My Story

Once again just another day at school, I've never imagined anything worse. Life just sucks! so let me explain why:

The only person I thought was my friend pained me off, I thought they were going to be there through anything like any other normal friendship would but instead I get the words, " Your fat, Your annoying, Just leave me alone, God I wish you would just get lost, Just die, " So just tell me now is this a normal friendship or not, because I'm pretty sure this isn't normal at all. This is my life I guess. I have always felt replaced in my friend group and even more now since my childhood best friend has a boyfriend. Now I'm treated like I'm nothing and nobody at all. they make me feel worthless and they treat me like I'm a total scum, making up lies about me. IT IS SO ANNOYING. They have ruined school and have made my life a living hell! They mess around with my personal space and get into my family business ruining my relationship with them especially my cousin. Olivia my cousin is so gullible she will believe anything and anyone, I can't tell her anything anymore without her thinking that I am lying. At the moment I can't do anything or even tell my parents because they will just get worried and I don't want to make them go through that. and I'm not allowed to change schools so there goes my plan. This happened day after day and now I'm sick of it, they can't even look at me anymore. It has gotten so bad I can't even go to bed without crying myself to sleep. This happens repeatedly day after day after day. Sometimes I do want to die but I know I can't because it would shatter my dad and my sister they are the only people who have ever treated me right, and I could never do that to them. I got home from school that day to hear that I'd been invited to a party. I hate parties. It wouldn't hurt to attend this one. It was quite interesting for the least. I met this girl named Skye and she was just the sweetest. I also met this guy named Louie, he was a full Filipino and he was quite interesting to talk to, we became good friends that day. After that I realized there's more to life than just the bad things in the world and started to look at it from a different perspective. Yes, there are still some bad things that can happen but also good of it too. Louie helped me understand what's the worth of this world just through the conversations we had with each other. I don't think he realized it but he helped a lot, he gave me the confidence to be strong at school and overcome the way the other students treated me at school. The more we talked the more I noticed I liked him, yes he was cute but the way he treated me just gave me a feeling that I couldn't explain, it became my favorite part of the day just sitting there texting or being on call with him even if we didn't talk, I loved the company I had. There's so much more for me to figure out that I just haven't gotten to yet that I want the answers to now but it comes with time. all that is being said is that there are so many downsides to life but when you meet the right people they can make you feel better in an instant. knowing that there are people that care about you is the best feeling in the world. After a bad day, the best thing to do is hide from the world and vent to someone you love, If it's about the good things or the bad. We may not realize the things we have until later on in life, because they won't always come at once sometimes we need to be patient in order to get the good things we deserve just like I did, then the holidays came.

At last, I can finally be free. I could get away from school and just live my life, well for two weeks that is. I really didn't do much. just sit and read and clean and sleep. That was it. Soon the holidays came to an end. It only felt like yesterday I just got on break. I packed my bags and got ready for school, hopped on the bus and continued to read. Then suddenly, a tap, someone tapped me on the shoulder. I tried to ignore it but they just didn't stop. I turned around and saw it was her, MY BULLY! she was begging me like a little puppy, for some damn internet. this was just great, she was being nice because she wanted something. Typical. I took a deep breath in and told her no, multiple times. Of course the chaos had to start again. This time instead of listening to her rant on I tuned her out with some music. except I couldn't help but burst into tears. what was I doing wrong?! I just wish I were normal. covering my mouth so no one would hear my cry I tell myself if it weren't for who I am I wouldn't be in this mess. thought changing would prove I'm weak, that allows them to win and I will never accept that. The moment I got of the bus I went straight to the dean and poured my heart out. telling him everything even the smallest of details. and soon enough i would be free forever. I hid low for the rest of that day hearing the announcement of the names called in of those who wronged against me get called into the deans office. I couldn't help but have the biggest grin on my face, it went from one ear to the other. I just couldn't believe that they would be gone. I went home that day feeling so good because they weren't even on the bus. My parents thought I was so weird for acting the way I was and asked me why. I simply just told them that we played volley ball and badminton in sport class today. They knew how much I loved those sports, they just kept doing what they were doing. That night I had the best sleep possible. I even dreamt about how happy I'd be at school now that they were gone.

* DING DING DING DING DING * I woke up in an instant to the sound of my alarm clock. Trying to find the off button half asleep I managed to break the clock. struggling to get out of bed I head to the bathroom to wash my face. as I looked in the mirror I said new day new me. and I treated that day like I was a new kid. A fresh start. I noticed those kids weren't at school that day. I knew it, my prediction was right! They got expelled. Just my luck. something inside of me made me feel so guilty. making me think that I could have gone with a different approach towards this situation. Though I did what I wanted. So why wasn't I satisfied? Why did it feel so wrong? I should have been honest with them and tell the why I felt that way. Tattling was wrong. I messed up. now realizing karma comes back to those who deserve it, I would be it's next victim for sure. What do I do now?

To be continued.