Chapter 15 When it is her first

"What are you doing?" Mia questions me as I fall onto the bed in what used to be her old room. I cross my arms behind my head watching her uncomfortably tripling from one foot to the other.

"What do you mean?" I ask innocently with a grin on my face. I knew she wanted to change into her sleepwear, but we were sharing a room here and if she wanted to change so badly she could always use the bathroom across the hall.

"Fine." She challenges starting to unbutton her dress shirt. "This is my house and here I make the rules." She tries very hard to sound bossy, but her voice fades with every piece of clothing that falls to the ground and silence fell over her as she stood in only her underwear. "Happy?" She questions with her arms in the air, palms up like she was waiting for me to answer.

"Not particularly." I shrug. "Why are you so ashamed of your body? You are perfect." I met woman with bodies who I would not see myself touching, but they weren't this self-conscious about them and here I laid watching the most beautiful woman that I have ever seen ashamed of her body.

"Don't do that."

"Do what?"

"Look at me like that." She walks over to the bed and falls down beside me on her stomach, burying her face in the pillow. I turn towards her from my back to my side, propping my head upon my arm.

"I can't help the way I look at you." I softly drag my fingertips over her back. "You do this to me and it drives me crazy. I want you so bad." My fingers follow the trial from her back over the material covering her backside and onto her thighs and then back. She doesn't resist. "Fuck you are perfect." I slightly bring my hand down on her round cheeks causing her to turn around. The heat immediately rises through my hand as her ass turns flushed.

"What the hell was that for?" She questions her hard nipples showing through her light blue lacy bra. Her cheeks were flushed as red as her bottom.

"I just told you, you drive me crazy." I once again place my hand on her body. My palm flat against her stomach. She doesn't retract or cringe, she wasn't afraid of my touch. Her body was warm as her stomach moved underneath my touch with every breath she took. I slowly start making circular movements around her naval area with my thumb causing her body to shiver. I continue this for a few minutes before she starts to move underneath my hand. "Tell me what you want me to do?" I question her as I move my hand up and start circling my forefinger around her hard nipple through the lacy material, but she doesn't answer me and also doesn't resist.

I lean over so that my face meets hers, but she quickly turns her head away from me so I remove my hand from her breast and turn her head towards me with my forefinger and thumb on her chin. "Look at me." I order her my voice husky before I brush my thumb over her lips. She closes her eyes at my touch but quickly opens them again as she gets used to me touching her.

I lower my head slowly until my lips connect with hers. "I want you." I lick her bottom lip with my eager tongue and she immediately opens for me. I crush my lips against hers immediately deepening the kiss. She tastes like more. A mix of mint and cool air assaulting my tongue. I lower my hand to her breast again, but this time I push my hand in behind her back and loosen the clips keeping the material around her and with three easy clips the bra snaps loose revealing her round and taut breasts. A gasp escaped her mouth into mine causing the hardness to bulge against my suit pants.

"I need you." I withdraw my lips from her and take her full breast into my hand, pinching and tugging at the hard nipple in between my forefinger and thumb. She doesn't resist as I continue expecting her body with my hand, running my fingers to the other breast and treating it in the same manner. I need her more than I have needed anything in my life, but I wanted her to want me I needed her consent more. "Mia, I need you to tell me what you want me to do."

"I... ah... I... this." She breathes through racing lungs, her beating heart quickens in her chest. I remove my hand from her chest replacing it with my mouth. She gasps when I take the pebble into my mouth sucking and nibbling on it. "Wait." She protests when I move my hand across her panty line. She was eager, I liked it.

"Patience." I breathe against her mouth as I lift my head to face her steamy green eyes, which reminded me of the Dolomites in Italy. There was so much more behind those eyes. I wanted to see everything, know everything those eyes have seen.

"Please." She pleaded. Her breathing a lullaby to my ears. I sit upon my knees as I loosen the belt around my pants before zipping them down revealing the better part of me. I watch her spread out on the bed not moving, waiting for me. Her eyes grow wide at what she saw. I know baby. I grin, stroking my own ego at my size. I will go easy, for now. I bend forward over her, straddling her as I plant kisses from her lips to her cheek and down her neck.

Her body convulses when I place my fingers into her panties and rip the piece of material from her body. "I will buy you new ones." I comfort her. She needed them anyways. These were a little old and green will suit her better. Her body tenses up, all her muscles pulling together as I stroke over her opened part and suddenly push a finger into her tightness. She was very tight, but my finger didn't struggle. She was wet for me. "That is it, il Mio amore." She was ready for me, but I taunted her with my finger pushing it in and slowly drawing it out. I continued this move until her body relaxed under me and then I withdraw tugging at her sensitive part.

"God..." She gasped at my torture. This was me winning her game. She knew how to tease, but I was an expert in torture.

"You like that?" I question as I watch her bite onto her lip. She wanted me to continue.

"Yes." She moves her head up and down and with that, I pushed into her, a loud pant came from her mouth and my first reaction was to cover her open swollen lips with my hand making her eyes grow wide.

"You need to be quiet." I warn as I remove my hand from her lips. She nods biting down on her lip ones again as I pull out of her and then back in. I continued this a few times until she let go of her lip from between her perfect white teeth. I then thrust in faster bending forward as I force my way deeper and crush my lips onto hers again. The taste of mint mixed with iron sends blood rushing faster through my veins causing my movements to quicken and I take her tongue into my mouth sucking on it as her breathing hitch and her whole body come undone beneath me.

She looked tired and flushed as I withdraw from her. Her head rested on the pillow as she caught her breath. I pull the duvet over her to cover her body when she turns into a small ball in the middle of the bed. She doesn't say anything. I burry what is left of me back into my pants as I lay down beside her. "Mia?" I question. Was she mad? Sad? What the fuck did I do? She wanted this. I asked her and she said so, well not in that many words, but she told me to continue. "Mia?" I try again when she doesn't answer I force her to face me, but she kept her eyes closed.

A small tear on her lip caught my attention explaining the taste of iron. She snaps her eyes open the moment the pad of my thumb comes in contact with the small rip in her swollen red lip and she pulls away from me. "You are bleeding," I state. Still no answer. "Let me see that." I try again this time my voice a bit louder as I softly press my thumb against her lip. This time she doesn't pull away from she closes her eyes as I brush my finger over the stain. "Does it hurt?" I question after a little while of staring. She veraciously moves her head from left to right.

"No." She snaps her eyes open. "I am fine." Her voice retreats. Something was wrong. Something was very wrong, but I couldn't put my finger on it. She bit down on her lip so hard to have drawn blood. Did I hurt her? Was I too hard? Too fast?

"What did I do?" I question her. My eyes lock on her green gems. Their worth has to be unaffordable. "Mia?" I take her chin between my forefinger and thumb. "You need to talk to me. This will not work if you don't talk to me."

"I am a virgin... was a virgin." She states. My whole world came to a halt the second the words left her mouth. What the fuck did I do? I literally fucked up Mia's whole experience. Why didn't she say anything? I pull away my hand from her face.

"What the fuck!" I growl. I slide over the bed and place my feet on the ground. "Why?" I think out loud as I rise to my full length and start pacing up and down in front of the bed. If I knew this I would never have done this. I would have stayed clear.

"I don't know." Mia's voice hovers in the air.

"What?" I turn to face her. What the fuck was she talking about?

"I don't know why I was still a virgin. I came close a couple of times, but I guess I just never felt... like this before." She pushes herself up on her knees taking the bed cover into her hands as she hides her body from me. "I was waiting for you" She clarifies.

"I can't do this." Once again I think out loud. I should not have said that. Tears immediately drafted over her cheeks, streaming. I can't seem to do anything without hurting the one person I never wanted to hurt. She was now sitting on her knees on the bed, her hands covering her eyes as the rain came down after my thunder and I had no idea what to do. "I just meant that if you told me..."

"You would not have wanted me?" She interjects. "You take whatever you want. You told me that. I have seen you kill someone in cold blood. You are so secluded in your own darkness that you can not even see the light anymore. Benvenuto Damian, you are not the monster you want everyone to believe you are." She fights back her tears as she moves to the edge of the bed, moves closer to me. She let go of the material entwined in her fingers and she reaches out to me, placing her palms against my chest. This was the first time she called me by my full name and the way my name roll over her tongue in that adorable accent made my heartache. "I love you and I wanted my first time to be with you."

"Mia..." I breathe as her hands move up to my shoulders pulling me forward until she is flushed against me. She never touched me like this before. In fact, she never really touched me before. "I love you too." I wrap my arms around her waist, supporting her body when she wraps her legs around me. Her body bared against me and my cock reacts. I was ready for a second round already, but that wasn't happening tonight. "Let's get you covered." I plant a small kiss on her forehead turning her 45 degrees before placing her down on the ground. I keep my hands on her shoulder until she finds her footing before I let go of her.

"Maybe you should join me." She smiles pointing her small finger towards the hem of my white dress shirt. My eyes follow her line of sight. Bloodstained the material. This wasn't something that used to bother me. I was used to having blood on my clothes. It was part of my work, but this was different. This was Mia's blood. Blood I never wanted on my clothes.

"I am sorry." This was all I could fathom to say. There were no words to describe how I felt. Guilt was a big part of the emotions running through me. The guilt of how I treated her since I met her. I threatened to rape her in my house, in my room. Although I knew that I was just trying to scare her she must have felt traumatized at my words. "About everything."