Chapter 1

Haena's POV

"Aaaagghhh", I groans, when my alarm made a sound and woke me up. I touched my phone to off it then I got my upper body up. I looked at the time cause I felt like I haven't slept a wink, I'm so tired. These thoughts quickly left my mind when my jaw dropped and saw the time. 7:40 am?! My class starts at 8:00!! WHAt ha... Once again, that thought dissappeared when a scene of me appeared in my mind. Me working late until midnight to finish my school work then feeling really tired so I got up of the desk, walked my feet into the bed and let myself fall and feel the soft texture. I then changed the time of my alarm so I can have a peaceful sleep. My mouthed formed an large O.

Even though her reason is reasonable, it's still what caused me to wake up late and which will surely cause my to arrive at the uni late and get some nagging and lecture. I was about to scold myself when my phone lighted up and revealed a message coming from a sender name 'Yijin', who is my best friend ever since we were kids. Since kids... but I didn't tell her my biggest secrets. Makes me feel guilty.

I quickly leaned my back on the wall and picked up my cell phone. I then opened it and saw her message.

Yijin

Where are you?

It's not like you to be late.

I mean you always arrive VERY EARLY.

Get yourself here or you'll get some

lecture from the prof.

I smiled at the thought of her worrying about me but it quickly faded when I remembered a name after seeing Yijin's. I shook my head and tried to get these thoughts out. Only one thought remained in my mind. I'm...late.

I got up, went to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, took off my clothes, bathed, went out of the bathroom, grabbed some clothes and dressed myself. I got no time to dry my hair. I threw all things I need into my bag then went out of the apartment. I walked for a while since running is not suggested for myself until I reached a convenienve store. (She walked until she reached the cs. For those who might have become confused since I did.)

I walked in, searched for some meal pack and once I picked, I went to the refrigerators to get a drink. I went to the cashier then paid for it. I went out then I remembered once again the merits in living in an apartment while looking up at the sky. "Well living in an apartment really is better.", I whispered. 'Quiet and well..no one besides your alarm will wake you up,' I continued it on my mind. "Shoot.", I blurted out. University. I forgot.

I want to take a cab but I can't. This becomes a bother for real sometimes. I continued walking even with the worry of me being late. I noticed a cab stopped beside me. My head throbbed a little and felt my chest become tight. The driver opened the window and asked if I'm going to continue walking, if not, I should just take his cab. I said no to his offer, kinda feeling bad but I can't worsen my condition, can I? But I already did years ago and a year ago. When the driver left, the chest tightness and throbbing head faded away and I continued to walk but feeling these isn't really a good way to start the day so I'm still feeling not good.

I got to the school, it's already 8:22 am. I got lectured a lot since I was late but I know there's more to it. I got scolded more than normal students since there was an issue surrounding me last year which caused my reputation to be tarnished. I never actually cleared it. That was just a rumor, a lie but that doesn't mean there is no truth there. I walked through the hallways and remembered something. The transferee. He mentioned it along with his lecture. It seems my presence was kinda forgotten since a new girl transferred, which I am grateful but I won't introduce myself just because of that. I want to keep things quiet as much as possible but of course the rumor came with me so that wasn't possible, they'd talk about me but doesn't really care about me. They just do that when they are bored. (The other students would only talk about the rumor whenever they are bored. to be more precise.)

I'll receive a message any minute now, from him. Don't want it to arrive but it hasn't failed in arriving for years. Probably that one time he was in Scotland visiting them. After hearing it, he immediately rushed here. He was so worried which made me felt guilty for another thing. How much have they grown, though?, I wonder. Maybe I have no right to know.

I saw Yijin's back. I know its her because we've been friends for too long. There's no way I wouldn't recongize her. I tilt my head to peek a little and noticed that she's talking to someone but I didn't see who it is clearly. An idea just brushed past my mind which is surprising her from behind. And before I did, I heard her saying, "She still isn't saying anything to me about that". I don't know what she was talking about so I did it anyways. And I didn't know this was the beginning of the time period where all my secrets will resurface, will see the light again after I buried them.

After I did, I saw someone. It was natural to see someone since that someone is talking with your bestfriend but I made a confused face because she is... my ex-girlfriend, Seo A-Yeong. I was surprised. Well they were friends since I introduced them to each other back then. Maybe they still kept in touch..? It's not my business. They both have their own lives. That's why I didn't told them about mine.

"It's been a while, Haena.", she said. It seems she also saw me. I'm still shocked from seeing her since I thought we'll never cross paths again but here she is, right in front of me.

I got out of my daze and cleared my throat then replied, "Yes, it's been a while, Seo A-Yeong." It's been a long time since I called out her full name. I felt my phone buzzed. I knew who sent the message so I started pulling it out from my pants' pocket slowly when she said something.

"Not calling by my first name or my nickname, huh.", she said. I was actually surprised for nth time. I didn't exepct she would say that after that thing. I continued pulling my phone and when I finally brought it out, I looked down to open it. It showed who messaged me. Just like I expected. I ignored it for now then looked up.

I saw them both looking at me. Probably because I opened my phone in the middle of a conversation, well...greetings? "Oh, this. I felt my phone buzzed.", I said wanting to go somewhere, just not here. "I need to go.", I quickly added.

A-Yeong Seo just mouthed an 'Oh'. "Well, see you soon then.", she said. What? She left, leaving me clueless about that.

I quickly turned my gaze to Yijin and asked her, "What does she mean?"

"She transferred here, Haena.", Yijin said. Another surpise but its normal since this is a uni. Everyone goes here to finish education. So she's the transferee sir was talking about.

"What were you guys talking about earlier?", I asked since I was curious. What did she mean by that?

She just shrugged her shoulders then said, "It's nothing important. We were just talking about things back then to catch up." I just whispered an okay and left for my session.

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Classes ended quickly. I opened my phone to text my dad back to his message earlier.

Dad

I heard it from your teacher.

Me

It's nothing. I just woke up late.

Dad

You didn't run or anything, right?

He replied seconds after I replied meaning he was worried, a lot. I chuckled because despite of my age, he's still worried. Although, it's understandable. My condition...

Me

Of course not.

That's also the reason why

I'm late, you know.

Dad

Glad to know you still care

about your health. Stay safe.

I love you. Your younger

siblings does too.

Me

I love you too. Love them

too but don't tell them. Please.

Dad

This has been going for

too long, you know that.

They really love you.

They want to meet you.

They want to come here.

Me

Let's continue this later.

I'll go there after my uni.

I turned off my phone and sighed. Someone behind me pulled me out of my thoughts when she spoke, "Talking to your dad, huh?". I jumped. "You have sib-", she was gonna ask that so I cut her off.

"You were here?", I asked surprised. Why is A-Yeong here? She took a moment answering. She probably noticed that I cut her off on purpose.

"Been here since earlier", she replied. When? The whole session? Maybe she read my thoughts when she added, "Just went here because I saw you." I mouthed an 'Oh'. Why?

"Nice to meet you again but goodbye. I need to go now.", I said. I stood up from the desk, grabbed my textbooks and put it in my bag then went to the door to leave but couldn't when she grabbed my left arm. "What are you doing?", I asked not in my normal voice.

"Can we talk?", she asks. Why would you want to? I'm really confused right now. Ever since she showed up in my life again. I quickly took her hand of my arm then replied.

"I need to go somewhere. Some other time.", I said turning around and walking to the door when she asked something I wanted her to forget about.

"When did you have siblings?", she said loudly. I stopped but quickly managed to calm myself and think rationally.

"I don't have any.", I quickly replied.

"Then what did I saw? What was that? Your father's message? And you replied that you love them!", she shouted but not that loud so it can only be heard in this room.

"My cousins", I told her an alibi. An easy one. "Why are you here, anyways?", she was about to speak so I cut her off knowing it will be a lie since she's doing a habit of hers which she only does when she's lying. She still hasn't changed that much, I guess. "Didn't I cheated on you? I hurt you, didn't I? So stop whatever you're doing!" I said out loud so she will remember those scenes. That time. She'll leave again. And it's because of me, again.

But a different response came out of her mouth. Something I didn't expect to hear, from HER and also something I don't want to hear again. Because I'll be selfish. And then I'll end up hurting someone again.

"Let's date. Again.", she said. What? I looked at her dumbfounded and confused. "Let's get back together." I...

"No." "I don't want to.", I said and then left.

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A/N

*coughs* *coughs*

i dont have a vast imagination.

i gave a lot of clues on the first chapter which is not me.

if i did any grammatical errors, tell me so i can correct it.

if you have any ideas for this story, please write it.

if you got any questions, you can write it also.

im not much of a author or writer one. so forgive me for my inexperience in this field.