Giving up

The bitter scorching strong mixed alcohol find it way into her system and blurred everything and she found herself on the dance floor with strangers lost in her world. Instead of forgetting all her agony, her blurry functioning mind brought up what she tried to forget for moment flashing the dreadful images of what went through in few days ago.

The beating of the music hard against people ears and heart, the dancing and grinding bodies,the stench of alcohol and sweat in the humid air all oblivious to the Serene lost in her thoughts only the scorching and boozing feeling of the strong alcohol in her system as the world stood still and blurry.

Her heart felt too heavy behind her ribcage and it pounds harder and tears stroll down her face in a new wave like a broken tap as her fuzzy brain remind her of her position and status.

She has lost everything and is now no one but an outcast and broken self of once her bright beautiful successful actress.

She subconsciously walk out of the club dragging her travelling bags along the road deeply immersed and submerged in her deep dark depressed world as her brain continued to remind her of her utter complete loss and loneliness. Reminding her she has no one and nowhere to go.

She has no idea, no plan no how to start living now and where to start from.

Where can she start from when she has no place to go and no one to turn to for help. She lost her parents when she was in her last year of high school and has no relatives. She had to work herself out to cater for herself and fulfill her dream of becoming an actress, so she has no one to turn to, no family or friends.

And when it comes to how can she start anew when her videos are viral and all the false accusations released by her ex boyfriend and bestfriend, so her image has been destroyed and no one will wanna work with her, not even in any kind of business when people will fear associating with her can ruin their business.

Serene continued walking aimlessly along the busy road side till she come to a stand on the bridge looking down at the river below. Tears painted her face like a Halloween makeup, her face hopeless, her eyes soulless and her body a walking corpse. She has no aim again, no purpose, no place, no one, even if she dies now, no one will be affected, no one will care, she thought looking down at the river who serves it purpose shimmering under the starlight and she look up to the beautiful and bright stars whose Images can never be tainted and will never dim till it existence comes to an end.

But she, who has no aim and purpose to serve, she, whose image is tainted, she, whose light has dimmed, she, a now dimmed star in the movie Industry.

She stepped on the railing enclosing the bridge and scoot further climbing it to stand at the top of it gazing down the river with dried teared eyes.

She can't continue, even if she continues to breath she will only exist rather than live, there's no more happiness left for her, no more place for her here. Her heart feels too heavy for her body to hold, it aches so much that no feather touch can soothe and her eyes are too dull to see hope.

She can't fight it anymore and she won't believe anything otherwise as she's too weak to challenge, too weak to dare and too weak to fight anyone or take revenge. Not everyone is a fighter and she's one of the weak ones, if people see them as weak then so be it. She give up and can't hold on longer.

She close her eyes and took a deep breath preparing herself for the support of gravity, she pushed herself forward embracing the weightlessness of her body brought by the big villain and she throw herself.

She waited for the feeling of weightlessness but she was harshly yanked down to the floor and into someone's sturdy arm.

She sucked in a deep breath feeling her heart beat louder in her ears and her mind fuzzy, she already decided and her mind and heart has come to an agreement of simply giving up and falling into a peaceful oblivion but it seems even when leaving she won't be left alone.

She opened her army green eyes which was clouded with anger and confusion and she locked eyes with the most beautiful grey eyes she has ever met in her whole lifetime.

She frantically search between his grey eyes as If in search of a reason why he was here and she in his arm, why he saved her, but nothing could be voice out of her throat and it's like she's mute again but completely dumbfounded at why the owner of this eyes is trying to be a hero and he hasn't shoved her away or has he not recognised her.

She saw the image of the grey eyes becomes blurry and her mind mushy as she slowly lose consciousness completely knocked out by the strong alcohol she earlier took fading into blissful darkness in the hands of a stranger.

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Blinding light from the sun pierce into the room and landing on the lady tucked in bed chasing away the darkness she's in, she blinked her eyes multiple times fluttering her long lashes as she adjusts to the bright room. She finally open her bottle green eyes in confusion as she takes in the relatively small room she's in, it was nothing compared to where she has lived her life.

She got up and sat on the bed feeling the hard pounding on her head and gnawing twisting of her Intestines and protest for a treat after days of abandoning it. The hungover she was feeling was awfully painful but lucky enough there wasn't nausea. She tugged her hair in hope to reduce the ache when she heard the door softly creaked open and like a deja-vu, she locked eyes with a grey storming eyes that assisted in bringing back memories to her aching head adding pressure to it.

Like flashing Images, the memories came to her from the day it all started, losing her good Image, her fame, her positions, her job, her wealth. She is nothing now than a dimmed Star of her once bright shining one.

She remember she has lost everything and choose to give up but was stopped and denied that privilege by this very guy and he...he's just a young man, a teenager, Serene thought furrowing her brows as she stare at the handsome boy with the unique grey eyes.

"You awake" he stated the obvious and walk into the room with his hands in the pocket of his sweat pant, he walk up to her and stopped at the edge of the bed as she watch his movements like a hawk with parted lips.

"Are you feeling alright now?" His attractive voice sounded again and she squeezed her brows, drawing her full lips into a tight line before nodding after a thought.

"Who are you? And where am I?" She asked scrutinizing him with a look to assess his motive.

"Melvil, and you're in my home I'll say" he said tilting his head the other side waiting for another question but she only nodded in thought although it seems she has question but choose not to voice out.

"Breakfast is ready, that's the bathroom wash up and come out before it gets cold" he said gesturing to the bathroom door and left the room.

Serene look around the room and her sight landed on her bags and she was surprised Melvil brought them with her, she took her toiletries out of it and went in to wash up fast as she couldn't hold up her protesting stomach.

She quickly went out to meet Melvil as she navigate herself around the small apartment and she found herself in the dining table facing facing the small living room with two boys sitting around it, Melvil and a boy younger than him with the same grey eyes as him but with platinum blond hair in place of black that gave Melvil a mysterious appearance and feeling.

The boys look up to her and the younger one's eyes open wide before he ducked his head down on his plate and smiling sheepishly. Melvil nodded to her in acknowledgement and took a plate serving her the pancakes and pushing the available syrup option to her before resuming to his food.

She took the chair facing them on the round table and she shifted awkwardly as she stare at the two wondering why they even helped her and are not disgusted with her.

"Hi" she mumbled, she wasn't even sure if it was loud enough to be heard but the younger boy suprised her as he quickly jerked his head up, suprised that she talked and he immediately looked down when they locked eyes, red color paint his pinch able cheek as a wide sheepish grin spread across his face making Serene smile softly.

"Hi" he mumbled shy to look up and mistakenly repeat the action of meeting the famous star's beautiful bottle green eyes.

"We will be leaving for school now, there're leftovers, you warm it when you're hungry, we will return in the evening " Melvil stated getting up from his seat and howling the bag next to his chair before the younger brother also did the same.

Serene watched them baffled as they left the house with her alone in it, were they that trusty, she thought frowning before she looked back to the food and wrap it up as she quickly lost her appetite leaving her still protesting stomach which hadn't gotten anything close to enough.

She went to the sofa and sat down wrapping herself with her arms and her head resting on her knees as she stare absentmindly at space, falling back into her depressing thoughts of failure.

She has decided to cut ties with the world and bid it goodbye after it dipped her into scorching hot water that shades her off of anything she once had, she can't continue, she can't be a burden to these people, she can't endure the pain in her heart anymore nor the turmoil in her mind, it's over, she give up.

She got up and zombiely went into the bathroom she earlier used, she looked around the bathroom with soulless eyes and when she located a blade, she subconsciously moved and took it before turning her attention to the bathtub and opening the tap filling it with warm water before dipping herself into it.

Serene looked at the razor recalling all her life to this point where she can't hold on and no one will be here to save her, she put the blade on her wrist, cutting the flow of blood in her and ending her life.