Book 2: Darker shades of whiskey

Grey's Pov

Alcohol... Alcohol was the only thing keeping going. My mind wasn't functioning properly, I wasn't functioning properly, even people in my office noticed it... and the way things were going, it was going to affect me badly... Martins asked me to stop coming to work...at least so that people wouldn't find out what is going on .

4 weeks, it's been 4 weeks since I last saw her, it's been 4 weeks since I last spoke to her.

I call Maxwell everyday to check up on her. She said she hasn't also seen her, that she said she needs space.

My life has not been okay, talk about investigations? fuck I've been doing them non-stop, I don't know about you, but Bella isn't my sister.

I spoke to my dad for the first time in years, he's gotten married to some billionaire and lives in Italy.

He told me it was true, he told me that what Mrs Benson said was true, but he said he doesn't know how well the DNA tests are true.

I'm just confused, I don't know how to connect the dots, At this point, I wish my mother was alive, so she could just tell me the truth, because I'm tired, I'm just fucken tired.

My baby girl has been wanting to see me, she calls me on the phone everyday and tells me that she misses me, but I can't go see her, I'm too traumatized right now to see her, I might just break down in front of her. She's been staying with Mrs Benson at my house, while I've been staying in our hotel, Because everything in my house reminds me of Bella, and it was killing me.

Sometimes I begin to wonder, what if it's actually true and we're siblings? what the fuck are we going to do about it?

But my father confirmed that I was born a year before Bella, that means it's impossible for us to be born on the same day.

All the evidences are clear, but the DNA tests!!

What if they were tampered with?? but all 32 of them?!!

What kind of Psycho will even be able to do that?!! tamper with 32 results from different countries??!!

That's what is so confusing!!

Sometimes, when I drink myself to stupor and pass out, I usually practice that I'll wake up and find out everything was just a dream and that she's sleeping by my side.

But I wake up Everytime and realize I'm alone and more broken than ever.

I wonder how she's coping, I pray she isn't crying herself to sleep again. I know how emotional Bella gets when she feels like she has lost something, or everything.

I was her last hope, in fact I still am, if I loose Bella...one thing is for sure.

One of us might just commit suicide.