Engraved

Enraged

Emotionally dispersed

Confidentiality outstaged

Outpaced, I stand

Existence in a maze

Pessimism in gaze

Distressed

Emotionally depressed

Explosions in my head

Discomfort in my bed

Blood boiling with meds

Unable to curb the spread

Of suicidal virus in my veins

hence, Why wait?

like a leaf in the wind

torn, sewn and dry

misdirected and shy

thrown, dethroned and tried

For the debt conveyor

convict connector

The lone life collector

to come one day

and leave me under covers

of grass, leaves and soil

When I can just

Do me justice once

slowly cut myself twice

And squeeze my chest thrice

before blinking in apprehension

of alternate visions of aftermath

Whilst tumbling apart

Like drenched pages of Maths

Upon a crucifixional board of darts

Numerally shallow at heart...

A severed subconscious erased

An incomplete puzzle of life engraved

Ghouls knocking, spirits coughin'

One soulless purpose retained

The soul no longer (bodily) detained

( Anathii to Caith)