60. The Sharingun

I slowly started to open my tired eyes and as I did I felt a heavy weight around my waist, I remembered Deidara had comforted me before I had fallen asleep last night.

I let out a short breath of relief in knowing it was just him as I lay there in his loose grip then I slowly raised up his arm as carefully as I could as to not wake him. I wiggled out of bed and stood up then gently put his arm back down, Deidara didn't move an inch and as I looked at him laying there he seemed very peaceful, that long blonde hair sprawled out across my pillow.

I went over to my wardrobe and pulled out a loose white knee high dress then quietly tip toed over to the bathroom and shut the door behind me. I set my clothes down and got undressed and then turn the hot water on in the shower, then took a look at myself in the mirror.

The reflection of my long blonde hair and green eyes shone back, and as I looked into my slightly sullen eyes I saw a kind of confusion. It was strange because even though I didn't know Deidara from a bar of soap I still felt so comfortable as though we were very close, even best friends in a past life..

Was he more to me than I thought?

But when I tried to remember all that came to my mind was a blank abyss of emptiness. I disregarded my thoughts and stepped into the shower, I let the hot steam of the water roll of my back and let my mind slip into the nothingness that was overtaking.

Maybe not remembering was easier..

I finished up and got dressed, brushed my teeth and hair and went back into my room. Deidara was still peacefully sleeping so I quietly left my room and went to the kitchen. As I walked in Itachi and Sasuke who were sitting and talking from across the table both looked up at me, their expressions were so blank.

I gave a small smile and then went and sat down beside Sasuke who immediately pulled the chair out for me to sit down on.

"Thanks" I said only to receive a small smirk from him.

"Did you remember that we're going out today?" Itachi asked me curiously.

"Oh! Yeah, no I completely forgot" I admitted sheepishly.

"At least your still just as clueless as ever" Sasuke remarked quickly.

"That wasn't very nice" I gave him a frown but he then just patted me on the shoulder.

"Tila, it's not such a bad thing" Sasuke reassured playfully. Itachi let out a faint chuckle and then stood up.

"I wouldn't mind some Dangos, what do you say?" Itachi suggested.

I nodded in agreement seeing as my stomach was churning and Sasuke and I stood up too, we went down the entrance staircase and out into the bright sunny day. We walked down the main village street and eventually found a small Dango shop on the outskirts of the village.

Itachi, Sasuke and I ordered a whole bunch of Dangos then found a nice green patch of grass to sit on just outside the Dango shop. As I sat down I felt the soft green grass bristle against my bare legs, I watched as Itachi and Sasuke both sat down on either side of me facing each other.

Itachi placed the box of Dangos down in the middle of the small circle and then him and Sasuke both picked one up. I watched quietly as they both started eating, I couldn't help but to notice how similar they looked but suddenly my attention was averted to the tree behind Itachi.. For a split second id thought id seen a black and white face on the tree but then I blinked a few times and it wasn't there.

That was strange

"Are you going to have one?" Sasuke then asked as he lowered his Dango stick from his mouth.

"Yeah, I was just thinking about something" I replied, not wanting to mention that I was seeing things in case they thought I was crazy.

"Have you remember anything yet?" Sasuke asked as he picked up a stick and handed it to me.

"No, not yet" I told him as I took it from him.

"Hn" Itachi hummed as his eyes discretely glanced over me.

"Itachi, why don't we just show her a memory in a Genjutsu" Sasuke suggested.

"A Genjutsu?" I asked curiously.

"It's like an illusion, you used to be able to use powerful Genjutsu's too" Itachi explained to me before looking over to Sasuke as though in contemplation.

"Would you want to try it Tila?" Itachi asked me curiously.

"I suppose it wouldn't hurt.." I admitted.

Maybe it could work, I can't help but to be curious as to why everyone wants me to remember who I was so badly..

"Hn. Itachi, your Genjutsu were always better than mine. You try first" Sasuke then said cooly.

"Fine" Itachi said then ate the last Dango ball on his stick, then put it down and readjusted himself so he was sitting in a cross legged position.

I watched carefully as Itachi closed his eyes, he opened them back up and then his eyes had turned a completely different colour. They were a bright red with a strange pattern on them, those eyes were.. Sending chills down my spine for some reason and I felt myself shudder involuntarily.

"It's alright Tila, this won't hurt" Sasuke said and then I felt him hold onto my hand gently from beside me.

"Okay, I'm ready" I said as I let a small breath out and braced myself for the unknown.

Everything went dark.

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I opened my eyes and as soon as I did I saw I was standing in a gloomy looking lounge room - suddenly I saw myself and Itachi and Kisame walk in.

That's me..

I watched as I laid down on the couch and Itachi sat down and put my head on his lap while Kisame searched a movie rack from beside the TV..

"Jaws?" Kisame asked as he held up a movie case.

I continued to watch the scene unfold before my eyes, I was laying in Itachi's lap as we watched a movie and I felt a strange feeling deep inside my stomach..

Were Itachi and I somehow involved?

Why was he holding me so closely to him..?

Why did I look so upset?

I felt my head thump hard and I closed my eyes tightly suddenly everything went dark again.

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"Tila?" Sasuke's voice whispered from beside me and I felt his hand grip my own more tightly. I opened my eyes back up and breathed shakily but the pounding in my head had disappeared.

"It doesn't look familiar.. But, can we try again? I feel like I'm so close to remembering" I said to Itachi and Sasuke as they watched me somewhat blankly.

"Okay, I've got a good one" Sasuke said with a small determined smirk.

"Just don't show her anything that's going to scare her" Itachi said quickly.

"I wont" Sasuke said and he closed and reopened his eyes so they were now similar to how Itachi's had been.

"I'm ready" I said quietly, now letting myself be enveloped Into those mesmerising eyes.

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I looked around and saw myself and Sasuke now standing in a large dim room and then suddenly Sasuke and I started summoning lightning clones. I continued to watch as Sasuke and my own clones started to battle each other..

Was this my Jutsu that I used to be able to do?

"You know, we used to train together everyday" Sasuke's voice said from beside me. I quickly turned and saw that he was standing closely next to me, watching what I was watching too.

"Were we like rivals?" I asked Sasuke.

"No. we didn't have anyone else to train with back then. It was just you and me" Sasuke said coldly as he continued to watch the fighting scene. Suddenly I felt another pound hard in my head, I closed my eyes tightly again out of reflex and everything went dark.

- - - Tila's own memory - - -

A flash of Itachi laying on a bed before me as I sat on his lap entered my mind, his cold eyes full of emotions I couldn't decipher.

"Please Utachi make it stop" I heard myself plead.

Another flash went through my mind and vision quickly - Itachi's lips broke apart from mine as he had been kissing me.. his hands parted from my own as though he had been holding them... his hands found themselves at the hem of my shirt lifting the fabric off my body swiftly.

What was Itachi doing to me?!?

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I felt myself physically sitting on the soft grass again, my eyes shut so tight and my breath slowing down from a hitched rate. I felt myself being pulled into someone's chest, being held closely. I cracked open my eyes only to see the fabric of Itachi's shirt..

I slowly pulled away and looked up at Itachi as he slowly let me go again.

"I saw .. Something" I said hesitantly, Itachi's onyx eyes now holding curiosity as I looked up at him.

"What was it?" Sasuke asked and I felt him pull my arm gently so to turn around and face him.

"It was.. Ah. The same eyes that you both have" I mumbled under my breath.

What I had seen.. I couldn't say it out loud could I?

I felt a blush reach my cheeks so I quickly raise my hands and covered them then buried my head down into my knees!

"You saw a Sharingun? Do you know who's it was?" Itachi's cool voice then asked me and I felt Goosebumps rise onto my skin at the sound of his voice. I slowly raised my head back up and looked from Itachi to Sasuke who both looked very intrigued.

"I'm not sure, it was just a really blurry and.." I stuttered feeling anxiety run through me.

"It's better than nothing I suppose" Itachi said and Sasuke gave a small nod. I sat there in a small silence with Itachi and Sasuke and then felt my head start to spin slightly..

What was I doing in that memory..?

I wanted to know so badly what had happened but.. It just wouldn't come to me. Maybe if I try again I could remember more?....

"Can we try again tomorrow?" I asked as I looked back between the two.

"Perhaps that isn't such a bad idea. I'll have to run it past everyone else though" Itachi said softly to me.

"Hn. Why don't we go back then" Sasuke said.

Itachi nodded and slowly started to stand up, Sasuke grabbed my hand and pulled me up Onto my feet with him. My spinning in my head started to subside as I stood up properly.

"We have a meeting this afternoon so we'd better get back" Itachi said, Sasuke raised an eyebrow delicately in response before gently interlocking his fingers with my own so that he was holding my hand.

"What do you even talk about in these meetings anyway?" I asked.

"I think it's about time we included you in one, so you'll find out soon enough" Sasuke sighed. I quietly followed as we all walked back together down the village street towards the tall dark grey building. As we reached the bottom of the stairs Sasuke let go of my hand so that I could climb the stairs in front of him but behind Itachi.

We finally got to the top and I kept following as Sasuke and Itachi went up to the top floor towards the meeting room. Itachi opened the door and Sasuke and I followed in.

"Just sit here for a minute" Sasuke said as he sat me down beside Kisame who gave me a fishy grin and followed Itachi down to talk to Konan and Kakuzu who were sitting at the other end of the table.

"So your going to join in on this meeting kid?" Kisame asked me.

"I suppose so" I said awkwardly as I glanced back over to Itachi, Sasuke, Konan and Kakuzu who all seemed to be deep in conversation about something. I then heard the door open from behind me and as I turned around I saw Hidan and Deidara walk in.

"Tila, about fucking time you came to one of these boring meetings" Hidan exclaimed as he walked in and sat down on the left side of the big table. Deidara took a seat beside me and then let out a small sigh but before I could ask what was wrong I heard Kakuzu call my name.

"Tila, you can sit in on this one, we've decided it's about time you were updated on what's happening" Kakuzu said from across the table. I stayed silent and watched as everyone took their seats again and then I was Sasori walk in and take a seat beside Kakuzu.

His eyes wandered around the room until they found me and for a split second he held his gaze but didn't say anything. I started to feel that same anxiousness knowing that the last time I had seen him I'd ran away...

I hope he doesn't hold it against me..