How to unlove you?

SCOTT POV

"What else do you want, Scott?", she asked with a frown on her face.

I took a deep breath, crossed my legs and stared at her for a while. "What do I want?", I scoffed at her simple question where she should have known the answer. I rested my head back and closed my eyes. There's so many things that I wanted do and say right now, that I didn't know which one to start with. I looked back at her who's already munching on the sandwiches I thought Ofir made for some boys.

"I don't think you're supposed to be here", Diana said as she eats slowly. The way she gobble on a simple snack made the sandwich look so appetizing. However, her eyes mirrored the melancholy she's keeping in.

"I am where I'm supposed to be", I stared at her as I hardened my jaw. She sat on the chair across where I'm seated. I watched her until she finishes eating.

She drank a glass of water until it's half empty. Then she wiped her lips with a clean napkin. "I have nothing to with you anymore, Scott. You're getting married.. I don't want to be a spare woman who'd just warm your bed when you want to", she said without looking in my eyes.

Lily? Please.

Lily have served her purpose. I needed her for me to build a make-believe affair that I have chosen a new Luna. It would be then I can prove to everyone that I have lost interest in Diana. Anyone that have turned against her would be more vivid, appearing one by one right before my eyes. The nagua kept coming at my doorstep, and everytime she does, I knew Diana isn't in her hands yet. Stanley openly shared his plans in capturing Diana, and the outrageous things he'll do to her.

Sebastian's men reported to me religiously, like how they spotted Diana in a small town with an emergency call she made to Dr. Blackwell. I've always got my eyes around, waiting discretely until Diana appears on my radar. I had to keep the pack in the dark to make the act convincing, except for Cory and Lucas who didn't believed my lies. They found out later that Lily is nothing but a part of the plan.

"Don't you think you owe me something?", I asked as I stared at her. She met my gaze looking clueless about what I seek. "That night… I thought we're in this together. I was all for you but.. you didn't fit me in your plans.", I tried to hide the sadness in every word. Perhaps, my actions spoke louder as she watch my gestures carefully.

"It was a journey worth doing alone", she replied as she looked down. "Besides, you've been busy on your own too.." she added.

"So what are we now?", I knitted my brows as I couldn't hide my irritation. Is she breaking up

with me? She can't.

Diana remained silent. She sat unmoved, and stared at me with those blue eyes.

"I asked a question. What are we now?", I repeated.

She stood up and pat the crumbs of bread off her dress. "You should go. I'll wait for Sebastian before I leave by daylight", she said as she walk past me.

I stood and caught her up with her arm. "Answer me, Diana", I said.

"Scott.. you're hurting me", she winced as she try to writhe away from my grasp.

"Hurting you? And what do you think have you been doing to me? You left me, Diana! Without a damn word.", I didn't know I'm squeezing her too tight as I let her go. "And I want to know why!", I added.

"Are you angry for something that I did for you?", she gritted her teeth as she faced me.

"Angry?", I sarcastically laughed. "The hell I am Diana! You got me cursing at all things! You left without a fucking word! And nothing can take that damn pain away", I bursted with all the throbbing feelings and bitterness I kept in my heart ever since the day she left. "Couldn't you trust me? Was it so hard to make me part of your world? Did you ever love me?", I continously asked as her eyes started to swell. "Tell me because I'm going crazy!", I didn't know that you could love a person so much that it hurts.

In the deepest calmest hours of the night, when I have naught but my own company, unanswered questions starts to swarm my head, and only her image fills me with bliss. Every tick of the clock comes with a hope that I'd see Diana once more and often, I think of ways to make sure that with whatever reason, she won't ever have to walk away from me ever again. Enduring my heartaches, I never stopped looking for her even until I started to lose my patience. And after all the absences due to the great distance and the unbearable torture of waiting, I have learned to love Diana even more.

"I got scared!!", Diana shouted at me as she breathe heavily. "I got scared..", she said softly.

"Scared of what?", she looked away as I held her hand. "Scared of what Diana? I was whole-heartedly ready to be there for you. So what are you afraid of??", I asked persistently.

Her hands trembled as she pulled away, then she removed a few strands of hair on her cheeks. "I got scared of losing you.." she said. "I.. realized that my dad could be your family's physician, the man you hated the most. I don't think I can bear to see you hate me when you'd hear the truth if you'd come with me..", she said as she face me. "The truth is.. he persuaded your father to see a nagua, which ended up the Lockwoods being cursed..", I noticed her legs were getting wobbly as she try to stand the best she could.

"Scott, our relationship started in a most bizarre way. Imprinting on me.. a doctor? I know it took you a while to fully accept that, and I think it was already too much for you to take.. I can't let you go through another hardship of accepting something because it has been forced on you through the imprint", she added as she held on the backrest of the chair.

"So I thought, I should at least first know the truth, before I can collect all the courage in facing the possibility of losing you", Diana said as she slumped down on the ottoman.

"I took risks. I left on my own thinking my dad would still be alive, and would at least help me find a way to end the Lockwoods curse.. And perhaps, my death wouldn't be the only thing that could give you your Alpha life.. I couldn't tell you that because I know, you wouldn't want such unfair trade.", she said as she took a deep breath. "But just to let you know, if that's how it is, I'm still willing to give my own life for you, even if you've chosen a different woman", Diana said.

I knelt down on one knee in front of her as I massage her trembling bare legs. "I knew that you're Daniel's daughter. And I have accepted it unhesitatingly long before. The past doesn't bother me anymore. You are what's more important to me. ", Diana looked confused with what I just said. "I'm willing to take an extra mile to find ways how to remove the lycan in me. You won't have to sacrifice yours.", I grazed her hands resting on her lap. The coolness of her skin warmed my heart, and her scent is more alluring than ever.

"You knew about my dad?", she said with her tantalizing eyes. "And what about your fiancé?", she asked.

"Yes I do", I smiled a little. "Lily is just part of the game. You know what I've always felt about you. But if you're using her to have a reason to leave me.. at least tell me the ways how to unlove you. Because, I don't know how to go back to being strangers again, or even move on with my life without you", I said as I lock my gaze at her.