List II

She was smiling at me, which meant I wasn't hallucinating, she was actually talking to me.

Can help you?

I said, a bit stiff, but what would you expect from a guy, who barely talks to girls and also hates how they only talk to you when you look handsome and ignore you when you don't, the famous words are usually "He looks so handsome" to "He looks disgusting", covering their mouths and pretending that they didn't say anything.

Can I help you? I repeated.

' Oh sorry, just wanted to ask if you were okay, cause I say that you were in pain, last time, so I just wanted to check if everything was OK.'

Why?

' Excuse me?'

I said why do you want to check on me, I don't know you in any way.

'Wow, chill man, so you're the cold type, okay do you think I'm not doing this just to be nice or something, I just feel like, since both of us are in the hospital and we are similar in age that we could be friends.'

I don't believe in friends.

'....What if I change your mind, we don't have to be really close, we could just be friends who talk around, how long are you in the hospital, mine is 1 week, how long is yours, my name is Kenzie by the way.'

I don't really care what you do, I'm not telling you my personal information and I didn't want to know your name. Bye...

And like that, I walked away, my mood was already spoilt and I didn't feel like staying outside anymore so I went back Inside.

' Well, that was extremely cold, what happened to him to get him like that, I should guess that he was bullied or something like that, I mean I'm friendless in school and wanted to try making friends with someone who looked my age, that was all. Well, I guess I can crack his bubble if possible. '

....

"Hey, you were super cool and cold there, you didn't even try to understand her. "

I had already arrived in my room. I was a bit shocked at myself, I guess I was really angry and reflected my anger on someone I didn't know, but I don't trust her. She might have just approached me because I was the 'guy who was screaming in pain' and she found me interesting. I do not like that at all.

"Okay, I think I got you, but for someone who wants to be an idol don't you need to be interactive with everyone."

Nah, you can be the cold idol, that doesn't smile much, but works hard.

"Oh, is that so? And I should guess that the king of the image you want to have."

Yes, I guess.

"Alright, you should rest now, since you haven't done that since you came back from exercising."

You're right.

.....

5 day later

'Hey, it's Kenzie again, what's popping, are you doing your morning exercise, have you done it, what are you up to? '

it was another day of this person called Kenzie coming to my room, I didn't try to send her out anymore as I did at first, I guess I was used to her asking questions without receiving answers, but I had started answering her with 'Yes', 'No' and 'Go'. So I was being a bit nice, she had spoken a lot and I had learnt that she was also friendless and that she was just trying to get someone her age to talk to, that didn't mean my whole attitude changed, I just wasn't angry with her around, but rather cold.

' Hey, I have 2 more days left, are you going to miss me, you haven't even told me when you are going to be discharged'

After being brought back to reality from my thoughts, I answer we in my now usual 'Cold voice' 'No'.

' Oh, I thought we were friends, how could you say that.'

But we aren't friends, I have no friends, I said.