Chapter Twenty Three - Confessions

Jungkook

I didn't want to be the kind of guy who just kisses a girl for no particular reason, so I planned on confessing my feelings to Ashley before I go for the tour. But my mind just keeps telling me that she won't say no to me.

Even if she does I'll fully understand her decision cause I've seen many guys in the kpop industry go through breakups because their girlfriends couldn't keep up with their schedules and all.

It still hurts to know that after confessing my feelings to her and asking her to be my girlfriend, I'll go for the tour immediately.

It was finally Friday, the day I planned on confessing my feelings. I planned on keeping it simple cause I'm pretty sure she won't like that cliche type of confession. I waited till it was lunchtime before passing a note to her to see me at the rooftop.

                      Ashley

The week went by in a slow pace just like I wanted cause I wasn't ready to say goodbye to Jungkook yet for six months. I really enjoyed his company during these few days, he bought me alot of stuffs and flirted with me alot, which I didn't quite hate. It was finally Friday the last school day of the week. I got to school to meet that Jungkook had already arrived.

The first set of periods before lunch went by with Jungkook being really quiet and not his usual flirty self. It was as if he had a million thoughts going through his head. It was break time and Jungkook stood up and left immediately, leaving a note on my book.

" Meet me at the rooftop"

I remained in the classroom for a few minutes to calm my nerves since it has been four days since we were alone by ourselves. I go to the rooftop and locked the door

(P.s - not for the reason you're cooking up in your head )

I spotted him sitting on a chair that was opposite an empty chair so I smiled and proceeded to where he was, then I sat down on the empty chair.

" So what's this meeting about ?" I asked with smirk trying to cool off the weird tension in the air.

" I have something really important to tell you " he replied finally raising his head to face me. He had a serious look in his eyes which made my smile to drain a bit

" Okay I'm listening "

He cleared his throat before he started talking

" Firstly I want you to know that I really really like you, I've like you for a really long time even though it was hard for me to admit it to myself. Anytime I don't see you during the period when I miss school, you're the what's always on my mind

Just your glare and your sassy words are enough to make my heart flutter. At first I really hated your guts but I realized that you're not a bad person when you don't want to be. You just put a cover upfront but deep down you're a kind and shy type of girl and also the fact that you're an anti army might be one of the reasons that made me like you cause you don't give me special treatment or anything, you talked to me the same way you talk to other people and that's what I've always wanted. I like people seeing me for me not seeing me for being BTS Jungkook... Though it doesn't change the fact that I'll still try to make you an army or just a regular fan if that's possible.

Just the thought of going for six months without seeing your face or hearing your voice and your giggles is enough to drive me crazy. I don't care what other people think, I just wanna know what you think..... Ashley will you be my girlfriend?"

I sat there speechless for a second  totally not expecting what just hit me and not knowing how to react to the large piece of information. I heard him let out a deep breath he was holding and I did the same before finally speaking up.

" I like you too, I really really do but we have to be rational about this, you're going on a tour that's really important for your career, what if a scandal comes up during the tour? I don't want to give you a hard time and I don't wanna expect things from you knowing fully well that you're busy with work. I don't want to weigh your career down .... I'm sorry " I finished

" We could work something out, I'll make sure no one comes close to you if the news gets out, I'll try everything I can to protect you " he replied with pleading eyes before standing up from his chair and squatting in front of me, then holding my hands in his

" This is about you jungkook not me, think about how all this is gonna affect you and your career " I answered with a bitter sigh

" I told you already, I don't care about what other people think it say, all I care about is what you think. You don't have to give me an answer immediately, I can wait even if you don't give me one before the tour, I'll gladly wait till after the tour " he replied giving my hands one last squeeze before standing up and leaving the rooftop.