THE BLESSING AND THE CURSE

One Saturday, I read a passage of the Bible, an ancient story:

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Genesis 4 English Standard Version: Cain and Abel4 Now Adam knew Eve his wife, and she conceived and bore Cain, saying, "I have gotten[a] a man with the help of the Lord." 2 And again, she bore his brother Abel. Now Abel was a keeper of sheep, and Cain a worker of the ground. 3 In the course of time Cain brought to the Lord an offering of the fruit of the ground, 4 and Abel also brought of the firstborn of his flock and of their fat portions. And the Lord had regard for Abel and his offering, 5 but for Cain and his offering he had no regard. So Cain was very angry, and his face fell. 6 The Lord said to Cain, "Why are you angry, and why has your face fallen? 7 If you do well, will you not be accepted?[b] And if you do not do well, sin is crouching at the door. Its desire is contrary to[c] you, but you must rule over it."8 Cain spoke to Abel his brother.[d] And when they were in the field, Cain rose up against his brother Abel and killed him. 9 Then the Lord said to Cain, "Where is Abel your brother?" He said, "I do not know; am I my brother's keeper?" 10 And the Lord said, "What have you done? The voice of your brother's blood is crying to me from the ground. 11 And now you are cursed from the ground, which has opened its mouth to receive your brother's blood from your hand. 12 When you work the ground, it shall no longer yield to you its strength. You shall be a fugitive and a wanderer on the earth." 13 Cain said to the Lord, "My punishment is greater than I can bear.[e] 14 Behold, you have driven me today away from the ground, and from your face I shall be hidden. I shall be a fugitive and a wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me." 15 Then the Lord said to him, "Not so! If anyone kills Cain, vengeance shall be taken on him sevenfold." And the Lord put a mark on Cain, lest any who found him should attack him. 16 Then Cain went away from the presence of the Lord and settled in the land of Nod,[f] east of Eden.

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Next, I went to a mall to buy food and three small cakes to bring to my nephews, nieces, and parents. I was thinking whether the cakes could make it for the next day or not, it might melt on our travel; it took more than 2 and 1/2 hours travel time as well.I heard the LORD's voice saying, "We'll do it now." So, instead of going there the next day, I decided to go to my parent's house that very day, Saturday, October 12, 2024.

It was my son's birthday, the next Monday, my nephew's birthday on Sunday, and my mother's birthday on Friday. So I was thinking to celebrate all their birthdays in one day even with a simple meal only.

Heaven has helped me, it rained, the weather is cooler. And it stopped raining during our travel time. We rode a bus and I reached there around 4pm.

They were surprised, my elder brother (the 2nd) was there, the little kids, and my other relatives. We are many. As I arrived there, I saw my younger brother (the 7th), the epileptic one, sitting by the table, in front of the small doorway. As usual, he seemed not bothered with my arrival, he neither greeted nor looked up at me. I told him to move so that I could arrange the decor.

I immediately arranged a simple birthday decor in my parent's wooden house, in a small corner near the table and kitchen area. Around 6 o'clock in the evening.

My 2nd elder brother was there around the kitchen. My mother was trying to cook the pasta I bought.I brought a kilo of chicken as well, and it was left there above the table. It seems no one wanted to cut the chicken at first to small slices. So, I immediately proceeded to cut it, finding a knife, when my brother criticized me about it. He said, "...it's easy! (blah blah)!"And I answered, "...you're just commanding."

So he instantly took the chore, and sliced the chicken.I went to the side, just sat by the table in the corner. While he's slicing the chicken, he said, "Lend me 3000 pesos."I said, "I cannot give that amount..."

For me, it's big. According to him, he will buy a bag of Fertilizer and it costs 3000 pesos."Very expensive!" I said.I have no idea before that one bag of fertilizer is very expensive because I am not a sugarcane planter.

"JUST LEND ME 3000 PESOS, AND I'LL PAY AFTER!" he insisted many times, repeatedly.But I insisted as well, "I cannot lend you that kind of amount."..."I remember the time you harvested your sugarcane, but you didn't even share the gain afterwards.

I didn't receive any amount. Those people who know how to share the blessings they receive will receive more from GOD." I added.(I remember, I am the only one who give them money everytime, even a little amount only, but I didn't receive any from them, even a simple thing.)

And he added, "My sugarcane has no fertilizer..." He kept on murmuring.

And I said, " If you're not capable, then don't plant sugarcane."

Next, I sat down, and I heard the LORD's voice intensely, "RESPECT ME!" The LORD said, but only me could hear it. On behalf of the LORD, I told them, "You should respect the LORD, because he's with me always everywhere I go." Disrespecting me is disrespecting the LORD as well.

My mother was talking with my father that time while I was talking. My mother said, "I am listening.""But you're talking to them while I am talking too." So my mother fell silent.

However, my 2nd brother instantly said in a high pitched like a mad man, "IT'S A DEMON, NOT GOD!"Things were getting intense from then on, he didn't stop spouting nonsense words.

And I was responding to him too.

He became wild, in a shouting voice like a drunk man, he stood up as if he wanted to fight me or punch me, I don't know but my mother acted as a barrier between us, in that very small space.

He didn't finish elementary grade, because he stopped and he just helped my mother working in the field or in sugarcane plantation of other owners.I remember when he's still elementary, he's a trouble-maker, chasing stones with the other kids, then he stopped completely afterwards.

He's like blaming us? For him, he did all the work inorder for us to live during our young age.But I said, "Who told you to stop schooling? Without GOD, you cannot survive. All the lands, the soil, the water comes from GOD."

It was like he grabbed the credit. It was like he's the one who make us alive instead of giving the credit to GOD and to our parents. It's like a total nonsense, it's very scandalous that moment.

"IDIOT!" He told me that I am an IDIOT, he repeated that idiot word again and mentioning my course against me. In my understanding, he thinks I finished College but has no money? I got a good title only but I am contented in small salary not reaching 30k and lower than 26k.

I remember the male voices I heard in my head, and I realized it was him that I heard from afar that seemed insulting me. But I have no idea before who he is.

"Go away!" I told him. "You are just a troublemaker to mother and father, always drinking alcohol...."But he didn't move away.

"Because of your disrespect to GOD, you have now GOD's curse! You'll die!"

Finally, I walked away, it's the 2nd time I did that, but I think not only 2nd or thrice, but I did it many times, I left them. I walked away, even it's already dark. I carried my bag and rode a bus going home around 6:30 pm.

As usual, I just controlled my emotions while riding the bus.

I remember my other 7th brother who wrote a bad comment to my post on my facebook, he's the same with him, but they have different strategies or bad tactics.

I realized the things that flashbacked in my memories while riding the bus before I arrived at my parent's house and a female voice was saying, "You didn't learn the lesson." I remember the things that had happened before when I walked out too, and it happened again as well.

The male voices were telling me before "Do not go." But I insisted, and I thought about FREEWILL, FREE CHOICE. I wanted to help the pitiful kids.I was always remembering them, how they're suffering in poverty, and despite the insults, I still wanted to visit and helped them.

The LORD seemed angry, he said, "Don't mention that 'PITY' words again, I forbid you to mention it." It seems he was greatly annoyed.I said sorry, but he disliked it. He didn't want me to say SORRY on behalf of them. The LORD said, "DON'T PRAY FOR THEM OR ABOUT THEM ANYMORE!"

I didn't learn my lesson, the 1st time, the 2nd time, and many times. They did it to me again and again, they misunderstood me, most of them.

The LORD said these again and again as well.

"LEAVE THEM!"

"FORGIVE AND FORGET, SO THAT IT WON'T CONSUME YOU."

"FOCUS."

"Don't stoop to their level." The Lord GOD's advice.

I was thinking of the situation of the worlds as well.

"How's the world now?"

I spoke in my head."

Chaotic like yours now."

I heard an unknown voice.

The next day, Sunday, I just rose from my bed, and just faced another day as if nothing had happened yesterday, though I felt a little stress, feeling my heavy head. "A RESILENT ONE." I heard an unknown a female voice.

I just celebrated in advance my son's birthday by eating outside, in a fast-food, as usual, the two of us only.I was just trying to live, remembering the LORD's words to me, "FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR SON..."

Then, I got many dreams the following nights. I dreamed of my friends, teachers and famous people. One of my dreams was about ELON MUSK: The Tower is being pushed by a Man(Elon Musk look-alike) together with other men (his colleagues?). It slides, cutting the upper part from the hidden part underground, showing the inside. Beneath it were the dead men... Next, after the tower breaks open, a dark liquid substance comes out along with the lines of many black insects, it looks like scorpions... (end of dream).

Monday evening, I realized things and posted videos online about my visit there and this:

{Cain and Abel Story 😴 I read about it in the morning of Saturday and similar things happened to me at 6pm in the evening. No coincidence?

The LORD told them, "RESPECT ME!" But only me could hear him. He didn't respect me, instead he said that it's not GOD but a demon. He didn't believe ...

He's a drunkard but he said I am the demon, not him!

He wants Money only.}

The next day, October 15, I saw online a video about ELON MUSKS's OPTIMUS ROBOTS, many robots are emerging one by one in a line, from a rectangular door, showing it to the audience, surrounding the robots. And I realized the BLACK SCORPIONS or BLACK INSECTS I saw in my dream were like Elon's OPTIMUS ROBOTS in a line (same with my illustration).

Today, I could relate to this passage of the Bible, where they call good evil and evil good, it was like the world had gone upside down:

"Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!" (Isa. 5:20.)

Again these thoughts came to me that we cannot generalize everything, not all brothers and sisters are the same, not all religious are really godly, ...

Finally, words are deceiving. We can know the tree by their fruit and it was stated by Jesus in the passage of the Bible, quoting these words I saw online: "A person can say whatever they want, but we test the veracity of that claim based on what it produces. For example, a person could say, "I really care about children," but if he then proceeds to open a child-labor camp, he obviously does not actually care about children."

October 15, 2024