Happiness?

A cold breeze hit your exposed skin as you were sat on a bench in a park. The park wasn't much crowded. Just some elderly people taking walks and some couples enjoying their quality time just right before the weekend starts.

As you looked around you found people being happy as if the world had a good news for everyone.

𝘈𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘴𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘸 𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘥? 𝘖𝘳 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴? 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯?

Your trail of thoughts were broken when you felt a hand tapping your shoulder. Looking up you found your bestfriend Saerim smiling at you but she also had tears in her eyes. 𝘐𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘢𝘥?

"𝙒𝙝𝙮 𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙣'𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙥𝙞𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙪𝙥?!" Saerim almost yelled the shit out of her throat making you gasp at her words.

"𝙈𝙮 𝙥𝙝𝙤𝙣𝙚? 𝙄 𝙡𝙚𝙛𝙩 𝙞𝙩 𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙤𝙢𝙚.𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜? 𝙒𝙝𝙮 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙧𝙮𝙞𝙣𝙜?

Your words seemed to annoy the woman standing in front of you . She wiped her tears before taking a seat beside you ,the smile never left her face. Without any words she raised her left hand showing you her 4th finger which was now adorned by a ring "a diamond ring" from what you assumed.

"𝙁𝙚𝙗 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙙?" Your words came out colder than Saerim expected but she wasn't disheartened. You were just born like that calm and cold and she had no complaints about that. But least she expected a squeal from her bestfriend of 15 years. But she also knew the reason behind that so she decided to let that go.

"𝙔𝙚𝙨! 𝙇𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜!! 𝙄 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙝𝙞𝙢 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨! 𝙄'𝙢 𝙨𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙮 𝙩𝙤𝙙𝙖𝙮!..𝙎𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙮!" Saerim squealed hugging your petite figure as you patted her back trying to at least smile for your bestfriend.

"𝙄 𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙧𝙚𝙢𝙖𝙞𝙣 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙮 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙍𝙞𝙢". Your words surprised the woman as she was still hugging you. Tears brimmed her eyes once again realizing that her bestfriend was trying to be happy for her.

"𝙄 𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙨𝙤𝙤𝙣 𝘼𝙧𝙞𝙖",Saerim said as you nodded your head slightly finally pulling out of the hug.

"𝙎𝙤 𝙬𝙚𝙙𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙨..𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮?" Saerim nodded happily while you stared at her awkwardly.

Your brown orbs weren't showing any hint of happiness. You were neither happy nor sad. Not even depressed or worried about anything. That's how you grew up and now you're 25 still like that. You still remember how your name was "heartless" in your school years.

How cruel the world was to call a small girl heartless. Only if they knew. Only if they knew how you didn't know how to distinguish or even feel something for others, even for your own self.

You heard your grandma saying that the day you meet your soulmate will be the day you'll start feeling emotions. But you always had the question. Why were you like that? Were you cursed? Or was it a blessing? Does anyone out there exist with such weird soulmate thing or is it just you?

𝘐 𝘩𝘰𝘱𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘶𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘭𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵'𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵. 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘢𝘥 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘳𝘺. 𝘐 𝘩𝘰𝘱𝘦 𝘢 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴. 𝘞𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘴𝘬 𝘧𝘰𝘳?