Save Me

☆~Alexis P.O.V.~☆

"She looks a lot like you, Jane." Finally, I get to see my niece, Jane. She looks just as beautiful as Oscar had described. "Really? I swear, she looks more like your older brother." It's true, Jane really does look like Oscar, only because of hair and eye color. She has all of Jane's facial features though. "How is Oscar? I understand this must be tough for you both." I know I could never handle having a child. I know I'm quite young, but still. Children are a handful. "Oh, he's ok sweetheart. Yes, it is tough, but we've got this." I knew right away, that she was lying. The small smile, it seemed too forced to be genuine. I didn't want to be a bother, so I decided on just smiling, with a small nod.

My day was nice. I talked to Jane and I finally saw my niece, Jade. I missed this. I missed getting to talk to people I actually liked. I missed actually feeling happy. If only it came around more often. If only I could be normal. For the first time in months, I finally feel happy. I feel calm and content. I finally felt a genuine smile on my face.

Unfortunately, as soon as Jane left, that feeling was thrown away. "What an adorable little thing. So young and so innocent." She is not going to lay a finger on her. Not on my watch. "You leave her alone. You can do whatever the fuck you want, to me. You will not hurt Jade, though." There it is. That disgusting smirk of hers. That sick, twisted look on her face. The one she makes when she knows that she's gotten under my skin. "Alexis? Are you talking to yourself again?" I looked behind me, to see a nurse that had just come in. "N-no ma'am. I'm sorry." I can't let them know. I want to get out of here. I need to get out of here. "No need to apologize dear. Just remember, you need to work on that if you want to go home soon. Now, let's go. It's time for dinner." I could only nod slowly and follow behind her.

At this rate, I will never get home. The staff here, almost every single one of them, look at me like I'm insane. They treat me like I'm some kind of animal with three heads. I see the way that they slowly back away when I come closer to them. I notice how some of the other patients here talk about me. They spread rumors. Some say that I've killed people. Some say that I've lost my sanity. They're wrong. I've never killed anyone, and I never will. I haven't lost my sanity either. I am completely sane and I wish they'd realize that.

I'm just a normal girl. A normal girl, with a demon stuck to her side. A normal girl, who just wants to be saved. I'd give anything just to be free. All I want is to go home and live a normal life. I won't lie, at this point, I've even considered death as a good way to get out of this. I've planned it all out too. It'd be easy, honestly. I would just need to sneak into the tool room, grab some kind of blade, and then end it all.

I can't though. My mind keeps going back to my family. Mom and dad, it would kill them. They've given me everything. They're the best parents anyone could ask for. Mom wouldn't know what to do. All I imagine is her, crying her eyes out with my father and my brother by her side. She's taught me so much. I remember all the times her and I would be in the kitchen together. Baking cookies or cakes for our family. Then there's my father. He taught me how to be strong. So many evenings, he and I would go outside and play with each other. Some days, he'd push me on the swings and some, we'd play catch with Oscar's football. He'd be devastated, knowing that his only daughter took her life. I can't do that to them.

I think about Oscar and Jane as well. Oscar is my older brother. He wouldn't know how to feel. I know him more than anyone else. Well, besides Jane. He'd be depressed, angry, suicidal. I know he would. He's always been there for me. Even if I didn't deserve it. There's a time that I will never forget. One of his friends began picking on me. He called me fat, ugly, and sometimes even called me a whore. I knew what it meant, despite only being 11. I admit, I did hang around with a lot of boys, but I never did anything with them. Anyways, Oscar heard it all. He beat up his own friend, just because of some name calling. He was always there to help me. He was the only one that was always there to help me. Jane, she was my babysitter. She was more like my sister though. I can't help but think back to the day that she had met Oscar. It was cute, honestly. They were both so shy. Their faces wouldn't stop turning red. Oscar could hardly speak, due to the fact that he was a stuttering mess. Finally, after a few months, I convinced him to ask Jane on a date. Now, 3 years later, she's my sister-in-law. I can't imagine a life without her. I can't hurt her like that. I can't put any of them through something like that.

Last, but not least, Jade. I've only met her once, but she's my niece. Only a baby. She so young, I wouldn't do that, just to have her find out years later. I need to stay alive. I want to watch her grow up. I want her to be happy and have a life that's better than mine. I hope and I pray that her life will be nothing like mine...