Please

I hate that unbearable feeling of heartache. The feeling like you can't make it, that you won't survive. So you chant it over and over again like a prayer. Please please please just make it stop, I can't take it anymore. Please let things go back to the way they were, please let time rewind please please please. I don't want to feel like I'm dying every second of every day. I don't want to look at the clock every five minutes and feel like it hasn't moved in hours. I don't want to be so restless inside that all I do is cry for hours straight because the memories keep flashing in my mind. I don't want to think about the life that was ripped away from me when I had no say in it.