Chapter 3

Amy POV

I understood what April meant about the whole cutting was a punishment. And I know I have to listen to her but its kinda hard when you been though a lot and don't know who to believe anymore.

I spent my time thinking about what she said and realized that maybe she was right I need to forget about my past and start thinking about the future. But how am I suppose to stop thinking when your afraid that its going to happen again.

What if one day things end up changing again and I don't what that I don't what to get my hopes up for things like this and then end up getting turn down.

I don't know what to do anymore there are so many things on my minds it hard to think today when I was in biology and I couldn't focus on my work which was hard but I really wanted biology to finish I don't really like it I would rather go to art then here.

Today was also a very stressful day there were these girls talking about me during lunch which I didn't care.

But April is right maybe I do need to get my life together and stop being depressed all the time and start being happy she told me that she hates seeing me when I'm in a bad mood or sad or something which I don't understand why my friend need me to be happy or why they care so much too.

Maybe I'm not so use to people being there for me when I need them or saying they love me or care for me like I said I bug my friends with my problems to much that yet I still don't get why they always ask what's wrong when all I do is bug them and I hate doing that even when its my friends or family that why I keep things to myself I don't what to bring other people down even when I'm down.

I text April and told her thank u and I don't know what I would do with out her your a true friend and you always have my back no matter what.

She said no need to thank me I'm always going to be here no matter what the situation is and you never bug me with your problem my friends problem are my problems too and are always going to be.