CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTEEN

For the first time in days I was up before Logan. I immediately went into the bathroom to get an early start since Dr. Morris will be visiting me today and I forgot to inform Jer that he would also be getting a checkup.

As I was drying up, I heard the door opened and spun around to see Logan standing disheveled, with red eyes, clad in boxers. I turned away smiling as I remember him modelling his own brand under the disguise of being a model. That was the day my life changed forever.

"Morning" Logan mumbled behind me, as I secured the towel around me.

Nodding, with my back still turned to him, "morning" I responded and moved to walk around him. Since this bathroom is much smaller than the previous ones we occupied, I actually had to wait for him to shift aside to exit the bathroom.

With my head down, Logan finally moved for me to pass. I wanted to be out of the bedroom before he was finished in the bathroom.

As I stepped out, "I love you," Logan whispered softly and I stopped for a second, wondering if I imagined it, then when he said nothing, I walked out shutting the door behind me.

My back has been aching for the past day or so and I believe it has to do with me walking the distance to the Massy's cabin. I am embarrassed about my cowardice actions a few days ago, but I panicked and ran. I don't know how to look Justin and Cameron in the eyes since my action and behavior demeaned my husband in their eyes.

I am not sure I can ever make it back up to him and them and right now I don't care to try, because I just need to be on my own with my brother, the only person left, who never left my side.

I bolted out of the bedroom before Logan came out of the bathroom, unable to face him, just yet, but I heard Justin and Cameron's voices and stopped, looking around. If I go back, Logan would be there so there is just one way out, which is up!

Even with my aching back, I thread up the stairs and without knocking as usual, bolted into Jer's room and stopped in surprise. Gwen was rubbing something on Jer's shoulders and back. With both their backs turned to me, I know that I surprise them, because they look as if I caught them stealing from the cookie jar.

Not just unwilling but unable to walk back down, I strode slowly into the bedroom that is much smaller than the one Logan and I occupy.

"Sorry" I muttered, walking towards his desk instead of the bed, that I would normally go to first. "I don't have the strength to walk back down right now" I explained.

Getting up off the bed, "I'm sorry" Gwen says and I look over to Jer's silent plead for me to understand whatever is going on.

Looking between the both of them, "so what is going on here?" I asked Gwen, because I still don't trust her, although, I know that she's the first girl that Jer ever showed any interest in for more than forty eight hours.

Jer started to answer and I raised my hand in his direction stopping him as I wait for Gwen to answer me.

Glancing quickly at Jer, Gwen turns to me, "we... uh... we are trying again." she stammers and give her an expressionless look, as I wait for her to continue, but she stopped there and that is not good enough for me.

"Is that it?" I asked pretending to be confused.

Standing in front of the bed, looking down at her entwined finger, "yes, I am so sorry Jamie." She said suddenly moving towards me and Jer stood up immediately, watching her cautiously. "I listen to the lies Jessica said about you and after being here for a few day, I realize that you are not the person she describe to me. I have been observing you and I have been trying to get to know you, but you keep pushing me away and I understand that Jessica hurt you, but I am not Jessica and I am done trying to hurt you or your family." Gwen explained herself in a mouthful, her dark eyes speaking so much more.

She might be able to convince me or even Jer, but winning over Logan is another matter and I have no intention, not now, not ever to pave her way in that direction for her.

There is one way to test her though, "and I am not your sister." I said softly, watching, her eyes go softer and tears brim at her eyelids, that she quickly blinks away.

Nodding with a soft sad smile, "I know and I know that I need to stop judging everyone based on what she did to me." Gwen admitted. "She's moved on and living a happy life and wanting the best for her was all I need and now that she is happy, I can now start to live my own life." She says to me with her eyes on Jer.

Smiling, I nod, "I am willing to try, not just for my brother, but for you, because I can see that like me, you have very few people remaining from your past.

I can see genuine happiness stirring as her eyes got a little brighter and I looked around to avoid more eye contact with her.

My eyes now fell on the beer bottles strewn on the side of Jer's bed and I immediately got upset.

"Jer!" I shout, "are you f***ing kidding me." I continued shouting while Gwen seems taken aback at my shouting and Jer stared at me confused.

Still standing in front of Gwen, "what?" he watches me confused.

"Empty beer bottles?" I glared at him, his confused eyes, changed to realization!