Everything was getting so entangled. As he struggled to pull everything together, Brendan couldn't imagine living without his memory library. The complex web of interlocking problems involved in getting everything he needed to refit a spaceship without visiting a station designed for the job was horrific.
Rafaela's easy-going acceptance of his overbearing demands made him feel like he had chosen his future queen correctly. The gamble of the race had at least given him someone he could work with even when he didn't have time to explain everything. She was working just as diligently as he was, and had even been able to streamline the modifications a little.