Hated

#Chapter2 Hated

My eyes opened slowly blinking

a few times as i tried to stretch myself but i couldnt .

jongins strong arms had me tight in his gripp. he almost squeezed me with my back against his chest .

jongin.. /"i whined with a small smile, this wasnt the first time he did this. he didnt respond and i knew he was fake sleeping he always does that because he doesnt need as much sleep as me..

a wolf doesnt need as much sleep as a human ..

jongin !/"i raised my voice a little pushing myself away .

lets just lay a little /"he whisperd against my hair

you're lazy /"i whisperd back turning with hard work around to face his chest.

kissing his bare collar bones because he always sleeps shirtless, i noticed my bottomlip hurting a little but i ignored it.i had to admit tho .. i didnt mind laying like this longer .

thats until he suddenly groaned and i frowned .he finally losened his gripp and i backed up a little looking at him .

they're calling .. /"he answerd my unspoken question .and i rolled my eyes smiling as he just stood up not giving me another look .

i wanted to stand up aswell but as soon as i got to my feet i felt a sharp pain going though my back and bottom . i tried hard not to cry out but that didnt change the fact that it hurt so bad, i had to steady myself with one of my hands on the nighttable ,the other holding my back .

kyungsoo /"jongin was instandly at my side ...

oh right ..

the bound we had made. he sensed if i was in pain which was pretty unfair because i couldnt sense if he was in pain at all since i'm a fucking useless human.

whats wrong ?/"he asked me worried and i looked up at him as he steadied me

i hurt you last night , didnt i ?/"he looked guilty. hurt even as he glanced over me

n-no dont worry i'm fine its not youre fault that i'm just human /"i smiled playing it off. it realy wasnt his fault and i dont want him to blame himself .besides that it wasnt even that bad. i've had worse .

i like you the way you are /"he pouted sadly at me and i kissed his pout. looking into his eyes .

i'm fine jongin /"straightening myself i stood right clearing my throat while i smiled at him .i knew what this was about again

he only sighed /"i sensed youre pain, that wasnt fine ..

roll up the pullover /"

jongin we're having breakfast we can not do the mating before that /"i joked trying to change the topic but he shock his head chuckling weakly.

not because of that /"his hands gently moved to the edge of the oversized pullover pulling it up slightly, his face turned blank as he swollowed seeming in thoughts .and i dared to look down aswell .

my eyes saddened as i saw the purple blue marks decorating my skin on the sides of my torso ..

traces of fingers could be seen .

jongin.. /"i removed his hands from the pullover to let it fall back down . i held his hands in mine and he looked sad into my eyes .

i smiled at him tho leaning up i pressed a kiss onto his lips. which he didnt quite return

/"you have no idea how scared i am /"he whisperd and i didnt have to ask of what he was scared of because it was obvious.

you have no idea how happy i am jongin /"i smiled .

/"i. am. fine ..

those are just some small bruises . they wont kill me and i provoced Kai so its my own fault./"i told him.

what if .. what if i hurt you too bad someday or even kill you/"

that wont happen /"i assured him /"youre overreacting ..i'm just having backpain that happens to a lot of couples ok ... /"

he looked down sighing but i kissed his nose to tease him and he smiled slightly before closing his eyes in annoyance .making me chuckle.

they're calling we should go down/"

he nodded and handed me some pants before wearing some himself . i took a few steps to the door realy trying to play my pain off but he ofcorse sensed it and picked me up bridal style

jongin !/"i scolded him as he started walking ./"what will they think ??/"

i dont care /"he chuckled and i just smiled leaning into him as we walked down and enterd the living room .

They already sat on the table. chanyeol was arguing with sehun about something i never understood because when they argue .. they sometimes dont use words they use growls and howls .

they quiet down after jongin growls loudly and sets me down onto the chair . i smile at them nervously as i felt some of them looking at me with a look full of annoyance.

they dont like me and i got that . but i dont know what to do for them to like me .. for them to at least accept me as a friend if not family . jongin doesnt know that they dont like me and i'm not planning on telling him .they are always busy with other packs challenging them or wanting to join this pack . so he didnt realy have a chance to see them ..

hate me .

À lot of other packs had already visited this place and offerd the daughters of the alphas or betas to mate with jongin for that they could form a bigger pack but jongin ñever agreed thankfully even before he met me he never agreed . I guess he liked keeping his pack small and trusted .

Also the whole territory fight wasn't realy as important to them as people might read in books . In fact only few wolves realy cared for their territories. Rogues still existed tho..

Rogues where wolf who got taken over by anger or grief , they turned into blood thirsty creatures not caring for anything else than the kill , which was what made them so dangerous .

the point is .. jongin told me that his pack was like a family to him and i didnt want to come between Them so if i cant be a pack member then i at least try to befriend them right ? .

there were 4 members .

kris Sehun Chanyeol

and ofcorse jongin .. the alpha all the others are betas because appearently a werewolf is only an omega when he hasnt matured enough . so basically all the kids are omegas, sehun too since hes not 18 yet

hey .. /"jongin soft voice appeard behind me .

after we ate everyone was just kinda spreading around the house .

sehun was out .letting his wolf have a little run and chanyeol was upstairs in his room probably listening to music while reading and kris was actually still on the table drawing something into his little book .

i sat on the couch and watched tv with a hot-water bottle behind my back surrounded by pillows as I let the warmth of the water bottle sooth my back pain .. great .

hey /"i turned to him .

sehun ran into something again.. i'm gonna see what hes doing now ../"he rolled his eyes, continuing with a sigh /"you'll be fine right ?/"no ... please dont leave.. i hate when he leaves. I don't like being left alone with them .

yeah dont worry /"oh god ..

he kissed my forehead before he walked towards the door shifting as the door closes behind him .

why shouldnt you be fine ?/"kris voice came from the other side of the room and i turned my head towards him . what should i say ?

does he now think we're gonna hurt you aswell /"

/"no !.. no he would never think that . you're his family /"

he sighed also looking at me but with that expression full of hate and it made me look down in shame .why do i have to be a human ? if i were a wolf just like them then they wouldnt hate me and jongin wouldnt be fighting with his wolf to hold back all the time because then i wouldnt be so fragile anymore .

yes exacly .we are his family so what the hell are you still doing here ? /"

i sigh at that getting up from the couch i walked closer to the table .taking short steps as my back still hurt luckily jongin was already too far to notice the pain i felt .from a distance he could only sense extreme pain .

look.. i get that its weird since i'm not like you guys but that doesnt mean i cant love him /"i sat down onto the chair besides him .

yes exactly that is what it means .dont you get that no one wants you here except him ? its been too long already that we had to deal with you .. dont you think he'll someday get tired of you aswell you're a fucking human and jongin is an alpha, a strong one! do you know how hard it is to fight his wolf all the time just because you're so god damn weak?

He doesn't need your worthless ass/"i flinched at his loud voice and as he stood up i almost fell off the chair wincing . he chuckled breathy . looking at me as i held my torso .

you cant even have sex without carrying a bruise after it /"he chuckled and i looked down again as he walked away with his pencil and book

jongin /"

i whisperd as i turned to him in the bed . his eyes were closed and he layed on his side facing me now aswell.

/"mh /"

how does it feel ..t-to fight with kai ?/"i could see him frown at my question and it made me feel nervous . i've been wanting to ask him this question since days now and i dont even know why i came up with the curage to do so now

its not a fight .. its just like an argument .. no its like .. theres a door to a room and in that room kai is sleeping . and whenever he wants to come out without me wanting it . i hold the door close and after a while he usually calms down and goes back to sleep /"he explained and i pulled the blanket over my shoulder sighing .

what if he doesnt go to sleep ?/"his eyes opened now as he looked at me . they were glowing slightly .

whats wrong ?/"he asked me with voice this time while looking over my face and i looked away from his eyes .

nothing i was just ... curious /"

i started hiding myself more under the blankets .

nugget... /"he grabbed my hand away from the blankets and moved them down to reveal my face again .

i dont want to be a burden jongin /"admitting it i didnt dare look at him .

why on earth would you think you are a burden ? /"

you keep fighting against youre wolf just because i'm too weak/"

kyungsoo.. you think i have a problem with that ?/"

i shrugg my shoulders and he finally brought his finger under my chin to look at him

nugget ..., i hardly fight against him anymore now because he now understands that youre not like us ... besides that i never fight against him . i only hold him back and even if i would have to hold him back every second that i am with you .. i would still be with you /"his words made me smile as i look at him . /"now stop worrying and go to sleep /"he pulled me closer inhaling my scent through my hair .

i smiled snuggling into him

and we both soon fell asleep .