What I deserve

Soon Mu Yinan and Father Mu came back home.

Elder Mu had been back from a friend's house an hour after Shen Yue came back with Xiner, it was time for dinner.

Everyone gathered at the table apart from Mu Xinyan.

"Young miss the madam said you should come down for dinner"

" I'm really not hungry " Xinyan opened the door and replied the help that came to call her out.

"But miss you didn't eat lunch "

"I'm really not hungry, I'll eat breakfast "

The maid went back and delivered the message.

"Madam the little miss says she's not hungry"

"If she's not hungry then leave her we shouldn't stop eating because of her " Mother Mu said quickly and also happily.

"If she's not hungry we'll leave her " Mu Yinan said. He didn't know she didn't have lunch

"But sir she .... " the maid wanted to say something but Mother Mu gave her a warning look so she kept quiet and walked away.

"Let's leave her maybe she's just tired "Mu Yinan didn't think anything of this because sometimes when Xiner or Xia were tired, they wouldn't eat either.

Shen Yue was feeling guilty. Was it because of what she did?

She also didn't buy anything for Xinyan, Xiner kept getting upset and feeling like she wasn't loved enough.

She couldn't bare to hurt her daughter so she resolved to take Xinyan on her own shopping trip later.

Her heart was currently thumping hard. If Mu Yinan knew she had treated Xinyan badly, would he start to treat Xiner badly too ?

Would everyone know the truth of her daughter?

She just continued eating.

She couldn't tell Yinan this.

What if he stops treating Xiner like his daughter. Afer all what she did to Xinyan today was unfair, but wasn't it really Mother Mu's wish.

If he started treating Xiner unfairly she wouldn't be happy so she knew treating Xinyan this way would make him unhappy.

The next day was a Saturday, Mu Yinan and Father Mu decided not to go to work so they could get to know Xinyan better.

Xiner woke up early and sat right by her father. She practically adored him and Mu Yinan also loved her very much

"Little miss it's time for breakfast "

"I'll be down soon "

"But little miss... "

"I'll be down soon" she said before the maid would continue.

She went down and delivered the message

"Leave the girl I'm sure she'll eat by lunch " Everyone thought so too. Maybe she wasn't used to the food ?

Mu Yinan was quite disappointed he wanted to know more about his daughter.

Lunchtime came and the maid was sent and the girl still didnt come Shen Yue felt really bad.

"Xiao Yue why dont you go and call her " Father Mu said. She stood up and left to call her.

"Xinyan dear come down for lunch "

"I'm not hungry mother "

Shen Yue tried opening the door but it was locked, she panicked.

"Yinan I think you should come talk to her , her door is locked too" Shen Yue was panicking. This wasn't good at all . How could she not eat for up to a day now.

"Xinyan come and eat lunch " Mu Yinan said

"I'm not hungry, father" she said as she turned a page of the book she was reading. Her face calm and undisturbed.

"If you're not hungry then at least open the door "

She stared at the door, the looked back at her book and said nothing.

She had heard all the stories, all the good parents wouldn't be able to sit still if their child skipped a meal, they all ate happily with laughter even without her.

She knew how to read in between the lines, she wasn't really wanted here. Mu Xinyan had learnt at a very early age that if people just didn't like you, nothing you're going to do will make them start liking you.

"This child you want to kill all of us with worry. Open this door now!"

Father Mu was annoyed by her behaviour

She had already started to tear up. Now they were shouting too. She didn't want to open the door and be scolded, she didn't want a family that didn't like her, strangers in the orphanage not liking her was okay.

They were strangers, they weren't family, but how could she handle the people who were meant to be the closest to her treating her with hostility.

Mu Yinan left then came back with the master key and then opened the door. The room was big and so everyone entered inside the room.

They was a pile of books on the bed and she was sitting on her bed, reading a book and wiping away her tears. She looked at everybody her eyes were glossy with tears and they were already red . The tear she was holding in fell when she looked at Shen Yue and mother Mu.

She didn't deserve this.

"Dear why are you crying, quickly tell father" Mu Yinan sat on by side of her bed and wiped the tear off her cheek

"I'm fine " Her voice and tears seriously betrayed her words.

"Then come have lunch with us " Shen Yue went to the other side of her bed.

"I'm not hungry" She said after staring into Shen Yue's eyes for a while longer.

"You're making us all worried just eat a little" Mu Yinan tried to get her to come down and eat something.

"I'm really not hungry father"

Even Mother mu was racking her brain to see the reason why this child wont want to eat.

"I get it now. It's because you didn't go shopping yesterday isnt it ."

Mother Mu said angrily and slapped her thigh.

"So that's why you're kicking up such a fuss. You are so childish and made us all worried for nothing."

Mother Mu said then left the room. This childish girl wasn't worth fussing over.

"If that's the reason then father will take you out shopping today just please eat something dear "

"I don't want to go shopping, and I dont want to eat either, I'm sure grandmother will just give me Xiner's leftovers anyway so why go down to eat "

Xinyan said as more tears flowed down her eyes.

Shen Yue felt even more guilty.