Page 4 (Alice POV)

//cw: transphobic and ableist slurs //

Alice was starting to spend alot of time thinking about Lu, not just while texting or on vc, she would wonder what stupid thing he'd autistically be on about the next time they talked.

And whenever she had to deal with something stupid whether it was her parents being… themselves, her friends having way too much drama and being *way* too retarded about it, or any of the other things that came up in her life, she knew she'd talk to him about it. Now she had other friends, unlike Lu. Most of them were online but she also had a solid irl friend group. So it was pretty obvious to her that he had something about him she liked, maybe it was how stuttery and flustered he got when she flirted on vc to get a reaction out of him, maybe it was that he both knew about transness (unlike her irl cis male friend group most of who she wasn't out to) and wasn't very chronically online (she met most of her friends on the board or on twitter), but being honest to herself (which she hated to do), she thought it probably was because she started to like him… alot. 

Why did she like him you may ask, and she asked herself the same question once she first realized (there was no way she could be so obsessed with this autistic khhv newfag), but he was different then the other guys she knew, he wasn't completely obsessed with sex, he had all his cute nerdy interests, he listened really well, and just generally had a good heart (maybe too good sometimes, he insists against saying retard but like that's not even a real slur). God he doesn't date, she can't understand why he doesn't date, whenever she asks he says something like "i have stuff going on" but she can *never* get him to elaborate (and she can get him to do *anything*). She *knows* he likes her, he's too fucking autistic for her not to know. 

Alice being a fucking wreck is often entirely unable to think about him without obsessively spiraling about this. Whenever she gets into spirals like this about whatever (or usually whoever) she's fixated on, she talks to Caitlyn. Alice and Caitlyn became the best of friends the moment they met each other. Thru a shared language of pointed insults, personal attacks, and unending support, they can always do a good job grounding each other. After one massive photodump accompanied by a plea for outside confirmation that he liked her, Caitlyn responds…

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "!god! i swear we have this conversation like,.,., every day"

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "what about this boy do you even like so much?" 

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): "idfk hes nice" 

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "babes,,, you don't even know what he looks like :/" 

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): "i kno what he looks like!!!"

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): "he sent me a pic after i asked for it 🥰" 

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "oh,?, let me see." 

Alice sends a picture of an embarrassed Lu holding his phone up confusedly as tho not having done this often, wearing a plain black t-shirt with grey shorts, he sports frizzy hair that seems to be about 2 inches long and a pathetic amount of peach fuzz growing from his upper lip and chin. 

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "THIS is who your simping over!?!?" 

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): "ye…"

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): "hes cute 👉👈🥺" 

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "he looks like a fucking pooner" 

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): "stfu im like prob bi so who cares" 

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "eww i forget youre agp."

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "i literally don't know why i talk to you smh" 

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): "ha fucking ha…" 

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): "ANYWAYSSSSSSS tell me what you think!!!!" 

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "idk girl he said he's not dating or whatever so him liking you doesn't really matter" 

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): "kindaaaa but, he's gonna wann date eventually and when that is i want him to ask me out 🥺🥺🥺🥺" 

Kate 💜 (Caitlyn): "your hopeless"