Ecstasy 7

"Hey, I'm sorry if I had offended you or upset you" Horus gets up from my bed and walks to me standing behind the chair he was hesitant on getting closer "I didn't mean anything bad, and, I do think you're very strong for putting up with everything…"Hearing his empathy didn't really help, it just felt like overused words that people say because it's easier to say something you don't mean "Look" he grabs the seat turning it to face him then bends down placing his hand over mine, I looked down at his placement then over at him my eyes puffy from crying. "I'm not sure what I could do to prove what I say is true but if you let me I could try showing you? Let's get this work done and if we pass with a good grade like an A then we go on a date to celebrate together just me and you" he smiles at me trying to comfort me, his gentle voice soothing me.

"Why are you so persistent on wanting to go on a date with me?" I say quietly, I didn't want to ask fearing the answer would only hurt me but I let curiosity win.

"Because, even though I don't know you well enough, you seem very sweet and comforting to be around" He moves closer moving his hand from mine to my cheek wiping away what was left of my tears, "You seem to have a very brightening aura and I know behind this rain of sadness is a bright sunny guy who wants to be happy" my heart begins to race and the feeling returns once more, why do I feel like this?

"FIne, if you could make us get an A or make us pass then I'll go on a date with you" the look in eyes began to shine filled with excitement then nodded agreeing.

"I promise you we will pass" he sounded determined, getting up from his knees looking through his bag for his computer and notes. Did I make a mistake? Agreeing to something like that doesn't seem bad, it's just a date right? I didn't agree on being with him after or anything, which now saying it sounds a bit mean because wouldn't they expect that after a date? 

Throughout the whole time he had seemed so focused and he seemed to be doing most of the work, I could only ever stare and wonder why someone like him would take such random interest in me? I still found it weird how it was so sudden but I guess I need to take more chances rather than letting fear get the best of me. Before I knew it, time had flown and it was getting dark so fast. It was already 8:50 close to 9 and Horus had come with us from school. Is he able to go back alone? Is that too dangerous?

"Hey Horus" we had sat on the floor together leaning against my bed frame notes on our laps, "Are you able to go home on your own? Or did you need a ride back? I could always try asking" I turn looking at him with my eyes barely staying open, doing homework is always draining and makes me want to pass out.

"Hm" He gives me a smirk putting his pencil down then moves leaning in closer "Can't I just sleep here with you?" I pause for a moment my mind going blank, I couldn't tell if he was being serious "I'm kidding, I know I'll have to wait to sleep with you" he gets up off the floor taking his things and walking over to his bag putting them away "I can walk home my house isn't to far from here and I don't think he would enjoy taking me back home"

"Who? Adonis?" I asked but the answer seemed clear.

"Yes, he doesn't seem to like me very much and I don't want to be a bother to someone who I might need the blessing of to be with you" He chuckles then puts his bag over his shoulder then looks over at me.

"Well, I'll walk you out then" I got up leaving my stuff behind on the floor, we walked out my room when suddenly I felt his arm go around my shoulders getting closer. My heart felt weird but I didn't seem to be bothered by it so I walked along with a small smile on my face; we went downstairs to see my mom talking to Jule and Adonis with his mom on the couch watching tv. "Oh you guys are home early." We stopped at the last step looking at them as they all turned their eyes to us.

"Who's this?" My mom says leaning in resting her head on the palm of her hand.

"Isn't it obvious? Azul found himself a boyfriend" Adonis's mom jokes, chuckling and smiling.

"Mom!" Adonis and Jule sound upset.

"What? I was just messing with them" she looks at them both with a confused expression, her smile slowly fading away.

"This is Horus, he came over to do a project for a class we have together" I look down embarrassed, why did they have to come early when he was here.

"Yes, and he promises me a date if we passed so you're not to far off" he smiles joking along then looks over at me then back at them "but it was very nice to meet everyone today I hope to see you all more often" he nudges me with his arm to move as we both walk to the door ready to head out, he removes his arm from me as I put on my sandals this time as he puts on his shoes; I don't know why but I could feel a sort of burning stare from behind me. "Nice to meet you all" he says his goodbye before we walk out and I make sure to close the door behind me feeling the weight lift off me for a second.

"Sorry about that" I said to him, humiliated.

"Hey it's okay," he turns to face me still having a bright smile on his face like nothing happened "I enjoyed meeting your family today, your moms were nice"

"Oh, the one with Jule was my mom and Adonis was with him. It's a whole thing I can't really explain right now" I say frustrated with everything.

"Then" he puts his hand on my shoulder then leans in close "you can tell me about it on our date" I looked at him rolling my eyes smiling letting out a little chuckle.

"Okay, you seem very sure we will pass so go get some rest we can study another time" He nods agreeing then removes his hand from shoulder and moves away.

"I'll see you again, Azul" he waves goodbye then walks off slowly getting farther and farther, I stand there thinking, maybe it wasn't so bad to give him a chance? Maybe things will be okay if I do go out with him. I hear the door click and open seeing Adonis walking out then closing the door behind him, he seemed aggravated having his cold eyes once more I could just feel this isn't going to end well.

"So you give him a chance but not me?" he crosses his arms staring seeming impatient, waiting for a response.

"Well…" my voice lowered as I didn't know what to say, my heart was racing and it felt like I was in trouble but for what? I'm not with him so it's not like I can't go out with other people. He grabs me by my arms then puts me up against the door then looking down at me his grip grasping hard onto me.

"I'm trying my hardest to be patient but knowing you're giving another guy a shot with you even if it's just a date then how come" his voice changed, his expressions, his grip loosens, he only seemed to be filled with sorrow "How come I can't show you I can be the one for you, that it's only you I want." I don't know why it pained my heart to see him like this, but I don't know, I can't.

"Adonis, you know it's different between us" I say look up at him his body hovering over me so closely, "I made a deal with him if he made us pass our assignment then we would go on a date but-" He removes his hands from my arms slamming on against the door hard it had echoed through to the other side surprising the others.

"Then make a deal with me, Azul"