CHP 2: You're actually going to do it?

About a week passed since that incident. I went back to my normal school life, spending my days in constant fear, waiting for Lee Juha to contact me. I couldn't focus on games. I couldn't sleep. I had nightmares about my urethra being ripped open.

[Hey, Lee Joon-hyung.]

[Come here by 7. Sending address.]

It was a text from Lee Juha. The day had finally come. I'd heard she'd bought a camera and was making other preparations. Were they really going to film something? My mind raced. Would they blur my face? What if they just posted it online without bothering? Were they actually going to have sex with me? Was I about to lose my virginity? My head spun with confusing thoughts.

Lost in thought, I arrived at the address Juha had sent. A small apartment building. Probably her place.

"Shit…"

Should I run? I was torn. Fifty percent of me wanted to escape this impending disaster. The other fifty percent clung to the possibility of losing my virginity. My dick seemed to be in charge, because that fifty percent felt a little bigger.

Whatever. I pressed the buzzer.

"Hello?"

After a moment of silence, footsteps thudded toward the door, and it opened. Lee Juha.

"Hello, my ass. You think you're a delivery guy?"

Well, I couldn't exactly yell, "Open up!" She probably would have ripped out my urethra.

I shuffled awkwardly in the doorway. This was my first time in a girl's apartment. Especially a female bully's apartment.

"What are you doing? Come in."

"Uh, yeah…"

Her apartment was surprisingly clean. Given Juha's personality, I'd expected a mess. Maybe she'd just tidied up.

Juha was dressed casually. A white tank top and short shorts, something like dolphin shorts. Her cleavage was visible with every move. I hadn't realized how big her breasts were. She had a large frame, so it made sense…I guessed she weighed around 60kg, definitely not 50. I'm pretty skinny, so I briefly worried she might crush me.

"Sit down, you're making me nervous. There's water if you want some."

I nodded, taking in the scent of her perfume and the unique smell of her bedding. My legs trembled with anxiety. I'd never really been alone with Juha like this. We'd always interacted as part of a group. Seeing her one-on-one was…different. Less cool and carefree, more impassive and intimidating.

"…Are we…really doing this?"

"You think we're gonna fake it?"

I shut my mouth. This was really happening. Juha busied herself, setting things up.

I'm so nervous. So nervous.

"Are you nervous?"

"A-a little?"

This felt…wrong. Like the roles were reversed. Why did I feel like I was the one about to get laid? Well, I guess I was.

"Are you a virgin?"

"…Yeah."

"Lucky you. Getting your cherry popped."

Not really… I wanted to say, but I bit my tongue. I had a feeling saying that would lead to a literal urethra popping. I had romantic fantasies about my first time, you know? Gentle, loving sex with someone I cared about. Not…this. Not being treated like a tool.

"If you can't do it sober, have some soju. But if you can't get it up, you're dead."

"I'll be fine."

I had a feeling the soju would make things worse.

"You watch enough porn, you know what guys like, right?"

"Uh…y-yeah."

"Keep that in mind. Think about the angles and stuff. And I'll give you my phone to film close-ups and things. You'll be the cameraman too. Got it? If you just zone out, I'll rip you apart."

How am I supposed to know all that? I'm not a professional. But I nodded anyway. I could figure it out as I went, right?

"Okay, ready."

Juha sat down in front of me, preparations complete. She wasn't conventionally pretty, just average. But she had a certain…allure. Like she knew what she was doing. Like she could be a wild animal in bed.

A small red light flickered on a camera in the corner. She'd already started recording. My heart pounded. I felt nauseous, like I was going to throw up. My fantasy of first-time sex involved intimacy and a gradual build-up, not…this. This was all so sudden.

Everything.

"Scared? Lol."

Terrified. And nervous. Not about anything going wrong, exactly, but about what Juha might do. She was the one who was supposed to be penetrated, but I was the one who was tense.

"Let's get undressed…"

Juha pulled off her tank top. Two large breasts tumbled free.

…Big. How big were they exactly? I bet they'd overflow my hands. Tan skin, dark areolas…just looking at them made my dick twitch.

A smirk. Juha noticed my reaction and leaned forward, unzipping my pants. I hadn't worn underwear, as instructed. My dick sprang free.

"Hmm…"

A soft moan. I'd showered, so I hoped I didn't smell. Maybe I'd gotten a little sweaty on the way over.

Juha reached out and took hold of my dick. It was semi-hard, but nerves were preventing a full erection.

"Haa…"

She inhaled softly, eyes closed, her tongue flicking out to taste me. Just the softness of her hand was making me grow harder. Each lick sent a jolt through me, my dick pulsing against her tongue.

"Ugh, the hair…" Juha grimaced, pulling at my pubic hair. I quickly grabbed it and held it out of the way. Her expression relaxed, and she began moving her lips more smoothly.

"Mmm…"

Soft. Strange. So this is what lips feel like. Plump and smooth, the faint pressure of wrinkles against my shaft. This is what a kiss must feel like. The thought made me harden even more.

"Mmm…"

My dick was fully erect now, harder than it had ever been. It felt good, the firm, throbbing heat. I wanted to press myself against her lips and start thrusting.

"Mm…" As if signaling the start, Juha took my entire length into her mouth, slowly sliding down to the base. The sensation sent a shiver through my spine. As if the feeling of her lips wasn't enough, her tongue swirled around me inside her mouth. My dick, slick with her saliva, felt like it was coated in lube. Ugh…

"Hng…"

The sucking sounds made me want to grab her head and fuck her face. The pressure on the top and bottom of my shaft made me instinctively rock my hips.

Juha flicked her tongue across my dick and gestured with her hand. She wanted me to take my shirt off. I fumbled with it, then lay back on the bed. My head was light, blood rushing through me. Normally, she'd be yelling at me for lying down, but all I could hear were the sucking sounds.

I'm going to cum.

"I'm…I'm gonna cum."

"Mm."

A small nod. What? I could cum? Already? My mind raced. Would I be able to get hard again? Despite my thoughts, my hips started to buck involuntarily. I wanted to grab her head. I restrained myself, clenching the sheets in my fists, using the tension to thrust upwards.

"I'm…cumming."

At my signal, Juha's lips tightened, sucking harder and faster.

Ah, wait. I closed my eyes and arched my back. A surge of pleasure shot through me as my dick pulsed in her mouth.

"Ngh, ngh."

My balls tightened. I kept cumming, the pressure of her mouth milking me dry.

"Nnngh…ngh…"

I could feel the movement of her throat and tongue. The sensations were incredibly vivid.

"Ha…hng…"

After a long, intense orgasm, my body collapsed onto the bed. My dick twitched involuntarily.

"Haa…"

After a long while, Juha pulled away with a gasp, her mouth glistening. A soft popping sound as my dick flopped to the side.

"Ha…hng…"

Grimacing, she spat my cum onto a tissue. A stream of white fluid flowed from her lips. The air in the room thickened, the atmosphere changed. I lay there, staring at the ceiling.

It wasn't over yet.