It isn't easy being alpha... especially a female one. No, no, don't you DARE call me Luna. I have nothing against Lunas, but I am not one. And yes, a female alpha exists, big deal.
Well, in all honesty it is a big deal. I'm the only one, and though I never asked for this, I wouldn't give it up even if there was a gun to my head. Well... if there was a gun to my head I'd just break a few knuckles and a wrist... and maybe a skull if I was in the mood.
Exactly sixteen years ago my parents; Alpha Paris and Luna Paige, changed all the rules when they made me their heir. Valerie Dumas, future Alpha of Feu.
It had caused riots within the pack, and mockery outside it. A woman wasn't meant to lead, not in the way a man was. But that crappy stereotype meant nothing to me, I would rule, and I would do an excellent job.
From early childhood I was trained under the most renowned trainers, was educated by the most successful scholars, given the highest security and the most luxury affordable. I was the freaking 'diamond' of my parents' eyes, I was top priority.
Six languages, five martial arts and twenty three weapons.
And then at sixteen when my wolf; Ari, came out, I became basically the ultimate warrior. My physical strength and speed far out-weighed that of every other pack member. So, that was the reason all the riots in the pack stopped. They accepted their alpha.
And thereby, in sum, I earned my position as alpha, and anyone who thinks otherwise can challenge me. I love a good challenge.
*****
๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ข๐ค๐ฆ.... ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐จ๐ฐ, ๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐จ๐จ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ, ๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ๐ด๐ต ๐ช๐ต. ๐๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ด๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ, ๐ด๐ฑ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ธ๐ข๐ณ๐ฎ ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ. ๐๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ, ๐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ... ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ง ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ด๐ต๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฅ, ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด. ๐๐ฐ ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ... ๐ด๐ต๐ฐ๐ฑ.
๐๐ช๐ญ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฆ๐บ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ... ๐ท๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ, ๐ค๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ณ๐ด๐ฉ. ๐๐ถ๐ฅ๐จ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ. "๐๐ช๐ง๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ" ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ ๐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฅ. ๐๐ถ๐ฏ๐ช๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ๐ด.
๐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ง ๐ ๐ต๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ, ๐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ด๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ. ๐๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ด๐ค๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฎ๐ด ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฑ๐ด ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฏ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐ต๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ณ๐ช๐ค๐ฌ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ค๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฌ๐ด ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ๐บ ๐จ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ. ๐๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ง ๐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐ด๐ค๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฎ, ๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ... ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต.
๐๐ช๐ด ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ด ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ค๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด... ๐ข๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต'๐ด ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ง๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ. ๐๐ถ๐ต ๐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฏ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต.
๐๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ต๐ช๐ค, ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ณ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฅ... ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐น๐ช๐ด๐ต๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ค๐บ. ๐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ญ๐ต ๐ค๐ฉ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ๐ด ๐ข๐ด ๐ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ค๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ฅ ๐ด๐ช๐ญ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ณ, ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ค๐ณ๐ถ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ด๐ช๐ญ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฆ๐บ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ด๐ข๐ญ๐ต๐บ ๐ต๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ด, ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ด๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ณ๐ช๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ ๐ข ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ธ๐ข๐ณ๐ฎ ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ.
๐๐ฐ ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ช๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด, ๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐บ ๐ต๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ด ๐ง๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ฏ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ข๐ถ๐ต๐ช๐ง๐ถ๐ญ ๐ค๐ณ๐ช๐ฎ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ... ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ช๐ค๐ข๐ต๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ๐ด. ๐๐ถ๐ต ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ข๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ๐ด ๐ณ๐ช๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฅ, ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ด ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ... ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ช๐ค๐ฆ๐ฅ, ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฏ๐ด๐ช๐จ๐ฏ๐ช๐ง๐ช๐ค๐ข๐ฏ๐ต... ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ง๐ถ๐ญ.
๐๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฑ ๐ฃ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฑ.
*****
I woke up to a scream. My body jumped out of bed, rigid with adrenaline, slick with sweat. My eyes swept the room and my senses picked up anything and everything.
Teak bed, 7 inch mattress, cotton quilt, feathered pillows. White ceiling, cream walls, floor length windows that lead to a balcony. White curtains, invasive sunlight, grey carpet. Slow ticking wall clock reading 7.03, cool morning air.
But the scream was gone.... it was gone and now replaced by a collection of bubbling laughter. Warm and pure.
"Daddy!! Pick me up too!!!" A squeal echoed through my carpeted floor... it was maybe 3m below me. There was shuffling and bouncing, heels clattering and the smell of fresh pastry wafting slowly invading my sinuses.
"No, no. It's my turn!!!"
'Those brats... ruined my sleep.' My wolf Ari gave a low complaint, yawning as our adrenaline died down. I could still feel her anxiety though, past trauma putting us both on the edge.
"Luis!! Get off of that Vanderkolff!!! I swear to God I'll hang you by your ears if that's ruined!!!"
"But mommy, Montego had his turn!! I want upsies!" He whined, and I could already imagine his big blue eyes begging her.
I smiled, letting go of a breath I didn't know I was holding. They were fine. He wasn't here. Nothing was wrong. I had just overreacted... nothing wrong with that.
'Drama queen, you always overreact.'
I scowled at the lie, I was a completely rational being with minimum unnecessary reactions. But i guess that's what you get for having an animal in your head, and a monster in your dreams.
I blinked slowly and let my posture loosen, allowing my muscles to slack.
Why hadn't I set an alarm to wake today? Why was the sun up before I was?
I looked through the past events and breathed. This always happened after a nightmare. Confusion, anxiety.
"Breathe, Valerie," I murmured, rubbing my neck as I lowered myself onto the edge of the bed... because only I could comfort myself.
My wolf hummed within me, slowly warming me against the cold sweat that glistened on my arms and legs. I exhaled loudly and searched my head, accessing a mind link I knew I could rely on.
*****
Today, according to Loid, was my twentieth birthday.
Today, I could celebrate my year long reign, during which I had become the ruler of one of the most deadly pack in the western world. And today... today is my one holiday. The day I'm going to breathe freely and move around in shorts and horrible, over sized t-shirts. Horrible, but comfortable. I deserved a break, especially after the stock market crash last week... those responsible would be dealt with later.
"Valerie, I just got reports of a pack of rogues at the edge of Flamedale forest." My beta's familiar voice approached me. I groaned... what was wrong with these wolves, would it kill them to find another day to cross the border? I frowned and slowly turned to see the familiar form of Loid Paige.
Despite the weight of the what he had said, I noticed that Loid looked relaxed, as always. Clad in casual blue jeans and a printed white t-shirt. His sea green eyes were calm and his white blonde hair was perfectly styled. If I hadn't known him my entire life I would have thought of him as a surfer; hot, cool headed and perfectly tanned.
And lately, ever since he met his mate; Gwen, he looked even happier. There was this peculiar glint in his eyes that hinted something like humanity. And every time I witnessed that glimmer, I wanted to slam his head in with a poker.
Yes, I was jealous. I had yet to find my mate. All hail me, an Alpha who craved the intimacy of the mate bond. No one admitted it out loud, but I think that was the one thing that wolves dreamt of day and night, the hope they hold on to when everything turned bad.
Ideally, I should have met him or her, by the age of 18, but no... I hadn't. I had thought over a 100 reasons why we hadn't met yet. The thought that he or she may not be alive, brought shivers down my spine, it was excruciating.
I didn't deserve love. But I did, right? A mate was the only promised in a wolf's life. And it fell in the hands of our mythical deity the moon goddess; Selene. And if she didn't have a living mate for me, well, I'd have to find a way to put her on her knees and make her beg for my mercy.
"If I'm right, we have Bryce at the edge of Flamedale."
Loid nodded.
"Inform him to interrogate the rogues and get back to me." I began to turn my back to Loid but just to be sure I added.
"And tell him not to be too nice. Feu doesn't tolerate threats."
I felt Loid frown and nod grimly, but he didn't question my judgement. Mercy wasn't a weakness... but it wasn't all that great either.
"As you wish, Alpha."
Good beta.
I lazily walked on, passing a series of tall, bulletproof windows and various Da Vinci like oil paintings; towards the smell of frittata and toast. The mouth watering fragrance lead me to a pristine wooden door. A smile touched my lips.
On a normal morning, Father would be seated at the head of the table narrating war stories for the five year old twins, Luis and Montego, who would scream in delight every time Daddy impaled someone.
And at the far corner of the table, fifteen year old Angela would be on her phone, texting with either her 'boyfriend' Loren or her 'BFF' Tilda. Her sometimes bespectacled blue eyes swore at every possible comment they made.
Nicolai would sit next to Angela, at eighteen years old he was obsessed with racing. He would be either browsing the internet for an illegal contest or looking at the latest gear. No one approved of his obsession.
And monitoring them all, Mother would sit, wearing a look of disapproval. But now... Nicolai wouldn't be there, I reminded myself. He had temporarily moved to Texas for his higher studies and... to be with his mate.
My wolf sighed at the thought of a mate. My little brother had one, but I didn't. I shook my head... jealousy got you nowhere. I pushed open the doors and walked in.
".....and then Luna Sara went crazy and she killed herself with her Lucas' sword and your sister and i tried to save her but then the machine engine...." Father was saying.
"Daddy, did she really?" Luis gasped, his chestnut hair bobbing up and down across his forehead.
"Woah." Montego exclaimed, equally thrilled at the thought of brutal suicide.
I frowned. I didn't like that story. But this was home. I liked it here.