Missing You

Cora's pov

Noah is fucking with my mind, he keeps on calling my phone asking if he can come hang, which I'm more than capable of turning him down. It's not like I'm embarrassed by our last encounter, I am the last person to feel anything.

Against my will, my mind had been repeating the scene that night, and each time the details faded away and got me thinking about how much trouble I might end that poor guy in.

So far, I haven't given him any ideas that I want something to do with him, I have been clear that he should date his kind and do all things he wants to without thinking about me.

He keeps wanting more, and asking to meet me. Why though did he not show up at my door even after I had said no and see what I would do? Of course, I would let him in, because it's not like he intimidates me.

Recently I find myself overthinking for no reason, that he has found another muse and he is spending all his time with her. Although it would hurt isn't something to lose sleep over, he has that free pass to do anything with anyone.

Selfishly, I want to be the only one he likes, the only one he wants to spend all his nights and days with. Even when I tell him not to come I wish I could hear a knock and find his lustful eyes staring right at me.

We are not made for each other, he is younger and naïve, and he is from a humble background and probably from a small town I never have heard of. I don't feel anything for him, and he has his fantasies about sleeping with a junior which I will never grant.

Without differences, I still want to know what he thinks of me, even though we will never be. It's a weird feeling I don't understand, the urge to have him think only of me without thinking about me at all.

The urge that makes me accept his calls and fall for his schemes every time he calls. How many times have I said to myself that I will not pick up his phone after the first ring and wait to call him later but end up picking up?

He texts every day wanting to know about my night and day, and I tell him to walk the fuck away as he should and leave me be. Even though I don't use the exact words I make sure he knows that I don't want anything to do with him.

But I find my voice to be soft talking to him and letting him seduce me. But that is over now. Because I think I care about him, I don't want you to see his fragile heart and ego broken for nothing. I'm more worthy of more than him, and I can't provide what he is looking for.

He wants a girl to add next to him as his accessory, but I don't need accessories or a need to be one. If I did, it would probably be for Dior, Prada or any other brand. I have enough for now, he should know that.

He needs a girlfriend who he can take out for parties and give him the college experience, I'm a cold bitch. I'll only break his young heart for nothing.

If anything, I should let him know that I don't want to send him ever again and that he should stay away from me. I'm toxic, he doesn't know that about me yet, I showed him the tip and he liked it.

Maybe it's the right time for me to tell him what I want because it isn't him or any other guy. I'm better on my own, and I think I like to remain like that. Without baggage, mine or someone else's.

Why am I thinking about all that, not like he can read my thoughts. But before that n should call him and try ending whatever he thinks we have right now.

"Hi", he was quick to say something. Why was he in a good mood even after I had turned him away? He knows that's what I will do once more.

"Hey, why don't you go to college parties like your fellow teenagers?"

I have to be tough, for him.

"That's not what I had expected to hear from you, my day was great as well.

I have this party location, it's for sophomores but because it's from the rich kids it might be worth it, let me take you there."

What the fuck does this kid take me for? I want to get him off my back but he's here all smiles about a sophomore party? Did he just forget I'm richer than those sophomores? I should put him in his place.

"I don't party, take a girlfriend or someone. By now I hope you have settled on one girl, take her."

"Uhm, that girl turned me down."

Noah is so damn sweet when you want to tell him to fuck off. What girl freshman would say no to such a guy?

"I bet you know me better than think I'm her sloppy seconds, just go drink something and a girl will bring herself into your arms."

I want him to go alone, I have my Friday night all planned. Who will code the new project I'm working on if I let him manipulate me?

"That girl is you. I figured out you would say no to me anyway, it's like you hate fun. Including the word itself."

"I see."

I wanted to call him names, and if he calls me a girl I will end up doing it. He better think hard before replying.

"I'm coming to get you, if you're not going then I'm not. We can continue from where we left."

Son of a b… " where is that? "

" I'll show you", he said then hung up before I could tell him not to bother coming. If he thinks he will talk to me shallowly like that and get away with it he is mistaken.