16- Be alright

you know that

we gonna be alright,

We gonna be alright

BE ALRIGHT- ARIANA GRANDE FT MIGOS

Another Monday has arrived, and another day to dread. I woke up as usual, earlier than my alarm but today is different.

Instead of an hour earlier, I had just fifteen minutes before the alarm goes off.

Shockingly, I don't feel tired like I normally do. I actually felt like I had rest last night.

odd.

I turned around a bit in my bed and rolled onto the other side, but I hit something fluffy and it landed with a poof on the floor.

I bent to pick it up and I saw a white fluffed up teddy bear with a pink bow on its neck and around it's head, holding a little heart that says 'we love you beary much'

I smiled remembering when I once had a teddy like this. I practically forgot it in our last house before we moved here.

so mom and dad still remember?

well boo-hoo, it's a little too late to make up now.

I picked up the teddy and set it on the bed as my alarm finally rang.

Finishing my usual morning routine of a shower and brushing my teeth, I went to peep at my reflection.

My eye bags are somewhat lesser now and my eyes look livelier. The cigarette burn on my neck is almost healed because all that remains is the blood clot covering it.

I turned around and raised my singlet to look at my back. Tiny blotches of pink, purple and black here and there, but on a general note, the bruise is clearing up.

I lifted my hand to observe the scald but I saw no scar at all. Clement's treatment actually worked, Is he aspiring to be a doctor or something?

I should really ask him that when next we see.

I'm already anticipating to see him again.

Lol.

Then finally the only scar I was afraid to open. I took in a deep breath and raised my hair to behold the stitch.

Still looks like the day I first saw it. No difference at all. I sighed and let down my hair. now am ready for school.

I put on a white oversize top and a washed blue ripped jeans, brushed my hair to look presentable and headed downstairs.

I saw my Mom and Dad eating bacon and eggs, but I was in no mood for food with them. I rushed to the fridge and picked up a pear, then set out.

Mom and Dad said nothing to me, and that's good because if they feel a teddy is gonna atone for their sins, they're so wrong.

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I arrived at school with only three minutes to spare since I chose to go on foot.

I was approaching my locker and saw Meredith closing her's.

Remembering what Megan had said to me previously, I didn't stagger when I walked up to her.

In fact, I was determined.

"hey" yeah, I started the conversation, points for me.

"uh, hi.. you seem chatty" she questioned. I don't blame her though. I'd be shocked too if it were me.

"Yeah." I replied with a small smile " You wanna head to class?" I continued when I spotted a few students walking down the hall.

"do I even have a choice?" She jested and we both laughed as we interlocked our hands.

" To infinity and beyond!" She shouted as we began walking towards our first class of the day.

yeah, i could give this friendship stuff a try.

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School's over and I just walked back to my locker with Meredith talking about this new guy she met.

Should I tell you the most shocking part about it!?

okay, here it goes.

I actually listened.

I really mean it, I listened from the beginning of her talk up to this moment but I never contributed though.

" Then he invited me to his party this weekend" she finalized with a little crease in her brows.

"he seems nice" I shrugged.

i just contributed. mehn am good.

"yeah, I know but what do you advise? should I go for the party?" she asked me.

" You really need my word?" I questioned her with a squeaky voice.

Was she really asking me to make a decision for her? since when did my thoughts count?

" Of course I do, that's what friends are for " she answered bouncing up and down.

FRIENDS . I think I could get used to that.

" What if I make a wrong choice for you? I mean I'm human, I'm bound to make mistakes." I need further consideration before I do this.

And she pouted.

" Then we'll sulk together" she piped up smiling and took hold of my arm.

And I smiled. She's really willing to stay by me. I can do this.

"Okay, do you wanna go for the party?" asking to know how to head with this.

"hmmm... yeah I do"

"Then go for it" I shrugged just a shoulder. A habit I developed when I'm unsure of the advice I'm giving.

" Thanks but uh-" she let go of my hand and scratched the back of her head "there is one problem" she finished.

Oh no. I knew she'll hate my advice. She didn't want to go and I just said the words she didn't need.

"I'm sorry I-I.." I was apologizing but she slammed her hand over my mouth to shut me up.

" No, you did nothing wrong, I just wanted to ask if you'll like to go to the party with me, you know I need company and all" her face turning a little pink.

She's scared of asking me because she feels I'll turn her down?

But that's what I'm gonna do.

I'm a disappointment.

She released my mouth and I took in a lung full of air to which she found amusing, meanwhile to me it was not. I was trying to calm my flying nerves.

" You want to be seen with me? at a party? I don't even have a dress"

Maybe she would change her mind after this.

" You're the only friend I wanna be seen with, and as for the dress don't worry. I can handle it" she winked after whispering her last phrase.

I let a genuine smile grace my lips and she smiled back.

" So would you accompany me?" she asked again.

"um-, yeah I mean, what's there to lose?"

"Oh thank you, thank you, thank you!, I'll be at your house by six. we're gonna rock this" with a thumbs up she retreated and walked away, I believe to her home.

I'm going to a party.

Wow. that feels good.

Smiling I turned to my locker, opening it but someone jammed it shut.

"Well well, what has miss Shawn in a chirpy mood today?" Hunter leaned on my locker with a cocked brow.

My instinct to admire the floor kicked in without a second thought.

" Are you playing dumb with me?" he barked at me.

And as usual, now I had to give him an answer.

"N-no"

"So give me a response, why are you so happy?"

I heard snickering and laughing, that's when I raised my head and saw Cameron, Cole and Chance standing a few feet away.

What a triple C sequence.

"N-nothing"

"Nothing!? you want me to believe that a lowlife like you found a reason to be happy and it's nothing?" he shouted while getting closer into my face, causing me to shake in fright.

"Please d-don't hit me" whimpering, hoping he would have mercy.

" Oh, I really don't have the energy right now, but I came to show you a little something I found" he tilted my head up to look him straight in the eyes, and his ice cold blue eyes stared deep into my soul freezing every single part in me.

"Chance, hand me our little gift" he said taking hold of my left hand and extended his free one to Jake.

Jake put his hand into his back pocket slowly and brought out something that glinted in the light.

A Razor.

My tears broke lose because I could imagine a million things they can do with that razor, and showing it to me for advertisement is not one of them.

" So we were walking down the hallway and this caught our attention, but we didn't know if it was sharp enough so we decided to ask you. do you think it's sharp?" his venomous voice draining every single blood in me.

" I asked you a question, do you think it's sharp!?" he yelled at me and it echoed down the hallway.

Is no one really around to help me now?

"y-yes, yes, it is" I muttered while looking at his expensive black swede shoes.

"hmm, I don't think it is, let me give it a try, Chance?" and Chance handed him the razor as his grip on my arm tightened.

"Please, please don't, please am begging you, I'll do anything, I'll leave this school just- aahhhh!!!" my pleas fell on deaf ears as he pressed the razor deep into my wrist and drew a line across.

My blood dripped from the cut to the floor and a little smeared on his hand.

"eww, get your blood off me" letting me go, he rubbed his stained hand all over my white shirt.

I fell to the ground and tried applying pressure on my wrist to stop the blood, but that was of no use. The pain just worsened on contact.

And I, being the weakling that I am, cried my eyes out.

" Well I think it's sharp enough, thanks for the help Iris" Hunter said throwing the razor at a distance.

I said nothing but just gripping at my hand and trying to control my sobs.

Hunter yanked me by the hair and shouted into my face "I said thanks you idiot, what are you supposed to say!?" pulling my hair till i was up on my feet.

"aaahh!! You're welcome" I said in between tears.

He threw me back to the ground and muttered a good before stalking off.

Still crying, I maintained my position as I watched my own blood drain from my body.

"hey Iris I forgot my b-what the fuck happened to you?" Meredith's voice got me looking up as she scrambled to my side.

I was still sobbing uncontrollably as she helped me get up.

"let's get you to the nurse" she said rubbing my back in a circular pattern.

She guided me slowly to my feet and led me towards the school clinic.

"don't worry, you're gonna be alright" she whispered into my ear.

I can only hope.