It isn't even Diana Carter

*music recommendation*: not the girl <>darey

Diana Carter...

I had thought about her for days and nights on end, I kept on Wondering what I lacked that she possessed, was it because was more successful that I was, did Luca now prefer successful woman over small fries like me....

these thoughts and more kept on revolving around my head, until I couldn't take it anymore and sought for solace in lili's presence.

"Nivera!!"

" yes" I reply to lili's stern almost jumping out of my skin

" earth to vera, where you even listening to me " lily looked flustered

" I'm sorry what where you saying again"

" listen vera if this Diana lady isn't the main reason you're troubled then why are you making me draw a portrait of her "

" what? I'm not making you draw a portrait of her, you're the one who wanted to draw a portrait of her " lily really is something else

" well could have stopped me, now just look, I wasted yet another perfect page on my sketch pad" lily was trying her hardest to feign sadness

" my apologies lily I'll get you another one"

" vera..., it's breaks my heart to see you like this, just look at you ... you look like a shadow of yourself..... talk to me vera what's truly going on "

" it's nothing I can't handle lily, trust me" I try my best not reflect the constant state of my heart

" no vera I can't trust you, tell me the truth it isn't the Diana lady right?"

" no it isn't Diana Carter"

" then tell me,what has she got to do with all this"

" SHE WAS JUST A DECOY LILY, LUCA WANTED ME TO BELIEVE HE WAS NO LONGER INTERESTED IN ME, BUT DIANA, BUT NO ALL THAT WAS A FACADE LILY LUCA DOESN'T DO WOMEN, MY HUSBAND IS FUCKING GUY" I finally let everything screaming at the top of my lungs

" Jesus vera.... come here" lily cradles me while I cry my heart out

" I'm so sorry vera"

"Luca told me he....he loved me and... and ...and only me" I manage to say between sobs

" ssshhhh don't say anything very it'll all be fine"

" no it won't Lily ..... it won't

" My God, how did all this happen vera...

after managing calm my sobbing self

" I don't know lily,my life was so perfectly planned out until 2 years ago"

" do you care to share ..."

" 2 years ago ...