Selfish Selfless

I am pleased that no one is in the hallways so no one would know of my unusual helpless case on Remus's hands.

Now that I've fully taken in his demeanor, I suddenly felt like he is very ready to lunge at me, hurt me and rip me to pieces. He is still wearing his grey suit that suits so perfectly on his iron-clad body if only it wasn't stained by blood. His angled jaw is repeatedly clenching and his fury eyes is all directed at me.

He gripped my wrist harder and I made an indistinct inhale when he suddenly throw a wooden chair that is on our side, outside of the room. The chair created a loud sound as it broke into pieces.

"What have you done?" his controlled voice boomed in my ears and I immediately sense a dangerous state.

It was like he is on the edge of what's holding him to destroy me. And I can't believe I am in fear of it.

"What have you done to my mother?" he repeated in a more noticeable rage and my eyes involuntarily moved straight on his eyes at his words.

"Wha-"

His grip earlier is already hurtful but right now I can already foresee it shading violet later on.

I clenched my fist tight, to fight off the pain but it was useless. I lifted my eyes at him again and all I can see is the ungovernable wrath in his eyes.

"My mother is critical in the hospital all thanks to you!"

"What are you tal-"

"Where should you be last night? What should you do huh?" he firmly urged me.

My mouth opened for an explanation but I shut it swiftly because I know I have no room for that just by looking at what he is in right now. He is in complete oblivion that I am becoming more mindful of what he might do next.

He looks so pissed, furious, and uncontrollable—that even my darkness couldn't counter back now. She hid inside of me, no plans to get out.

"Your irresponsibility is making her suffer right now. And it doesn't imply that because you lost your mother, you have to make other people lose theirs too! It doesn't fucking go like that!"

That doesn't fucking sound right!

I clenched my jaw at the sudden involvement of my mom. The hiding darkness started to govern now but it disappeared completely when Vanroe neared more on me making our bodies touch each other once again.

His gritting teeth near my face.

His words nearer my ears.

And his rage eating up my fire.

"I am not the one who shot your mother so why are you putting the blame on me?!" I responded back.

And it was late for me to realize that it wasn't a good idea and that it sounded so sarcastic at the moment.

"Really?"

His self-control left him as he harshly lifted his hand to my neck. His palm was rough on my throat. I stared at him, completely off-guard. It tighten and I coughed at the tension it is giving my throat.

His dominating darkness seemed to shrink mine that I couldn't even think of a good counterflow towards his hasty actions against me. I tried hard to put pressure in his hand that is strangling me but it seems like no one can take him down now.

Now I am seeing the monster Rene has warned me about beforehand.

I resisted into his hold still because despite the fact that I am really getting out of breath, my pride couldn't accept my inability to perform something! His eyes suddenly buffered at my helplessness and my shortness of breath before he harshly removed his hand on me, making me almost kiss the ground.

My elbow hit the floor harshly but I didn't mind. I took my time inhaling any air I can to help myself.

"Maybe they were right. You should have died in place of your mother instead,"

He furiously left and I heard a phone getting smashed hard on the floor. I remained in my position, unable to move.