Ep14:ABUSER

And as expected my father didn't even care about his own father's death,

When he heard about the news "he said so what am I supposed to do HE DIED SO DIED" it's none of my business ".

Next day he bothered to appear on funeral. And he was drunk. So drunk that couldn't even stand on his feet properly.

He was yelling and abusing everyone for no reason. I can't believe it why my father is like that why?

Everybody around here is upset because of back-to-back deaths in house first my grandma and now my grandpa.

My Amma didn't came to any of the funeral.

Watching funeral is painful everyone is crying and telling back stories of the people who died.

I just kept my brothers and cousins in the top room. I didn't wanted them to see such kind of circumstances.

I had 8 cousins all of them were boys and 2 my younger brothers.

I was the only girl child in the house.

10 boys and 1 girl. We all cousins used to live in the same house for about two years and back.

My neighbours had kids as well they were all boys too.

Apparently I was the only girl child in the town at that time.

Why I'm telling this to you is because I spent most of my life around boys I understand their each and every feeling and thought.

It took me a few days to get over with my closed ones death but eventually it made me strong.

But inside I was becoming nothing but just heartless.

My own feelings begin to die day-by-day.

My father stayed at home for few days after the death of my grandpa.

The time he stayed Baba used to beat me everyday.

Most of the time baba spend sleeping when he wakes up he needs his tea.

Mostly he wakes up at midnight and send me to the market to buy milk and as far as I know markets are supposed to be closed at midnight. I have to search all of the place to find it.

Well this was his routine.

One night I was out for the same reasons,

Baba beated him badly because he peed on bed while he was in sleep.

It's not Tyin's fault to pee in bed in his sleep.

Tyin had a weaker bladder system because both of my brother's birth happened only within 7 months so his bladder system didn't build up completely in my amma's womb.

Unlike me at my brother's birth time my mom had pregnancy complications.

I was born after 9 months pregnancy but Moon & Tyin were born after 7 months pregnancy.

So when I wasn't around Tyin while he is  at sleep he wets his bed. And I completely understand it's not his fault.

But Baba didn't understood that he thaught it was his fault and he hit him badly.

When I returned back home after buying milk. I heard screaming I got panicked because I knew it was Tyin's scream.

I quickly ran to protect him.

Tyin screamed and while crying "Appi save me please" he hid behind me.

And baba begin to hit me, I'm glad instead of Tyin I was being abused.

My eyes teared because my little boy he was my brother but I love him and raised him as my son he was crying in pain he covered in bruises.

I didn't cared about myself my baba had a metal-rod in his hand and he continued to hit me with it.

I was all worried if he broke Tyin's any bone while hitting him.

Moon also woke up and hid under blanket he was looking us secretly from under his blanket.

He tried to come out of the blanket and I indicated him to stay there.

He was crying too.

Finally when baba got tired.

He sat on bed after abusing us.

He said get up and make me a tea Myin.

Are you going to make tea or you two need more of hitting dose.

I tried to stand up but my whole body was aching after a few tries I stood up and grabbed Tyin's hand and went to kitchen to make tea.

I assume you can imagine after getting beaten by the Metal-rod no one can properly walk and function.

After all we were only kids very young kids for that abuse.

Moon also came to us in kitchen he was crying, Tyin was crying but I didn't shredded a tear.

Moon said baba is asking for water.

I got a bottle of cold water from fridge and poured it in glass.

My hand was shaking due to pain but somehow I managed to go in bed room and gave baba a glass of water.

I went to kitchen crippling.

I hugged Moon and Tyin, I Could feel their pain.

I gave them water and whipped their tears.

I looked at the stove in the pot the tea was prepared.

I tried to pour it cup but my whole body was shivering.

I gave my father tea. He turned on TV, while smoking and drinking tea.