9. Lonely Pain - 4

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"THE HORRIBLE EVENTS OF THAT DAY, HAVE NOT DISAPPEARED FROM YOUR MIND YET.

YOU ARE SCARED THEY MIGHT'VE ALREADY SWALLOWED YOUR EXISTANCE."

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▆ ▇ █ The darkness inside you █ ▇ ▆

"So, as I said, it's about your brother..." He started.

"..." you stayed silent. You said absolutely nothing when he was explaining the situation to you, piece by piece.

"Let me start from the very beginning." He continued his explanation.

-Flashback- (A/N: Yes, a flashback inside a flashback.)

Y/N's brother's POV

I'm tired of everything. I've tried to endure all this pain for my sister, but right now, I've reached my breaking point. I can't live anymore. The fact that my own parents aren't in this world anymore hurts me. I can't live in this world anymore.

I'm very sorry to my little sister, because I'm leaving her all alone. I am so, so, so very sorry. I know what I'm going to do is so stupid and idiotic as humanly possible, but I have to do it. I decided to leave a little letter for her to read when she grows older. I don't want her to read it right now, because I know she could not handle it right now. She might do the same thing I'm about to do to myself...

To: Y/N

I'm sorry, my dearest little sister.

,¸¸,ø¤º°'°๑۞๑°'°º¤ø,¸¸,

Y/N, I know reading this letter might be hard for you, but I know you are a strong woman and I believe in you from the bottom of my heart.

Ever since our parents died, I've been trying to hold myself together. The pieces that are holding me together are slowly falling out of me and it hurts. It's been working, until now. I knew that a breaking point was getting closer and closer, and I knew that it would devour me some day. I think- no- I know the breaking point has come for me, and I can't live anymore. The fact that my beloved mother and father are not in this world anymore, hurts me too much.

I know you are thinking: "Brother, why would you do this to me? Why would you leave me?" and I am sorry that you have to through so much pain because of me. I hate myself for leaving you and I will forever hate myself for leaving you behind in this unknown world, all alone.

I love you from the bottom of my heart, and I will never forget the days of laughter we shared together. I truly, indeniably love you. You are my dearest little sister and I wish for nothing more. I hope you will forgive me one day, but I know that it won't be right now.

I hope you grow up to be a mature, young and a beautiful woman who can take care of themself. I know you will.

Just know, that I love you so much, and I will always love you.

,¸¸,ø¤º°'°๑۞๑°'°º¤ø,¸¸,

Truly yours,

Your brother.

After writing the letter for my sister, I placed it on her table that was next to her bed. I glanced at the letter one more time before running downstairs and leaving the house forever.

I already knew where I would go. The bridge.

It was 5:30 am and there were no cars nor people on the streets. It was silent and completely empty. The bridge was quite far away from our house, but I managed to get there eventually.

When I arrived to the bridge, I took a deep breath and approached the railing. It was wet from last night's rain. The raindrops were nice against the palm of my hand. It made me not want to jump, but I still did.

I climbed on top of the wet railing and looked at the empty road in front of me. I saw a car approaching me and I immediately jumped. Of course the car stopped and before I drobbed into the water, I saw someone yelling from the bridge.

The last thing I remember is hitting the cold water and sinking to it's depths.

-END OF POV-

"And that is how someone contacted me, and said that someone had jumped from the bridge to the water," the officer continued his story.

I was already reaching my breaking point. Hearing those words hurt my soul. It was unbearable to know the fact that my brother actually killed himself and left me in this cold world. I was only 16 and he was already 28. He would have had so many years to live, but he decided to kill himself then and there. You couln't believe it.

Why would he do that?

Why would he leave you?

Why?

"Miss Y/N, do you understand what I'm trying to say?" The police officer said.

"Wha- what do you mean..." You asked quietly.

"You have no relatives and your parents are not here anymore. That means you have to move somewhereto live by yourself, or you have to move into a new famil-"

"No!" You disturbed him. "I will NOT move into a new family, never." You yelled in frustration.

"I see... well, then you have to move somewhere else. You cannot live all by yourself in that big house." He said.

"...I know..." You mumbled.

"We will put your house on sale, and since you are the only one in your family left, you will inherit the money that comes from the house." The officer continued.

"...okay..." You let out a quiet mumble again.

"Good. You are dismissed. We'll call you when we have news about your house. You should start looking for a new apartment in the meantime." He smiled and rose from the chair.

You nodded and left the police station, speding the rest of the day in your bed. The only thing that was in your mind was your brother and your family. Why would he do this to you? Just why did he leave you all alone in this big world?

-END OF FLASHBACK-