4

The movie ended while Kiri and I were focused on each other, our kisses still short and sweet. Loving; that's the word I want. Loving.

*Cough*cough*cough*

I smile into the kiss that Kiri seemed in such a hurry to return. "You want to have breakfast together? At the café down the street?" I ask him and see him smile nodding back before giving me another kiss this time slow and lingering on my lips. I can get used to this. I closed my eyes just enjoying the feel of him against me before he pulled away leaving me wanting.

Damn, I was enjoying that.

I opened my eyes to see the class staring, the light on and I could see that Kiri was almost as bright red as his hair. "Stop fucking staring perverts!" I snapped at them and they jumped, shocked that I wasn't trying to either deny it or cover it up. Fuck them, Kiri is my boyfriend and I won't hide him. I just don't like to show off, that's all.

When I looked around I saw Deku and Icyhot smiling at me while they leaned against each other on the love seat. Hmm, maybe they are dating. Then I saw the way they are sitting. No that's just how Deku and I used to sit when we were brats.

Uraraka jumped up unusually happy for some unknown reason and put in another movie before hitting play. All Might's Civil Union. I relaxed again and cuddled into Kiri willing to just hold him if that's all he wanted.

He looked up at me, his face still red even in the now dark again room but his eyes were big as he looked back and forth between my eyes and lips. I smiled and nodded and he reached up and kissed me again.

Yes, I can get very used to this.

***

I waited to leave until I was sure Kiri was asleep and I made my way to the kitchen for an apple before taking the stairs to my room. It's only 10 but I'm exhausted, I used to go to bed by 8 but it's been so long since I could actually sleep through the night. I would just wake up to my nightmares before the extras ever even went to bed.

When I get to my room I walk inside and pull out my homework again to double check it. When that was done I worked out in my room doing so many push-ups that I nearly fell on my face before finally stopping. When I was done with everything I went and took a quick shower before trying to sleep again. It's already almost 3 so I should be fine, right?

***

"AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!" I woke up in my dark room, my alarm clock blinking that it was only 4:47. Fuck. After calming myself down I notice that I'm covered in sweat again. Damn it. I need sleep! Is that really too much to ask for?

I grabbed my clean clothes and go take another shower. Anything to forget. I'm taking the stairs back up to my room when I see Deku and Icyhot at Deku's room. They see me and wave me over. Fuck it, why not?

"What?" I growl still overly tired.

"Still not sleeping? Sleeping together really has worked for us. Would you like to join?" Deku smiled and it takes everything I have not to point out why that last sentence was wrong.

"Deku I have a boyfriend," I facepalm waiting for him to put two and two together.

"Oh! No that's not!" I hold up a hand trying to silence him. "We are just friends sleeping," He whispered when I let him go again.

"As much as I need sleep. No. Kiri might... I don't want to hurt him like I did you Deku." I averted my eyes but Deku just smiled and hugged me. Somehow through the last year we have gotten better again. Sometimes I go back and we fight each other again or I'm screaming at him to die but most days we hang out and do our homework and study together. Weird I know, but it's nice having him as a friend again.

"It's okay Kacchan. Who knows maybe sleeping with Kiri will work for you?" I looked down at the mop of green curls and a bright shining green eyed boy hugging me.

"Let me go," I hissed and he smiled, squeezed and did. They both went into his room and I went back to the staircase going up to my room. Sleep.

***

It's been almost a month since that movie night and Kiri isn't touchy and feely cute anymore. He is constantly kissing and hugging on me but not in the right ways. It's like he is trying to claim me in front of as many people as he could and anytime Icyhot or Deku are around it's worse. I still can't sleep but I decided that tonight I will give Deku's advice a shot. It's not like it can hurt, right?

"Kiri?" I asked and he is instantly holding onto me like I saved him from falling. Those big eyes of his are still looking up at me waiting to hear what I say next. "Maybe you could stay over tonight? If you want to that is," I could feel myself warming up, blushing at what I was saying knowing it sounded bad. "We could hang out and you could spend the night?"

"Yes!" His face was so bright I nearly went blind. "I mean yeah, if that's okay with you?" He coughed trying to cover up his excitement.

"Just to sleep over, nothing... Extra," I tell him, trying to make sure that he understood me. But he just seems so happy at the offer that I don't think he really understands. I guess that I'll deal with it if and when we cross that bridge.

***

"Hey!" Kiri smiled standing at my door in a pair of sweats and a tank top, I can see him carrying a pillow and I'm not going to lie, I'm nervous. Will he be okay with me even after knowing I'm not as strong as I pretend to be?

I try to shake the thought from my head and smile at him letting him inside. He walks in and he can clearly see that I have my bed made with my pillow to one side but the futon is still put away. I can feel myself blushing a little and motion to my bed which Kiri hops onto with his pillow. He looks up at me with those big eyes of his.

Trust; I need to trust him. "Are you sure you're okay with this? You don't have to, you know?" I ask sitting next to him but I'm careful not to block him in.

"More sure than anything!" He smiled at me and I took a deep breath. Yes I can trust him, I think I just might love him. I have to trust him.

I climb into bed and we both get under the covers and I pull Kiri to me just for him to snuggle into my arms. Yes, I can trust him. I melted into his snuggles enjoying his warmth, his affection was just contagious as I kissed on him hearing his giggles at my touch. Yes, Kiri is safe. I turn off the light and hold him to me murmuring goodnight before closing my eyes.

I can feel Kiri's deep breaths slow down as he realized that I meant what I said about just sleeping. It's not long before I feel him kissing me again, he keeps it gentle so I don't complain, letting him cuddle me and cover me in his sweet kisses. Responding with my own.

I can feel sleep tugging at me so I give Kiri a slow sweet kiss on his lips. "Goodnight Kiri, I'll see you in the morning," I sigh, snuggling into his neck, giving him a light kiss there too before relaxing again.

Kiri froze and I can tell he is disappointed but thankfully he seems to be respecting my choice, to just sleep. I was starting to doze off again when I felt Kiri sliding his hands down to my ass. My eyes popped back open again.

"Kiri?" I asked, trying not to get angry. "I told you we would just be sleeping. Nothing more. Making out was fun but I'm not ready for all that yet. We're still in high school."

"Right. No your right I don't know what I was thinking," he tried to laugh it off his hands staying where they were. I guess so long as he doesn't go any farther this is okay. I do like the feel of him holding me. I curl against him again holding him against me as I do, his head to my chest, my face in his hair, his hands on my ass. This is actually pretty comfortable, I start to drift off again.

Kiri slips a hand in my pants, this time I push him away, "Not okay." I glare in the dark even though he can't see me. I turned over and flipped the switch on filling the room with the soft light from my lamp. I turn to Kiri feeling hurt and betrayed.

I told him no.

"What are you doing? I thought you understood what I wanted," I looked at him both confused and hurt but mostly I'm angry.

"I just thought that since you invited me over-"

I cut him off, "Kiri I told you no. I told you what I was looking for. I told you nothing extra. I'm not looking to have sex while we're still in high school. Why do you keep pushing it?"

"I just..." I waited but he wasn't answering. Maybe I should tell him more?

I take a deep breath letting it out slowly again before looking back at him. "Kiri I have nightmares, everytime I close my eyes I see the villains attacking me again. Torturing me again. I was hoping that I could actually sleep with you because I trust you. Can you understand that?" I try to look back at him but the floor has my attention, has that pattern always been there? I finally look up at him and see him sitting there looking at me.

"You have nightmares?" He asked curiously, leaning towards me. I relaxed and leaned into his arms again when he opened them for me. "I thought none of it bothered you. I'm an idiot. Can you forgive me?" I let out a sigh of relief. Thank All Might he isn't going to turn this into a thing. I nod my head relaxing into his arms again.

"Can we please just sleep now? It's been so long since I've actually slept," I yawn and feel him reach over me and turn the light off for me.

"Yeah Babe, go ahead and sleep. I'm right here," I close my eyes, my head against his chest now and finally feel sleep pull me under again.

***

"Oh Bakugo~! Look who it is?" I turn my head and see Toga holding All Might by his hair with one hand and a knife to his throat with the other.

"Get away from him!" I yell setting off explosions as a warning.

"Careful now you wouldn't want my hand to slip now would you?" She laughed, her eyes sparkling in the low light of the abandoned building we were in.

"Why are you doing this? Just let All Might go! He isn't a threat to any of you anymore!" I tried to reason with her already knowing that it wasn't going to help. I still had to try didn't I?

"It's too bad you're not Deku he could have saved All Might, HE would have saved him by now" She let out a sigh and slit his throat open. "After all he was his chosen one, wasn't he? Unlike you, you are nothing compared to him!"

"Nnnnnnnooooooo!" I jolted up awake as explosions popped from my hands. I gasp for air before burying my face in my hands, tears streaming down my face as I did. Why? Why do I keep seeing my hero die? He is still alive, thanks to Deku. But he is still alive.

"Babe?" I nearly jumped out of my skin forgetting that Kiri had spent the night. Why is he by the door?

"What?" I look up and see him with his pillow and understanding hit me like a ton of bricks. "You don't like me now that you know." It wasn't a question, just an observation, a fact. He thought I was fearless but now that he knows I'm not, he isn't interested.

"What? No! I just. Okay look, but don't judge me!" Kiri came over and flipped the light on and showed me his pillow case. A ripped pillow with condoms and lube inside. "I was going to take it back to my room and come back with a regular pillow. I didn't want you to judge me for thinking too far ahead!"

"I still like you. I just didn't want to pressure you more than I already have!" He was rubbing the back off his neck. "I've been a jerk, so unmanly."

I looked at him processing what he said. He admitted what he did wrong and understood why it was wrong. He is just embarrassed that he went so far. I can forgive that. Can't I? Can I? Then why does it hurt so much?

"Maybe this was a bad idea. I'll see you tomorrow," I turned away from him. Okay maybe I can't forgive him. I have been nothing but honest with him but he is still acting like this. Like the only reason I want to be with him is sex. Something I just don't want. At all.

I was raped, I don't have any desire to revisit that. Not anytime soon anyway but I can't say that. I can't say that even to myself when I'm alone, not yet. My only saving grace is that it was a broom they shoved up my ass and not one of their disgusting dicks.

"Babe?"

"Just go, I'll see you later." I stand up and walk to the door waiting for him to leave. He tried to talk to me but I just closed the door and locked it. I lean my head against the cool wood of the door taking deep breaths before turning to my bed again.

I pick up my phone and look at the time, 2:26 well I did get to sleep longer than usual but how is it going to help if Kiri is going to be like that? It was a waste of time. I pick out some clean clothes and leave them by the door before working out. Doing so many sit ups, my abs could make me cry before moving onto some planks. When I was finally done I grabbed my clothes and went down to take a shower. Saturday morning and it's already going to be a long day.

I see Todoroki at Deku's door when I'm coming back up the stairs again and stop. What am I even thinking?

I'm not that's what. "Is that offer still open?" I raised my voice so that Icyhot would hear me and he turned and smiled before nodding.

I can't believe I'm doing this, but I walk over and when Deku opens the door he just smiles at me and lets us both in. I let them get comfortable before climbing into bed with them. And finally sleep stole over me.