"I couldn't even pass the first test to the point I ended up this way. When you all need me, I can't even move or think without seeing it...
I know it was all an illusion, but I can't unsee my four years there. You dying but not seeing the body, the lives I took after, and..... Grandfather's look when he saw me do what I did before he died. It was one of remorse, regret, shame, betrayal. Seeing him look at me that way was just as hard as seeing you die.
Yu Mei told me the waterfall reveals what's in our hearts. From how you acted, it seemed like you saw Mom and Dad. This might be the first time I'm thankful I didn't get to see them; despite wishing for it for so long, I felt my heart break.
If they saw what I did, the lives I took, both innocent and guilty, they would be ashamed of me, just as Grandpa was. I'm glad you didn't see it too. To see your sister doing worse than what the black viper has ever done to us.