
Every time I try to escape
The waters rise
So i pay the price
I drown,it isn't nice
I've tried to run
But it finds me
I tried to scream
But I lost my voice
So what now
I can't run
I can't hide
I give up the pride
Depression,let's have a ride
I can't be saved from those nights I died
If I say there's a way out,I lied
Cause I searched,I tried
But was alone in the dark so I cried
I hate myself again once the tears have dried
I often wonder
If the pain could take me under
I guess what's lost can't always be found
Till it's six under the ground
Atleast I would hear no sound
Atleast,the voices will stop
The day I drop