Fallacy

Chapter 9: Fallacy

~ Era ~

He pressed his mouth to mine. He kissed me. It felt magical like we are in the galaxy floating because there was no gravity. There was nothing that pulling us backward. No one was stopping a catastrophic moment.

The kiss was slow yet sweet. I cannot think of anything other than his fragile shallow kisses. This is my first kiss, and I can't believe it's from my stepbrother. Well, not that I never imagined us kissing before. I have always imagined this before. Who will be my first kiss, and what kind of the first kiss I will have?

I guess my first kiss is kind of an awkward moment. Frankly, the both of us don't know what a proper kiss should be.

Duh. We are only sixteen.

Regardless, it's sweet because it was from Loki.

In a split second, we broke the kiss, just looking at each other's eyes, mirroring our admiration. Then I formed an upward smile. I felt so happy, like something inside me just throw a party with a lot of confetti. I feel all the butterflies in my stomach.

I have read romance novels and there was always a line of butterflies inside the stomach whenever there's a sweet scenario.

Before, I thought it wasn't true. That they are overexpressing the feelings or point of view.

But now, now that I have experienced it?

I think it's true. Not overexpressing, but the reality and right words combined to fully describe that certain feeling. Which is what I'm feeling at the moment.

Our gaze met. We stare hard at each other. I can't help but smile at him. He didn't smile though, he hugged me. It was subtle. So sweet.

"I think we should head back to the classroom." I'm the one who broke the moment. Because I'm afraid that someone might run down here and see us doing something inappropriate for a step-sibling.

"Just a few minutes." He said it while still hugging me. His right hands were at the back of my head and the other was placed at my lower back. His hug was soft like he was holding a fragile thing.

Am I fragile? Maybe, at this moment. My hands were a little jittery, and cold. I didn't hug him back. I can't. Too overwhelmed by what just happened between us.

I move back and look at him straight in the eyes.

"We can't do it here. Someone might see us-How about let's go back to the classroom finish our classes then after that let's talk. Later. At home." I said urgently. I hold his arm and pull him to walk. I didn't wait for him to nod or react. So, he can't argue anymore but walk slowly behind me. I know he would reason out to stay for a few minutes at the bleachers but I'm adamant about it. I don't want someone to know about us.

Us.

I smiled at the thought. I can't do anything about my happy face, my smile just won't come off. Therefore, I tried to hide it from him by walking first. I don't want him to see for himself how I like that kiss.

I open the door and Professor Lambert was teaching Philosophy. When I open the door, I move forward first not minding our classmate's curious glimpse of me. I told him he would enter the room after 15 seconds so that no one will suspect us. I was a little bit shock that our subject for today is Philosophy, I thought it's supposed to be a different subject. After 15 seconds Loki came with a goofy face. He then looks at me before sitting down on his chair.

Professor Lambert is young. And one of the girls in front is obviously in awe of him. He has the muscles that women in the faculty would want to touch, and one of them is Ms. Wright. She's our new professor for our robotics class. I heard she has a cousin here in the classroom. I was just not sure who among my classmates.

I was preoccupied with the thought of who it is, the cousin of Ms. Wright when this girl caught my attention.

The girl who has blonde hair in the front is eagerly watching every move of Professor Lambert as he writes something on the whiteboard. Love is a Fallacy. After he wrote that he faced us, looking at each one of us. He asked. "Does any of you believe in true love?"

The girl on the front seat said yes loudly. She didn't raise her hand to answer so Mr. Lambert asked her again.

"Yes, Ms. Reid? Or do you prefer Addie?" He asked, slowly walking towards her. Oh, her name is Addie. Her girlfriends giggle at the question when Sir mentions if she prefers to be called by her first name.

I can clearly see her blushing from here.

Meanwhile, I saw Loki who manage to look from his shoulder just to take a glance at me and proudly mouthed yes. I stifle a laugh at how cheesy he can be.

"I'm a great believer of true love, Sir." She stands and faces Mr. Lambert when she said that. She looks nervous and shy at the time.

Even though she is a popular girl, obviously. I thought popular girls aren't shy. I thought they have brooding personalities. Because I always see her to every corner of the school when there's a large group of people. I know she's popular, but I don't care much about her, I just know that she has a lot of friends. Although, I don't know how she can be friends with Stacy right away when she's a transferee.

She seems like a good girl to me. She seems like she shouldn't be friends with depressed-looking girls.

But who am I to judge?

"Well, then. Thank you." He nods at Addie who can't even look at him directly after that. It was too obvious she has a huge crush on Professor Lambert. How crazy that can be.

"At least someone from the room believes at it. Hold your horses as we will discuss Fallacies." He added authoritatively. His shoulders are wide and if you'll ask me, he looks more of a wrestler than a professor. I laugh at the thought.

Our topic is interesting. Love is a Fallacy by Max Shulman. I read it silently from the board.

Then Professor Lambert started the discussion.

I won't disagree if someone doesn't believe in true love anymore after the discussion. The story itself was mind-blowing. Polly Espy was such a great student of Toledo. It was crazy impractical. How Toledo easily determines what she likes and then manipulates her. He taught Polly different fallacies until she understood all of them, which makes her a logician. So, whatever Toledo say to her wouldn't catch her, she wouldn't believe him after that. She didn't let him take over her.

But I can't help but make fun of her character because her main reason for going steady with Petey was a raccoon coat. Therefore, she's also ridiculous like Toledo.

How small-minded and judgmental of me.

The time pass by so easily. Sometimes Loki and I discreetly glance at each other only to smile. We are smiling like idiots every time.

I don't know what happened in the last hours of class because all I know is we are going home. Hoping for our conversation regarding what we would do about ourselves.

We are holding each other's hands on the chevy. He is driving the car with only one hand. His left hand is intertwined with mine. We are quiet, feeling our presence. But I know how synchronous our heartbeats can be.

Our eyes are sparkling with pure adoration and excitement towards each other.

"After you read the story, do you still believe in love?" I asked, still pondering on our discussion earlier. Deep inside I want to know what he thinks about it. Because honestly, I have realized that somehow the world has its own ways. It is significant to know that the earth is a planet and not the world.

The world is not Earth but the system that governs the way we do things, the way we perceive, the way we believe, and the way we function to all the things around us.

Knowing fallacies does make a huge difference for me to think about this. About us, of what are we about to do. Where would this lead us?

"Of course, I do. I believe in it every time I look at you."

He then, take a glance at me and smiled. His smile takes my breath away.

And when his eyes look at mine like that? Like I mean the whole world to him? I'd rather not be comprehensible. I don't want to care about the system. I don't want to care about the standard. I don't want to care about the world.

After all, I am the one who's in control of my life.

Gosh.

I can't wait to go home.