Outing with the Emperor

When he told me he loves me, I don't know which particular feeling I felt then but I'm sure confusion is among one of it .. And even though I heard Royal mother saying it to that intruder by the name Sangyun when I was eavesdropping on her, I didn't believe it. I thought she was saying it just to scare Sangyun. Him telling me himself ..well It got me confused and the way he said it _as if i should have already known.

Anyways, I enjoyed the cuddle that night which happened to be last night. ..that too surprised me because after my yelling of how much I hated him, I was expecting him furious or more like him giving me the beating of my life ..that which ..I thank god hadn't happen.

I must confess that I did enjoy his hands on me and I'm happy he listened when I told him I wasn't ready.

Even though some part of my body enjoyed his touch, I still find myself distancing from him and I still hate him though.  

I no longer blame him for my family's death ..I mean ..come on, he was just a kid then but although I no longer blame him, I'm still angry at him because he thinks my father and relatives deserves it which they don't ..they were set up and I'm going to find out who set my father up.

"My brother ..bad Queen." I mutter to myself as I palm my head, trying to figure a way out.

"What's the matter, lady Nana?

"Jandi.. Queen mother still refuse me seeing my brother. I don't know what to do?

"I think you should tell the emperor ..Empress, maybe he will even order Queen mother to set him free _I mean, he loves you." Jandi said smiling as she style my hair for the day and that which I see through the mirror that's in front of me.

"He S.A.I.D that but I'm not even sure if he knows what love is and besides, if he ever finds out that my brother is still alive ..I'm sure he will have him beheaded because ..have you forgotten _they found him and my dad in the so called ACT and besides he was so uptight about them being a traitor last night."

"Don't let this matter depress you.. Empress. Emperor Wuji is a good man and I'm sure that if he ever finds any evidence stating or showing that your families are innocent, he wouldn't hesitate to clear your fathers name and seek justice for him." Jandi pressed with a steamed expression.

"I don't know ..I just don't want to stop seeing him as the bad guy. It's so wield. Since I was nine, I hated him ..all I ever allow myself to think is how I'm going to stab him in his sleep and ..this."

"Her Highness, you seem to be forgetting that the late emperor didn't even had your families killed in the first place ..he only put your father in the prison and then later banished you people. Someone else, maybe your family enemy did the killing while you people were packing your things."Jandi says as she looks at me in the mirror and at the same time still brushing my hair.

"Oh my god ..I don't know what to think again Jan di."

"Well Her Highness is not supposed to be thinking about anything else but her darling husband, who is going to be taking her out." Jandi whispers as if we are talking dirty, not wanting the guards standing outside to hear us.

"Oh, that reminds me ..Jan di, have you asked your crush .. If he saw the intruder who broke into my room that day."

"Yes. ...Min Yonghwan said Prince Sangyun greet them and entered ..that he didn't have to break in as he is the prince and your brother in law ..then after, he started asking me if something happened that night because you came out with just your night wear and begin talking to yourself and I replied him by saying.." Jan di didn't get to finish as I interrupt her in a panicked state.

"Oh my god Jandi, please tell me you didn't tell him what happened. "

"Well, Her Highness ..that's exactly what I did. I didn't tell him and I'm not crushing on him besides why don't you want anybody else to know."

"He is the Emperor's brother and I don't want to be the one who caused trouble between them and ..yes, you are crushing on Min Yong Hwan and you have to tell him because maybe he might also be crushing on you too.." I said the last part teasingly.

"No way! Where are you from? Of course I can't do that, I'm the G.I.R.L Her Highness." Jandi said blushing then look up outside and immediately her expression changed from smiling to submissive. She muttered under her breath.

"He is here."

"Who is here? I asked a little confused then mutter oh when all of a sudden I stopped feeling Jan di's hands on my hair and now I'm expecting his ..like he always does whenever he comes in on me ..he rap his hands around my waist and kissed me on the lips from behind making me smile and blush at the same time.