Chapter 17: Mistakes and Regrets

Retelling this really made my cheeks red again... I couldn't help but asked the bartender to give me and Troy a round of alcohol as we drunk the night away! Me and Troy were too drunk to even leave. I remembered Troy picking me up like a princess and moved me to some random Inn in town.

I remembered it so clearly like it was yesterday... How he got me in bed and the both of us removed our clothes getting all naked... And that was when I lost my virginity. It was painful but the beer made it less so. He was like an animal, he kept hitting my good spot every time and making me moan for pleasure begging for more. I orgasmed like 3-4 times before he even came inside me. I have never been more happy to have my first time with a comrade that I knew so well and grew to love him more and more as the days went by. He was our leader, the one who would always be in charge. Even though he was naive and would jump at flirting with any busty girls he set eyes onto, he had grown into more of a decent man after slaying that dragon...

I thought that... maybe this could be my new life, my second chance at finally restarting! By having a family... I don't really know if I could get pregnant in this world but that doesn't matter!... If I could be with the one I love, that's fine with me~

Morning came around the next day, I was in bed sleeping with Troy. When I woke up, it was probably around noon. Troy was cuddling behind me, I still felt his hard-on inside me. Last night, we've been going at it for I don't know how long *giggle*...

I was feeling... contend? Happy? I know, weird right? I didn't really care anymore... I thought that this was all I needed...

"Rrmhmm..." Troy was waking up and I enjoyed our little cuddling while it lasted.

"Good morning Troy~"

"Ugh... My head"

"Hihi~"

"Oh... Huh? Kokoharu, what are you... naked and... Why am I..."

"Thank you for you know... standing up for me last night... And making my night so enjoyable~"

W-What? W-Why would I want to... don't tell me!"

"Y-Yes... We did it last night, you were so professional at it leaving me breathless every time~"

"U-Uh, n-no... This wasn't what I wanted! L-Look... Ugh, my head..."

I had never seen Troy this flustered before. It was a rare sight to see, every time we finished an adventure he would always be seen with 2 or 3 different girls at his side and would go to brothels when he got the chance.

"L-Listen, Kokoharu... When I first invited you to join my party, I never really thought of you like this! Like... I've always thought of you as a little sister I'd never had! And a comrade who would stay by my side... Not like a lover"

It was at this moment that I never thought about it that way before.

"You think that I'm not attractive enough?" Of course, he would think that! Right? I've never ever seen him with someone whose sexual appeal like mine...

"O-Of course not! I think you're beautiful in your way" Right then and there that gave me something I had never felt before... Maybe I've never been called sexy or attractive but hearing Troy saying that I'm rather attractive was making me blush even more...

"B-But listen... The one I love is Helen, alright? Haven't you always been besides me and saying that I should move forward with her? And haven't you said that you were working behind the scenes to get me and her together? What you said really move me and I appreciated what you had done for me... S-So I couldn't believe what I had done to you last night..." Troy clenched his fists.

"Why would that matter? Helen isn't here so she doesn't have to know, right? And, we could keep this a secret~"

"..."

That was when I realized that I had made a mistake... I didn't look at his face clearly, all I could see was his charming looks, amazing muscles and such huge c*ck that I didn't see his face showing clear confusion and anger... He was probably angry at me for saying those kinds of stuffs after all I had done for Helen and him. It was so our of character for me to even say all of that with a straight face!

I was so stupid! *sniff*... Why did I say to him! Why just WHY! I wish I hadn't said anything that so f*cking STUPID to him! I don't even know WHY I said it! Was it our last night together? Was it my sexual desires that had driven me forward to saying all of that? Or was I that IGNORANT of his feeling at the time that I wanted myself to be HAPPY in this world!!? I don't know! I didn't have the answer back then and so is now!!...

"We should get back to the group before anyone suspected anything..."

"H-Huh?"

"And also... don't let this out... I wanted everything between us to be normal... And, I will take full responsibility if I got you pregnant..."

At that time, I never noticed how mature he was.

"A-Alright..."

Things ended there as we returned to our party. No one expected a thing since Troy told a lie for the both of us and didn't want to ruin the party. Things got awkward between us and not really saying much to each other. And Hector was the first to leave, Helen was next... leaving me and Troy alone for a couple of weeks before I eventually decided to become a teacher.

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