51

Toya

I dance around the living room while the kids play around, this is when they will be awake the longest just before they will be asleep the longest, I cannot wait to get some sleep later.

The door swings open and Rin looks at me up and down and looks away awkwardly like there's something wrong with me.

I look at my self up and down, I think I look amazing in Rei's skirt, all the goods be getting all the breeze they need, feels really good to let it just hang out like that, very comfortable.

Kai's little pet walks past me awkwardly too, he peaks through the door and clears his shirt.

"Uhm. Hello Toya, you look really amazing in your girls skirt." He walks away laughing.

I roll my eyes, well duh, I obviously would not wear this if it didn't make me feel amazing.

I pour another glass of whiskey, muzzle top, I want to sleep like a baby, literally, and wake up again in the morning.

Rin walks into the room and shakes his head at me, now he's judging me for something else.

"What? What? Huh?! What?" I ask slightly annoyed with him.

"If Rei were here, you would not be this drunk, what's going on?" He asks giving me that judgemental look, he's always judging me, I am going to tell him exactly what I think of him too, difference is, I won't use my eyes.

"You know what your problem is?" I start chugging down as much of my glass as I can, I burp and shake my head.

Wooo! Feels real good. I laugh at how good that feels, gosh, why am I never wasted all the time? Who needs to be sober all day anyway?

What's the purpose of sober-rie-rity?

Huh!

Is that even a word?

"Toya snap out of it!" Rin yells at me.

I swing at him, "You know what your problem is Rin? You think you're better than everybody, you always have, you've always thought you better than me, and now, after I have been shut in ice for decades, I am back and no one threw me a party, why?

"Because you guys just don't love me, you do not care about me at all. You were loyal as long as it's beneficial, here I am, at your mercy, I am the weak loser now, jokes on me, right?" I laugh at the joke that is my life.

"And now? The only woman I will ever love is about to fall head over heels in love with the one guy on earth I could never stand for no good reason, I think I see it now, I just always knew it deep down, some part of me, in my genetic make up knew, you know?"

She is going to leave me for him, what's her fucking problem anyway? Damn her.

Truth though, damn me.

"I am a selfish bastard, I told her I don't want her because I don't want her to know I am in love with her, and now?! She will leave me and be happy with that bastard Kai. The one piece of shit human being I loathe simply for existing, what a damn betrayal."

I sit down on the couch and the fucking thing smells like her.

~

Rin

Toya dramatically screams and buries his face in his hands.

He completely breaks down having an emotional episode crying his heart out.

"I love that damn Rei, why do I need to screw it up? What's wrong with me? Why am I so afraid of loving an honestly good woman? Does her love bite or something?" He asks looking at me genuinely.

"No, it does not Toya, you just don't want to put in the work it will take to love set honestly good woman, you would need to be a good man for her, and you just don't want that yet, and the thing is, she does, she needs that, Kai is willing to make that sacrifice.

"Look, I am the last person to tell you this, but if you are not ready do not pretend to be, and do not feel sorry for it, live your life until you fucking mature at your own pace, in the mean time I am taking the kids out for a walk, it's only 6AM you idiot, what the hell?!

"You can stay here and cry until you feel better, and feeling better is not the same thing as completely forgetting about her, got it?"

I baby him unexpectedly and clear my throat, dammit all this baby siting thing is really toxic for my mental health.

I pick up the kids and call the other guy, forgot his name for some reason.

We leave the place and barely a moment too soon there is so much heat I can feel it burning my back and I brought us as far away from the house as I could go without being too far, it looks like Toya torched the entire radius and then some from our house to a couple of miles.

Shit, bastard!

I will say it's a gas leak, we'll sort this mess out when he feels better.

The twins start fiddling around looking for their dad, I think there's something in these flames that makes them Toya's. Something unusual about fire, just cannot put my finger on it.

"Hey hey now boys, let's eat up and daddy will come get us, he needs a change of clothes soon, I doubt that skirt survived the heat." I can't believe he's gotten so much stronger, what a terrifying power, good thing powers got weaker with time, they will never believe a single human being did this.

Let it out pal, just it let it out.

The heat is still intensifying, we have to get out of here, I feel another burst coming, no time to warn everyone else.

~

Toya

"You're a piece of shit!" I punch the floor over and over again.

I hate myself so fucking much. I hate you Toya!!!!

I fucking hate you so much, just fucking die you piece of shit, die, die, die, die, die, die.

What the hell were you born for? To waste oxygen for everyone else?

And Rei?

You made her cry, broke her heart, played her for a fool.

Fuck!

I used to love seeing her so down just so I, the guilty could be the remedy. I don't want love, I want it to be toxic, it's easier to walk away that way, it doesn't have to feel this way, hurt so bad I could die, no!!!

I would rather be dead than without her, I just, I am not ready to change yet, come on I have Kaiya.

I decided the very day I woke up, I would bring back the way of the Yakuza, I won't be a coward about it, and Rei.

I am so sorry, but for now, you and I, will have to be apart from each other, while I do what I got to do. Fucking Japan is mine.

~

Kai

Rei sneezes dramatically and shivers out of her seat.

She jumps up and down doing a weird voodoo dance making weird voodoo sounds, what? She cursing Yuki or something? Women are such unique-weird creatures.

Then she sits down like nothing happened, "Kai we need to go back home, right now. Something is wrong, something is really really wrong."

"Alright, I will get my things, we'll be at home in a gif, I took Rin's blood in case an emergency happened."

She runs into my arms and kisses me, "You have no idea just how safe I feel around you."

I look her in the eyes, she always knows the right thing to say to make me feel so … fuck, what is this? In love? Powerful? Like a man? "We're not leaving yet, no way in hell." I want to make love to you first.