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7 month later, In the Void

-1st person-

I got up from the bed, it felt like nothing, literally. I stifled a yawn and looked out of the window, Eris and I couldn't be bothered to build the outside world so we just left it as darkness. I got out of bed and changed, there is no use of changing and I only do it out of habit. Ah, let me just add, my clothes don't actually change. They morph to what I came in automatically no matter what I wear.

Then, I looked over to the mirror in the room and walked up to it. I smiled, widely. Correcting any problems with it and also going over it. This wide smile is used if your friend says something funny, or something similar.

This slightly less wide smile is for the best moment of your life, for example, your birthday.

This small smile is for when your doing your daily life, it makes you seem as if you're having a good day. It also is a calm happy, I learnt through experience that not smiling daily usually gives off a certain gloom.

After that, it's the different emotions.

Sad, angry, scared and so on...

Shortly after that habit, I walked over to the library that we connected to under the stairs, to look as a kind of basement. I told Eris that it would look really cool so they did it. I heard from one of those children that they'd think it would be cool if they walked into a basement to see something completely different.

Looking at the endless library, I glanced at the bookshelf at my left, which held books on history. Then I looked at the bookshelf on my right, which held basic things like politics and maths.

I instead walked forward towards a bookshelf which held books on meditation techniques, they ranged from strange ones involving going into a headstand to ones that you could do in daily life, such as breathing. I looked at a certain book there, [50 Ways To Meditate And Train In Daily Life], it was a very useful book but it was also very long.

This book had 5000 pages. It's unbelievable how roughly 95 pages would be dedicated to 1 way, and imagine how long it took the author to write this. This book was a personal recommendation from Eris. If it was Eris who recommended it then it's sure to be a good book.

I flipped to page 143, and read...

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7 hours later,

I yawned, the book really is long. I only got to page 400 today. Slowly getting up from the chair, I stretched before walking outside the room whilst practising the meditation technique I learned.

"Eris!" Eris and I had gotten more comfortable with each other over these 9 months, though they still call me Raymond. Different to before, when people would instantly call me by my nickname and act friendly even though we just met because I said they could call me by my nickname, Ray, instead.

I could see the look in their eyes, though, they were greedy.

"Raymond?" The room I was in grew significantly darker as a voice emerged.

"How do you even manage to read a book that long?" I wondered how Eris managed to read a book that long. If Eris has some kind of power that helps them read this book then I should ask. These books are way too long to finish within the time I have so it'd be better if I use said power.

"I have quite a lot of time on my hands, Raymond." Eris paused before adding, "And I'm quite a quick reader you see." If Eris had a face, I'm sure they would've been smiling.

"Don't you understand what FUN is?" I questioned, pure curiosity overtook me. And I understand how I should act for now.

"What is 'fun', Raymond?" The room grew slightly brighter before returning to the usual darkness.

Huh... I wonder.

"it means amusing, entertaining or enjoyable. It can also mean a joke or tease." I sighed, even though Eris is some kind of all-powerful being, they are really inexperienced when it comes to having fun. Though, I can't say much. Can I?

"I see..." Eris' voice paused mid sentence, as if contemplating something.

"Eris, wanna play a game?" And before they could ask what a game is, I added, "A game is an activity one engages in for amusement or fun" Speaking to Eris sometimes makes me want to cry. It shows how bored Eris must have been before we met.

"Then... What game?" Eris was nervous, they had never played a game before this moment so this would be a first.

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1 day later,

I should get up, but I'm not stupid. I remember the times when people I knew got terribly angry after losing games. This was what one of them did.

"Eris." The dark room (somehow) grew darker.

"Raymond."

"I'm sleeping in today." I said, my voice muffled from my face covered by the blanket.

"Why?"

"I'm bored, if I ask to play a game you will completely obliterate me in that game and if I read I will still get bored cause..." My voice trailed off.

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Flashback to yesterday,

"HOW?!" I stood up with a calm heart, contrary to my chaotic face.

"How what?" Eris tilted their head.

"HOW. ARE. YOU. SO. GOOD. AT. THIS. GAME?!" I screamed, "YOU'VE ONLY BEEN PLAYING FOR ONE DAY"

Truly embarrassing.

"..." Eris was speechless.

"That's it. I give up. Goodbye." I walked away.

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"Don't be petty, Raymond, you lost fair and square." Eris teased.

"I know I lost and I hate it." I looked up and sighed, "I thought I was good at games... It seems I'll still need to improve a lot more before I go against constellations and powerful beings, in both games and strength." I just thought of this, if I can't even do this then how will I fight against the Gods in the future? They might be incompetent but they are still powerful. I guess the most profound of realisations come at the weirdest of times... Losing that game kind of gave me an epiphany, you know. I randomly remembered that I have a task way more difficult than any other thing I've done before. Will I ever be worthy anyways...

Everyone will have these doubts in themselves sooner or later, mine was just the former. But this makes me think, what should I do to defeat them? Some say you don't have to meet expectations whilst others say that you just have to work harder to meet them. So this means I have to work harder.

Although, I will still defeat them in the end. It is the reason for my existence after all.

"You'll have a lot more worse things to go through in the future, Raymond. If you want to keep walking this path, the I won't stop you but let me remind you that you are up against a group of constellations. It will be very dangerous if you plan to kill them, and, let's say you do kill these 'Gods' you speak of. What after? Will you go on a rampage and kill everyone else?" Eris asked, though they liked me, they were still very blunt and honest.

"What after..." I thought, if I killed them, then what do I do after? Do I just live my life as a constellation? Do I kill myself after? Haha, guess I still am a child, I'll think about it when I'm older. I might be given a new task then.