CHAPTER 5

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Love,here we are again,on the the same junction,your light shines like the sun bringing Joy in the world.And I wonder why you choose to go with pain,or you have other reasons.You completes peoples lives and also destroys it.why love,why

The date continous,continue?, do I have to?..I asked she gave me a yes nod.This girl,what does she want with my past,not like there is something good about it,I wish I could say no but gosh she looked so cute when she smiles and I didn't want to ruin that.

My mom died,well she hanged her self after she found out that my dad was cheating,I was 10 at that time, I couldn't understand why.I lived with my aunt after mom's death.A year later my dad was murdered and it turned out to be his side chick,the woman who caused my mother's death.She stabbed him after my dad cheated on her too with her best friends...wohow that is messed up..Elizabeth said and I could see she was feeling sad..Yeah...messed up..right..all because of love...at fifth grade someone got him self knocked down by a car right infront of me because his girl friend had broken up with him.He died....my older sister was sent to jail for smuggling drugs with her boy friend.She wasn't like that,the boyfriend got away and she didn't want to tell the police his whereabout so the judge gave her life imprisonment, all for the sake of love..When I got to junior high our basket ball captain got scholarship to one of the greatest high schools in the country,well he declined cause his girl friend wanted him to stay in brooklyn,and later on left him leaving him a drunkard...I said and paused as tears escaped from my eyes.Now I know why you are single..Elizabeth said as she she stood up from her seat and and moved closer to me.She strolled her hand through my hair as my head was pinched against her belly..I vowed never to love or be in a relationship,that was until you came along and changed everything..I said as I raised my head to glance at her.She smiled as she stared back.wow her eyes started to bloom as she stared into my eyes and I was hypnotized by her beauty,my perfect damsel,my?what is wrong with me man,she is not even my girl friend, what is wrong with me.I went back to my seat avoiding her gaze.I hated the fact that she felt sad for me,well I think that's enough..she suggested after a long silence.That was what I needed to hear,cause I didn't have anything more to say not that I wouldn't have made something up.Can you dance...she asked when the restaurant started to play music,heart melting music to be precise..You won't like to see me dance..trust me...I said and she seemed not to mind.Well I don't care if you can't dance...we are going to dance together..she gestured and that drew the sword of happiness through me.Did I heard her right,dance together,I can't mess this up..my last shot..come on Jake this us your chance.I said to my self as I stood up from my seat and joined her in the middle of the restaurant, all eyes were on us and I didn't feel nervous at all,well that was awesome of me,my heart skipped a beat as I got closer to her.She smiled and wrapped her right hands around my waist directing me to do the same.I kind of felt my hand shake as it enclosed it self around her cute waist,and our other hands was rested on each other's necks.Is this real or I'm dreaming after drinking too much tea,cant believe I couldn't leave my single and free life,speak of the devil why is her lips getting closer to mine,why is her eyes closed ,oh my God it's happening just like in the movies ,they dance and kiss,ok Jake she wants a kiss,give it to her,noooo what if...what if what Jake,it's just a kiss,can't be that bad..right?...oh God who I'm I kidding..I've never kissed before..and this is not on my backet list..She moved her lips closer to mine as we swinged our bodies slowly in accordance with the music..And there it goes,our lips collided and gosh her lips was soft and hot.The creamy feel of cold ice cream repeated its as our lips moved against each other very slowly,I could feel her tongue dashing against mine and it was sensational.Her hand strolled my back slowly .wait...I moved away from her and said.Whats wrong Jake..I like you ohk..She confessed to the hearing of everyone in the restaurant...I like you too....owwwwww...the people made this sound after I also confessed my feelings.But..I can't..I heard my self say.All this was happening so fast and I was a bit confused..Why can't you...is it because of your childhood experience?...I promise to be with you always..you can trust me..said Elizabeth as she took hold of my hand,her eyes was filled with love.I..I...I just can't..I shouted and runned out of the restaurant in full speed.I felt an unknown pain as I kept moving away from her.I found my self infront of my door and opened it,moved straight to the bed room and buried my head under my pillow.I removed the pillow as tears escaped from my eyes and I couldn't understand why,I tried to clean it up and make it stop but it just kept on flowing wetting my face.After a while I head a knock on the door,I knew at that moment that it was her as I could feel her presence which was weird by by the way.Go away..I said after I moved closer to the door.I pinched my back against the door with no intention of letting her in.Jake open the door..look I just want to talk.please...Jake are you there please Jake please.I love you...she pleaded but her last sentence struck lightning through my heart and before I knew it,I swinger the handle of the door and open it.she stood still with her eyes filled with tears,and seeing her in that state increased the pain I was feeling..I love you too..I heard my self say in a low tone and she jumped on me crushing her lips against mine