Before one of us does something we might later regret - though I really want to do it - I retrieve my phone and walk away, JunJie taking my place. Back to the bar it is, a couple of old schoolmates joining me for a quick chat. I used to hang out with these girls all the time, me and my first boyfriend. That was before Mum got sick and Allen kissed me inside that office, before I fell madly in love with him.