9.Loss of his mother which was everything to him.

Paul lived with his mother from 6th June 2001 till her death 1st October 2018 during which Paul had enjoyed every second he spent with her she was watching over him advising him in every topics he had disclosed with her she wanted his success by all means and did everything at her power for him to succeed;she prepared his diet food for his diabetes she was a strong support and her presence was always a blessing on his whole being.

In brief ,she was a great super mother she spent all her moments taking good care of him and his brother and his lovely sister once they visit.

As his sister left to France for good immediately after her husband illness ,while his brother left to the US afterwards she fell and broke her hips ;Paul took her to a nearby hospital the operation was successful but she died out of a strange virus called psydonomous that entered from her wound to the blood stream Paul's sister arrived before the operation but as they brought her home the wound of operation did not heal immediately.

Grace Paul with the brother Peter financing created a hospital at home for her with nurses around always lab tests always as needed coupled with her doctor consultation all the time.

For she recovered a bit but the virus re-emerged that urged her to be admitted to the same hospital again for another operation in order to remove the protease with same doctor who summoned for her a virus specialist doctor with him and she had to administer another course of different type of antibiotics which led to her death due to her weak kidneys ; for her body did not tolerate this critical virus and the long lengthy treatment which entailed administering various sorts of pills for the serious infection encountered;she died thereafter leaving her family in a complete chaos and total anguish coupled with severe distress ,especially Paul who lived all his life with her she meant everything to him and to all her family.

Rima was a very bright and distinguished woman she will never be forgotten easily for she occupied a big space with her immediate family and with her family at large ; she was the eldest sister and all of her sisters relied totally on her full support ,bright opinion and full devotion in every tiny details in overcoming any challenges or harsh difficulties ever encountered.

She was always ready to backup and fully support all who needed her immediate attention or action.

All what Paul passed through was his destiny in life for it has really aggravated all his fears due to series of stressful events and hardship that caused him a lot of lengthy moments of pain.

Up to date any accident that might arise he feels the butterfly pain at his stomach in this case is due to fear of the unknown that was bound to happen.

At earlier age, during studies and exams or his work it was fear of failure and the shame that might arise in case it happened.