Chapter 13

Alex P.O.V

"Moira dela torre's new song 'Paubaya' is all about letting you go. the lyrics "says when you love someone, you are willing to let go just for the sake of their happiness even though you are no longer part of it. " I told Nico.

He came earlier while I was sleeping, I just woke up and someone woke me up. I fell asleep crying, fortunately my eyes were not swollen.

We are here on the beach watching the sunset. How nice to look at and not boring to watch. I love watching sunset.

"Alex, I don't know what's going on. You just come home from New York like this. What's really going on? Shane said since I took you to the airport you're ignoring her." Nico asked one after another.

"Can you blame me? I'm just hurting Nico I'm just hurting HAHAHAH I thought we were ok ,I thought only Aunt Elise and Uncle Cesar are just our problem but I'm hurting Nico" I only told him and the tears kept coming my eyes.

"Alex, I know you can do that, you are brave, you can handle it" Nico pleaded with me.

"Will I be released? Is this the sign given to me? Destiny really does not want me to be happy always" I said to Nico while looking at the sunset.

"What if she goes back to the person she loved so much, how about you?" Nico asked me.

I don't think I can answer his question but how am I? I also do not know what im going to feel?

"How about me?" I laughed saying to Nico.

"I also don't know Nico what im going to feel? How is it when I come back? After all I found out for sure she will come back because she needs it. Maybe I just really need to accept that we are not really capable. We're just friends. That really can lead to what I want because even the destiny opposes does not want me to be happy . Unfair Nico they will be happy then how about me? HAHAHAHAHA but nothing.I can't do anything about it.What all i can do is to support them,that's the only thing i can do for them,to be happy for the two of them "I replied to Nico as tears slowly trickled down my eyes.

"Shane" Nico said.

I can't even look at her, I just turned my back, I can't even move her. I don't want her to see me hurting. Every time I see her. I get hurt, I want to get drunk I want to forget the problems first because it hurts so much I feel like I can't take it anymore.

"Ale --- eex" Shane said hoarsely, the crying was obvious in her voice. I did not bathe her, I just turned my back on her while looking at the beautiful sunset.

"Alex i ---- m so --- rry. Im really sorry Alex" She said to me.

I looked at her pitifully. I wanted to feel sorry for her but my own pity was more pitiful I felt more sorry for myself.

"It was a mistake, I did not know that Alex would be formed im sorry" She said hoarsely to me.

"It was a mistake? Did you hear what you saying Shane? You fooled me Shane!"

"You make me believe me on you,because you said we both feel the same way you said You love me. I thought you already accepted me Shane. I'm not stupid Shane to not know. You know I can still accept when ever you are pregnant because I can do nothing I can not give you that but Shane you fooled me! Do you think I did not hear JC talk to you yesterday? You said you,you love me but Shane-- "

"Alex please listen to me--" I didn't finish her yet I don't want to hear her lies.

"Please Shane stop can you stop please? I'm tired im super tired for all Shane" i said to her.

"I don't want to lose you Alex but i don't wanna use you ,i don't wanna hurt you but i know you are hurting now and im the reason. I'm sorry--" She said to me i didn't finish her yet.

"I don't want to Shane I don't want to hear all your lies I don't want to be stupid again, I love you but . From now on forget that I love you. If you are happy with him if I have to let go I will do it for you to make you happy" turn around and walk I left, I didn't look at them anymore, Nico and Shane.

I immediately left with strength and running what I did to get stuck in the resort. I don't want Aunt Anna and Aunt Elise to see me so I can walk easily. I got out of the resort but I kept walking and running as my eyes blurred as tears continued to flow into my eyes.

As my tears flowed, so did the rain, felt the way I felt the pain but ----

"BoOoooom"