Letting Go

Talia P.O.V

As I was waiting for my auntie to finish doing what she was doing I just laid there in m bed thinking about everything that Xavier said was he sincere with his apology and if so what do I do, do I even want him? ugh, so many questions I just grumble in frustration. I get on my phone and get on Instagram and see this girl Aliya Janel dancing with heels , I comment under her post and say the baddie because wow she is amazing I wish I could go to one of her classes I would love that so much I looked at her story and saw that she is doing a QNL tour across Europe and let me tell you my heart jumped so happily and saw that there was going to be one here in Madrid and I signed up immediately Out of so much freaking excitement I post my recipe on Instagram and tagged Aliya Janell and waited for few minutes and saw that she reposted me on her story ad I jumped up so fast and started screaming out of excitement and my uncle runs in here out of fright that something happened but lol he burst in and I was smiling so hard at my phone and he said girl you scared lol I laughed so hard and said I am okay my favorite dancer reposted me and will also be going to her class soon, she is coming to Madrid he said nice and left.

I lay there watching more of her videos with her dancing with her husband as well when my auntie walks into my room and look down at my phone and says wow she is amazing and I say I know right. I turn off my phone when the dance is over then sit up and say auntie and my eyes become watery she says yes honey what's wrong and holds me in her arms.

I sniffle and say I finally met a mate and he kissed this girl in front of me knowing that we were mates and my heart hurts, he did all of that on purpose. My auntie says OMG honey I am so sorry, who is this young man? Xavier the alpha of the blood moon pack says oh.

I just start ranting saying auntie I thought that having or even meeting my mate things will be easier for me, I hate that I feel so alone with all of my thoughts and memories it feels like no one understands me or know everything that I have gone through but all he does is make more hurt and I do not think that I want to be with him, he is already hurting me now what would come of the future only the moon goddess know I don't have the strength for that type of hurt anymore.

My auntie caress my cheeks and says baby and I look at her and she says I know your hurting but that is your mate the moon goddess did not put you guys together for no reason or you to just hurt, these things occur for a reason I just look at her like she is crazy and say Polly he kissed this bimbo in front of me and she laughed and says men are so dumb sometimes she asks did he apologize and I said yes she says baby spend some time here and just thinks about everything and when you go back then you should have some type of idea about what you want.

I say okay then I think about how funny it's going to be when I get back because I know he is going to miss me and start going crazy. My auntie says she is going to sleep now because it is still early in the morning.

she leaves and I look back at my phone and see Nina had to text me, she said :

Girl, I hope you got to your aunties place safely since you didn't text me (I am rolling my eyes )but I miss you already girl and Skyler was talking about coming there in a few weeks so I might be able to come with him but baby enjoy your time my love. I smile so hard after reading that message that's my girl lol I hope she comes so that we can spend some more time together.

I text her back sorry lol I didn't see your message I was in the middle of a conversation with Polly but I hope you can come I send her a heart then type goodnight.

After that I just lay in bed tired as hell and start singing You are the reason by Calum Scott & Leona Lewis :

There goes my heart beating

'Cause you are the reason

I'm losing my sleep

Please come back now

And there goes my mind racing

And you are the reason

That I'm still breathing

I'm hopeless now

I'd climb every mountain

And swim every ocean

Just to be with you

And fix what I've broken

Oh, 'cause I need you to see

That you are the reason

There goes my hands shaking

And you are the reason

My heart keeps bleeding

I need you now

And if I could turn back the clock

I'd make sure the light defeated the dark

I'd spend every hour, of every day

Keeping you safe

And I'd climb every mountain

And swim every ocean

Just to be with you

And fix what I've broken

Oh, 'cause I need you to see

That you are the reason

I don't wanna fight no more

I don't wanna hide no more

I don't wanna cry no more

Come back I need you to hold me (you are the reason)

Be a little closer now

Just a little closer now

Come a little closer

I need you to hold me tonight

I'd climb every mountain

And swim every ocean

Just to be with you

And fix what I've broken

'Cause I need you to see

That you are the reason

Singing this song brings so much peace to my heart It calms me when the world feels like too much is happening all at once, After I finish the song I close my eyes and put on thundering music from You tube and fall asleep thinking about life and all of the decisions I am going to have to make when I wake up.