I don’t know what I want

Leave me alone

Come be by my side

No,

Dont come close to me,

I want the warmth of a hug,

I dont know, just listen to me,

I hate these rampaging, opposite words in my head,

Telling me to hurt someone I hold dear

Just dont talk to me,

I want you to sing for me,

I'm in a war with myself

I hate my shitty life,

I love my life, sometimes.

In constant battle,

My mind is a war zone,

What the fuck am I thinking?

Because I have no idea anymore...