Depression.

When I came outside, all the horses were unconscious on the ground.

I guess all of them fainted due to the excessive pressure.

Well, they won't be bothering me now. I will just stay on the duke's property until the second male lead finishes my lessons.

Viktor walked all the way to his house and started making some other potions from his knowledge.

The undead rose I destroyed back then. It was covered in black mana around it. It was stinky and full of uncomfortable feelings. I guess I can't make things come back to life when they are dead.

Of course, I don't want that kind of power. I will lose my humanity and become a monster if I do that.

Turning a dead person alive. Hah! It's something the creator of the universe's job, not mine. I don't hold the authority over life and death.

He made a potion with some flowers he found back in the mountains. It was a potion for charm.

-A charm potion can change a person's feelings on a certain person. But it's not a love charm potion. It's an anti-charm potion. More like a hate potion.

He made an anti-charm potion because his shiny hair and eyes were too attractive. Taking a shower daily was making his skin so bright that people were mistaking him for a rich noble boy when he visits the market.

-This thing will help me get away from all the unnecessary attention on the street.

Let's sleep for now on. I am exhausted mentally.

And he fell asleep.

Next day in the morning at 7 AM.

Although on earth, the average number of people start their day at 7 AM. But in this world, the clock was newly invented. So there was only one clock tower in the capital city of this kingdom. People use sun clock to count the time.

They wake up at early sunrise, approximately at 5:10 AM. Or even more early. So, Viktor had to wake up at his midnight.

-I can't get used to this thing. It's only 4:50!!! And the morning bell is ringing!!!

"Aaaaaahhhhh!!!!!"

His scream could be heard from afar.

...

"Mooooo!!!"

"Shut up. "

"Moo"

"I said shut up!"

-Hah! I want to sleep...

He was sitting on a wooden big bar close to the ceiling and casting magic from there.

He cleaned the stable using water magic and feed the animals.

-There's no way I am touching those shits. My hands are only for writing.

He went to the dining hall after cleaning himself up and took his breakfast from the cook.

"So today's breakfast is soup and hard bread"

He looked around and saw the others talking about something with serious expressions on their face. He became curious so he went to the group and asked,

Hey, Robert, did something happen?"

"Oh, you didn't know? This early morning, the duke's guard found a house in the mountains. There were 34 people found dead with all their horses."

Ba - Dump...

"Oh? Not just that, there was a weird circle all around the house. It looked like a curse was cast on that place. All the trees and monsters walking near that area were also found dead. It was terrible. They looked like they were dead for a whole week or two."

The man beside Robert said.

"Don't go near the forest someday okay? The duke went there to check the situation. They are calling priests from the capital church. Hey, Viktor, Don't go there okay? And stay inside the house after your duty. The neighbour is getting more and more dangerous these days."

He patted Viktor's head and went back to their work while Viktor has a scary expression on his face.

-34 people died? I killed all of them...

He went back to his room and locked himself.

-I can't believe it. I killed people? With my own two hands?

He could feel his cold tears rolling down to his face but the tear didn't touch it ground. It vanished before touching it.

-Am I some kind of monster now? I just wanted to scare them with my aura, but they all died. Not only that, it created a circle of curses on that place that even the trees also died.

He tucked himself into his blanket.

-I just killed 34 people. Is that lady alright? The knight? Are they alive? If they leak the information about me. They will chase after me. Then I won't have any choice left behind. I would have to run away.

-Oh, I get it now. I am a monster...

...

Viktor locked himself in his room for 2 days straight. Other workers at the house came but he told them that he was sick so he couldn't do anything. So the butler gave him 3 days off from his work.

-I can't even make my mind up to go outside. Alberto also came for his lessons but I turned him away.

I can't do this anymore. Making an innocents face, smile, laugh and talk with other people after killing them. I feel like I am a murderer.

I can't do this. I can't....

He cried all night but still, he couldn't fall asleep.

After 3 days. He went outside his room at night and saw the clear sky with all those shining stars.

-This is my new life. So, I can't just hide inside my blanket forever. They were all assassins. So they were also killers. So, I can't be sad forever for killing those assassins. If there was any news about the vice commander dead, the whole kingdom would've been shaken up by now.

So that means she's not dead.

He looked up and saw it was almost the time of the dark eclipse, and he remembered something.

If I don't move forward at the very beginning, who will teach those punks some lessons? This isn't a story of my novel. This is the real world and I am the only person who knows their future. So I can save so many people and repay for the sins I've done that night.

Yes, I can do it. I just have to control my powers and help those poor innocent people.

So he made up his mind and went to the lake because he remembered something he wrote.

//:Please ignore those tiny mistakes :p