04-Mira~

I wonder sometimes.. How do people see me as? The fat girl or the girl who lost her dad? Now walking with Ryuk i couldn't help but wonder.What have I done so wrong.Everyday I walk into school knowing people look at me In disgust.For what.The fact how my own friends lied to me and left me out shows how much of a loser I am.This would have been my first party.IK SHOCKING.But for me it was normal being the last option.Like for sports day I would never have a partner. I would sit on the fucking sidelines like one loner.why is all of this happening to me? I have tried making friends.i get called "chubby girl" when I try help people I get called a "Beg" WTF DO I DO NOW.people love to judge people,it's honestly disgusting how people assume shit about others.Its mad really.But Ryuk he didn't judge me or if he did he sure didn't make it obvious .I felt lucky knowing someone was kind enough to understand. Omg why am I so emotional.Its kind gestures like these that really makes me day.What if he saw me as a charity case? I don't even care at this point the fact how someone is willing to help me really make me full of joy.one day I'll repay him the same kindness he gave me...

I looked like a mess as we walking.Have u guys watched Chucky.I LOOKED LIKE HIS LONG LOST SISTER.But Ryuk was kind enough to help me which sent butterflies up my stomach.I felt like thoes k drama main characters as the guys touch them and smile.AHHHHH!!! SHIN MIRA PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER!as I collected myself I could the music screaming for us to come in.I felt out of place.Me the mess of the school going to a queen bees party.Just as I about to turn around and go back home.Ryuk grabs my hand "You can do it let's go"Walking into the party all eyes were on us as people whispered and stared.This felt crazy.Me the center of attention.While I went to get a drink-RIPPPPPPP.My dress.MY DRESS RIPPED.I turn round to see the Queen bees cackling as they say "EW YOU THOUGHT U COULD COME TO OUR PARTY" she smirks "how pathetic".Suddenly I don't know what possessed me but I saw RED.