Chapter 2: "my sky, let's meet at sunrise
*after a week*
I feel some heavy on my stomach which probably my cat. "Good morning" all the blood in veins rushes that made me to stand up causing my cat to fall. "You're still so clumsy" and he laugh. And I saw a tall guy with a dark complexion, hazel colored eyes that I never saw before. "Who are you? How did you enter? And why are you holding my phone?"."I'm Azure Estefan and I'm your sister's wish." This context is very confusing. "What? How did you? What? For the Love of God what is this? Tiffany you're died but your still pranking me? I thought you love me? Why?" and he laugh so hard. "What's funny huh? You think this is fun? I just find out I went back into time and now your here? This is so unrealistic". "Okay" and he went to the kitchen and then shout "Let's eat I'll explain it to you". So we sat at the dining table across each other. "This may sound cliché but I'm your sister's death wish" he was explaining and I was eating the food he made for me. "Before she went to Philippines we talk about you. While she was gone I have to take care of you. She even made me of list of your do's and don'ts. She told me to always check on you, ask you how's your day and since you're not a morning person she wants me to go to you every sun rise." That's a lot for a favor, they really are close. "Did she pay you? What's the deal huh? That's a lot of work"."No, she saved me and gave me a chance to live again. I was depressed and I tempted to kill myself when she saw me. I was about to jump in the bridge when she called me to ask for help in pushing her car to start. And at that moment I cried and she ask me and listen to all my stories and oh she even lends me money to start over and even payed for my rehab sessions. She always mentions you and your situation" I rolled my eyes "wow, she didn't even help her sister? And now she passed all her responsibilities on you? Is she insane? Hahaha"."Look Analia she wanted to, but she was chained to Raul. You know that right?"I raise my voice out of frustration and anger "How could she choose you over me huh? Over Raul? How could she? Left me like I was just nothing? I waited for her but she didn't"."I know she wronged you, but let me fix you" then tears we're streaming.
*for better reading please play I'm a mess by Ed Sheeran*
"I'm a mess" these words were the most hurtful things I've said. This didn't hurt him but it hurt me, my ego and the power of the past overtaken me to say this. I do not beg but this time was different, I actually need help. "Then let me fix you, I don't care for how long I'm just here." And she went to my side and hugged me. It's like a time lapse of bad memories that brought me so many traumas that I crumbles and cried so much. I feel like life has cheated on me, it sucked out all my joys and gave me so many anger and rejections. But his hug was very gentle that I wanna believe I still believe in joy even if it hurt. "Can I finish eating?" and it broke the silent and he laugh. "Carry on" and then we ate together.
After this morning, I wanted to go my psychiatrist and Azure accompanied me. While in the car a song played "Give me all your love now, cause for all we know we might be dead by tomorrow" and I looked at him as he sing "what's the title of the song?" "We might be dead by tomorrow by soko" "well I hate it" as I raise my brows then she just smile and sing again "I don't want to judge what's in your heart but if you're not ready for love, how can you be ready for life?" as he look at me. He got a nice voice, deep but with a little bit of crap. And I just close my eyes as I drown listening to the song and his voice.