Some thoughts I sometimes have

I ask myself often what I should do with myself, after all, the life is not long and as soon as I die it's over. The memories that I once existed, will die within the next generation. A person shouldn't think too long about dead relatives. Someday I won't be here any longer. Not here in this world. I won't be existing anymore. Even my small habits that underlined my personality, will die out. Just as my thoughts that were always floating around in my head, about every small detail. My warmth, my heartbeat, my perception that I had from the world, won't exist anymore. My scent will disappear. I will never be able to touch, smell, see, hear or taste anymore. If you think about it like that.. aren't you scared? Thinking about the future that will await you at the end? And as soon as you think about your past, that one perticular thought comes into your mind: '' I did nothing ''. I am so scared of death. I am so scared of the thought, that one day I won't be existing anymore. I am scared of the thoughtless darkness. A lot of people say, that they are not scared of death. To all people that think so: Have you even once thought about it seriously? I bet you repressed it. Think about that darkness. Can you be shure that you are not scared of not existing anymore? In that one moment you are still existing, breathing, living and in the next not? You can't escape death. Death will find you everywhere, it doesn't matter the place or your age. There where already a lot of people/ creatures that died. I am not the first one. What ahould I do with myself? What should I do, so that I won't regret it? What ahould I do NOW to not live my life like '' nothing "? The answer to that? I don't have one. You should just try to do your "best" out of your too short life. But even that I won't be able to do. Why? Because there is no perfection.

Live. Enjoy. It's not for ever.

Your body will rott in the end.